Tris POV
I finally arrive in San Antonio. I'm still in my wedding dress, but I took my hair down, and my shoes. I start looking for a apartment, just driving around. I find apartment buildings that look nice. Once I find one that I like, I buy it. It's weird that no one has recognized me yet.
I go into the new apartment. I realize I don't have any clothes or anything. I have clothes for Ashlynn in her baby bag. I change Ashlynn into her clothes. I smile at her sadly. She will grow up without a father.
I drive to target to get clothes. I buy enough clothes for me and Ashlynn. I buy some decorations too. I go to home depot and pick out furniture. I ask them to send it to my house. I also bought paint in the colors maroon for the living room, dining room, and kitchen. I but a royal purple for my room. I buy a bright yellow for Ashlynn's room. I but a blue for both bathrooms.
My apartment consist of a living room, a small dining room, and a decent sized kitchen. A master bathroom with a bathroom, and a smaller room. We also have one guest bathroom, which will probably be Ashlynn's.
I drive back home and put all my clothes in my closet. And Ashlynn's in hers. The furniture comes a few minutes later and they help me set everything up. I already painted walls, so my apartment smells of paint. I set up all the decorations I bought too. I go to Ashlynn and pick her up.
"Daddy is gone sweetie, I'm so sorry your not going to have a daddy anymore. You probably wont remember him when your older, but that's okay, you don't need to remember the man who left us," saying it a loud to her makes it all real.
He is gone. Tobias is gone. He isn't coming back. All I have left is my baby girl. I need to move on. I know it will take a long time for that to happen. I will probably be scared forever. I will be ruined forever because of a stupid choice he made. He ruined my life forever, and I will never be the same.
I need a job. I can't be a singer anymore, or I could easily be found. What do I want to do. I've always loved cooking, maybe I can get a job at a restaurant. That is probably the best choice.
I drive around till I find an open job at La Madeline. I apply, and apparently I did pretty good, because I get the job immediately. They tell me its full time. I guess I need to find Ashlynn a babysitter.
Time Lapse
I find Ashlynn a baby sitter, I got the job, I have an apartment, I can start a new life. I deicide to make one more song. I'll just make a YouTube channel and post it there.
I think about what I could write. I write to let my feeling out right now. Right now I feel broken. But I will be strong for Ashlynn, and for myself.
After ab hour, of thinking, writing, erasing and everything in between, I finally have a song, that I hope expresses my feeling enough. I grab my phone and use the camera. I cover the camera so no one can see me, evenif I am using an anonyms You Tube channel.
I take a deep breath.
Skies are crying, I am watching [Chorus:] [Verse 2:] [Chorus:] [Bridge:] [Chorus:] (Like a skyscraper) Like a skyscraper
Catching tear drops in my hands
Only silence as it's ending
Like we never had a chance
Do you have to make me feel like
There's nothing left of me?
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
As the smoke clears, I awaken
And untangle you from me
Would it make you feel better
To watch me while I bleed?
All my windows still are broken
But I'm standing on my feet
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
Go run, run, run
I'm gonna stay right here,
Watch you disappear
Yeah, oh
Go run, run, run
Yeah, it's a long way down
But I am closer to the clouds up here
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Oh Oh
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
This song describes how I will raise up, and how I will be stronger from the experience.
I look at the clock and see its midnight. The wedding was last evening, but I drove all night to get here. I see Ashlynn asleep on the chair. I smile, and take her to her crib. I lay her down in the crib and look at her, she resembles him so much.
I go to my bedroom and lay down. I've been holding it in, and trying to act brave, but I can't anymore. I just let it out, and cry, and cry, and cry until there is no tears left in my body to let out.
He's gone. Forever. I don't know how exactly I'm going to handle it. I've been with him for so long, I don't know what to do without him. It may seem pathetic, but it's true.
He was my everything, and now he's gone.
There ya go. This was kind of just a filler chapter. It was necessary, because it kinda builds up her new life. Anyway, next chapter there will be a huge time skip. I want her to own a restaurant, but I don't know what I should call it.
I'm doing the restaurant thing because it's kinda my dream. When I'm older I want to own my own nice restaurant called 'Ruths'. It's my middle name and I also learned a lot of recipes from my great Grandma Ruth's cook book, so yeah.
Living my dream through a fanfiction. Wow.
~Ali
