What the hell have i just done?
Oh god she left.
I let her just walk out.
I let her leave.
I didn't beg her to stay.
I...
"... We can finally be together." he said.
"What?" i stammered too engrossed in my own thoughts.
"You. Me. Together." he said leaning towards me puckering his lips.
"No Aiden." i said pushing him back. I ignored his disappointed and hurt face and continued.
"Didn't this whole event teach you anything. I LOVE SPENCER. I'd give my life up for her Aid. Shes the one."
|FLASHBACK |
"Don't i get to choose who i love?' i asked as i stared between Aiden and Spencer.
Why's this so difficult?
I love...
Who do i love?
Before i could search for an answer i heard a loud screech of tyres and then a few popping sounds.
Instinctvely i jumped in front of Spencer.
My heart swelled finally understanding what i already knew.
Spencer's my everything.
She changed me.
Made me care.
Loved me.
Feeling a piercing in my adonomen i stumbled only to be caught by a beautiful blonde.
"ASH. Ashley can you hear me? ASH! Someone get an ambulance or so help me God." I gripped her hand. A small smile playing on my lips.
"Spencer Carlin. Did you just use the Lords name in vain?" i said laughing.
"Shut up." she said jokingly.
"Just stay awake. Please." Spencer begged.
"Spence. You wanna know something, im not to fond of blood." i stared trying not to look at my dress.
"Really. Never would have guessed. Remember that time i cut my hand?" she asked. I nodded as i remembered.
"You looked like you were gonna puke." she said laughing.
"Typical. Still making fun of me." i said laughing with her.
|END|
Still smiling by the end of that little flashback i continued.
"And here i am making Spence think that i want to be with you. Aid i love you. But what we had was 3 years ago is long gone. That peron you loved went and turned gay. Aid i'm a LESBIAN. Loud and Proud and all that jazz. I'm sorry."
"But you're still there. You're mine Ash. We belong together." he said
"Aid. Stop. Think. I only changed because Spencer loves me... loved me. Shes..."
Before logic thinking stepped in i began ripping out my IV's.
"Ash. Stop it" Aiden told me.
"I've gotta stop her. I love her." i said as water started to fall from my tired eyes.
Fuck that.
There tears.
THE Ashley Davies is CRYING.
I admit it ok. Now shut up else i'll punch you.
I rushed out in a hurry as crimson blood trickled down my arms.
Right Spencer where would you be? Think woman think.
1. She'll avoid Paula.
2. She'll avoid people.
3. Damn the stairs. She took the stairs.
I rushed to the elevator.
"Ground Floor, please" i asked trying to ignore the stares at me. Well i'd stare too if i were them. Wearing just a hospital gown and dried blood covering my arms i looked atrocious.
C'mon i thought as we neared the ground floor.
3,2,1,G. Bingo.
I rushed out the elevator, my energy charge falling, not caring about who i barged past in the process.
"Please Spence. Please don't already be gone. Please God let her still be here." I begged quietly in my head as i frantically looked.
"SPENCER. SPENCER CARLIN." I yelled, recieving shocked stares.
"SPENCERRRRR. BLOODY HELL. WHERE ARE YOU, SPENCE?" I yelled. Again recieving shakes of the head and tuts and stares and shhs.
Blonde hair. There. Blonde hair.
"Spence." i yelled again. Then everything went black as footsteps slowed near me.
WHAT you thinking? who is it? spencer? aiden? or someone else? what do you think? want me to continue up to you. thanks ellie xxx
