Rated T for swearing and child abuse. Disclaimer: I don't own Big Time Rush. Thank you guys for those reviews, they made my day. I hope you guys enjoy chapter two.
Kendall's POV
I couldn't get out of there fast enough. If my body didn't feel like it was going to give out at any second, I could have been maybe half way back to the Palm Woods by now. I went over to the bus stop to wait for the bus and luckily it wasn't long before one showed up. I didn't want to be out here one second longer.
I needed to get out of here. I needed to get away from here before the boys came out to tell me how stupid I was or that I just made a huge mistake. I did not care. And it's not like they could understand. They had no idea what it's like for me to go through that.
I am never going back there ever again.
I don't care if I have to go back to Minnesota, I will not go back there. Sure, Katie will kill me, but hey, my death wouldn't be as bad as staying in there while he continues to electrocute us for every little mistake.
I'm doing this for your own good.
"Shut up!" I yell and everyone on the bus looks at me. I'm screaming at the voice in my head. "Sorry." I say as I then lay my head against the glass window.
It finally gets to my stop—which felt like forever. I get up and as quick as I can, get up the apartment. I let the door to the apartment shut behind me. I slowly walk towards my room, but I don't make it. I slide against the door to my bedroom and onto the floor.
I couldn't hold it in anymore. But luckily, being home, I didn't have to anymore.
Logan's POV
Nobody said anything after what Kendall said. We kind of stood there as he walked out. But then we looked up to see Kelly smack Gustavo on the back of his head.
"OW!"
"I can't believe he just did that." James says. And I can't help but agree with him. I mean, sure, I didn't like being electrocuted—none of us did—but I don't think quitting ever crossed my mind. But a part of me isn't as surprised. When Gustavo shocked us the first time, I looked at Kendall after the initial shock and pain faded and he looked so hurt. Something was off.
I guess he just snapped.
"What are we going to do without Kendall?" Carlos asked.
"We're not going to do anything without Kendall. He'll be back. He just needs to cool down." Gustavo says and Kelly hits him again. "And when he does, I'll apologize." He says. Kelly hits him again. "...OW! And stop the shocking." He adds and Kelly nods in approval.
"I don't know if he'll come back." I say and they all look at me. "You didn't see him. When you first shocked us, after you kept shocking us, and—he looked—he looked broken." I say, at least that's how I saw it. I could be wrong. I hope I am wrong.
"Come on, Logan, I doubt it. Come on, like you said. Kendall was tired, so with the exhaustion and the shocking he just snapped. He'll come back." James insists.
"He's got a point Logan." Carlos states. "I mean we all got shocked. Only Kendall lost it." He says and I nodded, that was true. Maybe they were right. They were right. Maybe if Kendall just got his space, he would feel better and tomorrow they would be ready to work.
"Well, we should a little more. Give Kendall time alone to cool down and we record our parts for the song." I say. "And this time without the electrocution!" I add, it might get done more smoothly without that. And Gustavo agreed. Probably because for one, he didn't want Kelly slapping him anymore, and second, he didn't want anyone else quitting.
Mrs. Knight's POV
I just got done with some runs from the store. Maybe I'll have a little quiet time while Katie is out with her friends and the boys are at the studio.
I unlocked the door and shut the door behind me. I hear something when I come in, unsure of what it was. I thought nobody was home. I walk over slowly and drop the grocery bags at seeing Kendall. I quickly went over to him, putting my hand on his shoulder.
"Kendall?" I say.
"M-M-Mom…" He says, not removing his head from his knees.
"Kendall, what's wrong?" I asked. I hadn't seen him like this in so long.
"Gu-Gustavo—he—h-he e-e-electrocuted us." Kendall stutters and that's when I brought him into my arms and held him as he cried. I stroked his hair once and then just held it close to my chest. How could he do this to him? Sure, he didn't know anything about what happened. But how could anyone do that to someone?
"H-He w-w-wouldn't s-s-stop." I hear Kendall choke out and all I could do was sit there and try to calm him down. I wished I could do more, but I couldn't take the pain away. I never could.
I can't believe he could do this. I thought he cared about the boys, but I guess I was wrong. All he cared about was himself.
And now he's hurt my baby boy.
"It's okay now. I'm here. No one's going to hurt you." I whisper to him as he starts shaking in my arms while he sobs.
"D-D-Don't l-leave m-m-m-me" I hear Kendall say.
"I'm not going anywhere baby." I tell him. We stay there in the corner of the apartment for a while until he was calmer. When he stopped shaking, I got up and helped Kendall to his feet. I led him over to couch. I sat down next him and almost right away, he went into my arms. I wrapped a blanket around Kendall and continued to comfort him best I could.
I really wish Kendall didn't have to go through this again.
Yes, I know sort of a filler chapter but yeah, this is what happened right after Kendall quit. Next chapter is when the boys return to apartment. And I don't know if I wrote Mrs. Knight right, but this is what I came up with. Let me know what you think by leaving a review :) Helps me write faster.
