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...Chapter 1 .…..
Lets go back to how this all began.
I am 14 years old almost 15 and my life isn't great by any means.
My father Phillip Harold Swan is always mad at me and my mom Renee Marie McCarty now Swan only tolerates me.
My dad use to love me until my mother said I wasn't his I was 7 years old. Then everything changed he stopped telling me bed time stories, I stopped being his pretty little princess. I changed into the little brat and the stupid one. No matter what I did to show him I didn't change and I was smart, it never mattered.
I have a 4.0 in high school I am a freshman… I should graduate early I have been working so hard. My counselor said that with my schedule I will be able to take college credits my junior and senior year and I will have an associates degree my senior year. She said that I'll only be taking college classes those years. I'm a freshman and school is almost finished for the year, and even if I don't go for the rest of the year I'll still pass with a B.
We only have exams left this term so I've been studying at the library everyday this week (it is Thursday) staying until dark and walking home, but tonight mom said she would pick me up so I can stay until close which is 10 pm
I have my finals tomorrow well two of them so I just want to study.
It is 9:50 and my mother is nowhere in site. So I text her
Where r u? -Bella
Going to be late …. just walk home. -Mom
What? How late? I can wait! -Bella
At least an hour my boss wants to have a meeting -Mom
Err …mom it is dark out, n I don't think its a good idea to walk this late. Plus I'm in a skirt. -Bella
I shouldn't have to tell her this she is the mother at least she should already know.
Isabella just go home and stop being a baby! I will see you at home and tell your dad I'm at this meeting -Mom
Mom please come get me -Bella
No I cant! See you at home Isabella, good night I cant text you anymore my boss is getting mad -Mom
Fine! Good night Mother! -Bella
Great it is dark and the only way home is through the park. I mean in the daylight it is a great place, but that changes with the twilight.
I have my Mase with me I'll be fine…Right?….Maybe mom is right I'm just being a baby. Time to put on my big girl panties… and walk home…maybe I should call Emmett my cousin.
Naw! I'll just text him!
Em is tall and kind of scrawny. He has the prettiest baby blues and dimples. My dad teased him on that saying that he will never get a girl with those chicken arms and legs. I laughed since he finally did get a girlfriend. I have only met her twice. She was nice to me each time. She told me I was like the little sister she never had. The last time we got in a small fight.
Em r u busy?-Bells
Yeah I'm at the west end with Rosie wats up? -Em
Well mom didn't pick me up from the library so I'm walking home -Bells
What? -Em
Mom didn't pick me up so I'm walking home -Bells
No don't do that I'll come and get you stay there. -Em
No, Rose already hates me… I'll be fine…love you …I'll text u wen I get home -Bells
Cuz …bad idea… n Rosie don't hate u… -Em
I giggled I love my cousin
I'll be home before u even get half way here so have fun …ttys ..love you - Bells
Fine but text as soon as u get in ….love u too…ttys cuz -Em
I already started walking so I'll be home in like twelve minutes.
I am walking as fast as I can.
I got grabbed from behind and start being dragged behind some bushes to the left of this path. I am kicking and scratching who ever has me this person punched me in the face. I try to spray him with Mace but must have missed for he only said "that was so stupid of you bitch."
He hit me in the head again.
He continued to drag me further under some bridge I just cant get away from him. I tried but he hit me again. This time in the back of the head. I want to get away. I'm trying so hard and I have succeeded just to be thrown down to the ground I tried to crawl away just to be drug back I was back to kicking and scratching that got me another punch in the face. I couldn't see out of my right eye and I was so sore everywhere.
He continued to hit and punch me he picked me up and body slammed me into the ground that knocked the wind out of me. In the next second my shirt and bra was ripped off. I am so dizzy and disorientated. I clawed the man then he grabbed my arms and held them over my head.
I tried kneeing him that got me punched in the side with his free hand. I was screaming since this started….
He hit me again and then some how I got my hands free again and scratched him again. He punched me in the ribs effectively knocking the air out of me again. That made me dizzier as well. With that my skirt was pushed up.
I punched him in the face and he laughed at me. I also continued scratching him again. That got me another punch in the face. Making everything go blurry. I tried again to get away as he unzipped his pants. I bit his arm and that got me punched in the face again and since I was still screaming he covered my mouth. I bit him again and he hit me again. He ripped my panties off of my body. I felt his penis right at my opening I tried to get away from him.
He entered me and I cant move all I can feel is pain and his hot, alcohol smelling breath on me he is still going and my arms are useless and above my head. He leaned down and bit my nipple. Then he said "such a tight little body.
"I'm going to mark you just like you did me." with that he bit my other nipple so hard I'm still screaming but that seems to fuel him to hurt me more.
He continued at his rough pace. I bit him again and he head bunted me and everything went black.
Beep….Beep….Beep….Beep….Beep….
What is that annoying sound... ouch I hurt everywhere.
I just need to wake up... I opened my eyes they were swollen almost shut.
I moaned out in pain.. "Sweetheart I'll get the doctor. He will take care of your pain!"
A few painful minutes went by... But it felt like hours….
"Alright miss I'm Doctor Mason I'm going to ask you a few questions but first I'm going to go over your injuries."
I nodded my head.. and he continued
"You have a bruised trachea, a broken jaw, 9 broken ribs, you have broken all the bones in your right arm and wrist, and I you have broken your right leg in 7 places. The left leg is broken in 2 places. We did surgery to fix all the broken bones on your arm and legs. We also had to wire your jaw shut. What is your name sweetheart?"
He gave me pen and paper
I wrote Isabella Swan can you call my dad Phil Swan he is the chief of police of in Seattle.
"Sure. No problem. I'm going to give you some pain medicine to relieve your pain. " with that he said something to the nurse and I fell back to sleep.
More time went by
I feel the pain again... the nurse gives me something else and I fell asleep again.
More time went by
The same thing happens for a while...
I wake up get pain meds and fall back to sleep…
Time means nothing to me right now...
I woke up again and asked the nurse by writing 'how long I've been here.'
She said "Two weeks and you are doing much better now in two days we will be able to take off the external fixator that is on both legs and arm. Sleeping is the best thing for you right now."
So I did. I just wondered where are my parents they have to know I'm here.
I slept a lot I don't even remember them taking off the devices on my body. But they are gone. I feel like Shit but the meds help so much. I fell back to sleep
I woke up and my dad was there just watching me.
"So the little slut woke up. You can never come home you are dead to us. You and your mother are tramps and only one of you can be there. I can't help it if your boyfriend got a little rough with you. I also took your cell phone I refuse to pay for anything you have. Don't even contact us I told your mom that she needs to let you live with your choices. Good bye Isabella."
I can't even speak yet. All I can do is cry. This is my mom's fault for not picking me up. This causes me to go into an anxiety/panic attack. Dr. Mason had to sedate me
It takes me three weeks for me to talk…well more like mumbling…
I got released into a nursing home two weeks after I woke up since I couldn't walk or talk or even move very much.…My parents gave me to the state.
One day I had just got back from the library at the nursing home and a girl with short spiky black hair was in my room on the bed she just started talking to me and I swear the wind gusts coming from her was at 300 miles an hour. She was talking to me like I was her best friend and I loved her for it. It makes me feel almost normal.
After that day she came back everyday we talked me very little but she kept me company.
It took a while for my bones to heal and I had PT everyday.
Doctor Mason came in and told me that I'm pregnant today and Ali was there for me she got here about twenty minutes after Dr. Mason told me she hugged me telling me everything will be alright, and she would support me in whatever decision I made.
I cried some more then fell asleep I woke up to Ali sleeping in the bed with me and nurse hatchet was so mean to her.
I stayed there for months.
-*Flashback*-
I am to look at my body I was so scared at what it may look like. This is the first time for I always closed my eyes when ever they changed the bandages.
I am almost completely healed I have scars around my nipples for he bit me so hard that I have seven bite makes around each breast. I have scars down each leg where the bone actually came out.
My right arm is the worst the scar starts just below my shoulder and goes all the way to my wrist. I also have bite makes all the way down that arm around my arm as well. And matching on the left arm. It truly looked as if he used me as a chew toy.
I cried for there isn't any way to hide my hideous body.
- *End of Flash back *-
The State told me that since I had parents that I couldn't stay. I have no place to go and no money. I want so much, but have no idea how to get it done. It is three days before thanksgiving.
I talked to Ali and she said for the time being I could stay at a half way house a block from her apartment when I have to move. She set it up for me since I didn't have parents any longer. I am grateful she is so helpful to me.
I miss Emmett for I haven't spoke to him or text since that horrible night.
About a few weeks ago I borrowed Ali's cell phone to call the school to see if I could finish my exams they said alright I had a week to prepare.
I talked to my counselor and explained to her that the trouble I was in with the pregnancy and that I want to finish high school by next Christmas or so that way I would finish. She agreed and helped me with everything to get this goal accomplished.
So I took them last week and I passed with a 95 on all of them. I also signed up for summer classes, and also night school classes.
Alice helped me so much…. I did the summer school everyday. For night school I had to take one class every night. I got all the work from the teachers and Ali picked it up for me since I was still unable to go out.
I'm working so hard on everything … PT was so hard and painful, my classes are easy but with everything I'm exhausted all the nurses are nice except nurse hatchet. She works midnights.
Doctor Mason said I can go home in three days. I was told I needed to vacate the bed at that time.
I also met a new guy Eric at the nursing home he is an aide. We talked until I got out I was living in a shelter. He kept pushing for sex and our first time was horrible I kept seeing my rapist and he just kept going and Eric didn't care about me. That night I cried on Ali's shoulder to asleep. She just held me.
That was a couple of months ago I still hate sleeping with him. He only
cares about getting off. I'm totally scared with him and he still don't care.
I got about one more week until I have my baby. I don't know what I'm going to have but I don't care as long as the baby is healthy 10 fingers and 10 toes. Ali helped me get an apartment next to hers.
This is when I started giving her my paycheck so she could pay my bills. Which I'll move …..as I get home from the nursing home. Ali is going to do it. The job I have right now is being a secretary at the nursing home's library. It pays alright
Eric and I have been arguing about the baby I told him that this baby was my first priority. I just let it go.
My time was today to have my baby. Ali and Eric was here with me. I just wasn't progressing and the babies heart rate dropped and I had to have an emergency c-section I already signed for Ali to be my proxy for I wanted pain meds and she agreed and signed the papers quickly and then I wanted
Ali next to me holding my hand. She is my sister by another mother. Eric was so mad he wanted to hold my hand. But I said no. They took the baby and I was now a proud mother of a loud baby boy. He has great lungs on him. Doctor Mason delivered my baby boy.
I have been having problems naming him since I didn't want him to have anything from any of the men in my life right now.
Doctor Mason came in and was checking me over to make I was ok.
"So no name yet?" Dr. Mason asked
"No I just don't have any good men in my life except you what is your first name?" I asked
He chuckled "My mother named me Anthony Robert Mason but now I got extra letters after it. I was named after my grandfather he was a good man."
"Would you mind if I named him after you?" I said
"I would be honored as long as you explain that we my grandfather and I expect great things from him." he said
I giggled and said "I'll do that thanks doc."
So his name is Anthony Robert Swan…he weighted 10 lbs and 1 ounce he is 24 ½ inches long and his head is 15 ½ cm his apgar was 9 and 10. He is my little man. Ali left us for a little while. We were bonding when Eric came in and he started right off the bat about how worthless I was for not letting him into the operating room.
After a few minutes the nurse asked him to leave. Ali showed up minutes later. She hugged me and we held the baby I was trying breast feeding but I was also taking pain meds and it seems to knock my baby out so after a while of the death bellow(Screaming at the top of his lungs) my baby would do after he fell asleep and woke up hungry and crying I went to bottle feedings which worked so well at 10 days my baby is sleeping through the night.
Ali calls him her little Tony Bob….it is so funny he seems to respond to her and that name better than Anthony. I just go with it.
Eric kept apologizing to me and convinced me to go out on another date with him.
Which ended in another fight (Bella vs. Eric)
"I want my own baby. He isn't mine."
"Well he is mine and I'm not having another one right now. Dr. Mason said I cant even have sex for 8 weeks."
"Awh… babe… He was just fooling you know I need it more than that I cant wait that long."
"No Eric …We are going to go home I hurt to much it has only been 12 days and I'm still bleeding."
"Bells… Please I need relief… I've had a boner the whole date with you in that great dress and your boobs are huge."
"No I'm going home."
I got up and went to the door went out and flagged down the cab and went home. I have a job as a waitress and my first day back is tomorrow
Ali agreed to watched Tony so I could work. I promised myself to give her more than half of my paycheck. She said it was not necessary but I cant free load on her and she pays all my bills so.
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