Hey, I am sooooo sorry that it took so long to publish this chapter, but I have been very busy with school, with both homework and tests, plus I have been on a school trip to Poland and Berlin. It was some travel for peace thing, so I got to see the concentration camps, such as Auschwitz, Birkenau and Sachsenhausen. But I should have published this chapter for a long time ago, so again: sorry Please forgive me.

Alfred kept sending me hateful stars all day and I replied with a sadistic smile. Every time we are in the same room, I can see the students trying to get closer to the door that leads out of the classroom, and I can even feel the temperature drop, and it seems like that students notice it even more. Sadly for them, Alfred and I are almost always in the same room, since we have many of the same classes.

Even if I am going to see Yao today, I can't help but feel like punching that idiot in the face. I really hate him, and to be honest, I like to use every opportunity to irritate him, and he seems to think the same.

I am not good at school to say it nice. I have way too much to worry about than getting good grades. I have my sisters that I have to take care of, and I have a poorly paid part time job as a cashier at a little flower shop not so far away from my home in this boring neighbourhood. Someone has to make money, and my parents aren't exactly helping either.

Katyusha and Natalia are also helping me with getting money. Katy works at cloth store, and Natalia is a waitress.

My sisters are not doing well at school either, but at least Katy get help from her Turkish boyfriend, Sadiq. I don't like him. My sisters deserve the best of the best, and I am sure she could find some better guy than that show off.

I don't like his friends either. One of them sleeps way too much and the other one is…strange. He is stubborn and never talks, but his close friends say that he is very talkative. I would have liked it better if she would hang out more with Toris, Eduard and Raivis, as she used to.

Natalia is doing better on that side, but she is being a little too friendly with a certain American. It pisses me off. But luckily she prefers my little Baltic friends, Katy and me.

The last class ends and it is time for lunch. I don't have money to buy anything, and I don't have a lunch box either, but I have made sure that my sisters have food. Sadiq makes twice as much as he used to so that he can share with Katy, and Toris would not have tried to deny his former crush food. He knows that I am watching him closely.

Unlike everyone else, I prefer to sit out on the sun at a special spot that I have claimed as mine. It is a peaceful little spot underneath a tree with long braches that hides you from those who is working at one of the higher floors, but you can see them.

And one of those is Yao. That is what I do in the breaks. I watch him from distance, and it will never get boring. How he looks through papers in a hurry, preparing other classes and talking with someone in the room or on the phone. He does all this with a cup tea and sweets or pastries.

Creepy? Yeah, but I can't help it. I need him, even if it is just watching him work, or being scolded by him. I wonder if he understands how much every little minute of his presence warms my cold heart, makes my day a little more bearable, and the thought of him makes me get up of bed every morning, when I just want to sleep, and never wake up again.

The answer is no, and in a way I hope he will never find out. What would he think? I know that if I was married, and one of my students that everyone thinks is insane was in love with me, I would have quit and found myself another job. So I can't risk losing him.

As I make myself comfortable under the tree, I can see that he isn't there yet. Even if I can see well from here, I still can't see everything. In fact I can see almost nothing, but a certain corner of the room, and luckily for me that corner is where my sunflower decided to has as a work spot.

I lay my head against the hard surface of the tree, and close my eyes. The sun is warm against my face, and behind my eyelid I can see golden light. It feels like I am wrapped in a blanket. It is way to hot, but in a good, and protective way. It is in moments like this when I feel like my problems do not exist. Because I know that when I open my eyes I will see him, see his beautiful face, and for that moment my pain will be washed away, even if it is just for a few minutes.

Opening my eyes again, I see him. He sits in his red chair with a steaming cup of tea. My Chinese Beauty is writing something on his PC, probably preparing for a math class. He looks relaxed, and he has a little, but happy, smile on his angelic face. That smile warms me up even more than the sun, and I would have given everything to sit here for the rest of the day, but I know that I can't.

"так красиво" (so beautiful)

He has stopped writing, and he is leaning back in the chair. I envy that chair. It is pathetic, but true. I am sure that I would have been a good chair. Yao has closed his eyes, and it looks like he is sleeping. Poor thing, he must have been up late, or waked up early. If I decided then he would have been in bed now, with breakfast, and surrounded by pillows.

The wonderful pictures in my head makes it impossible not to smile. But I am quickly ripped away from my private scene as I see the principal pats him on the head and points at the clock (I think that it is a clock since everyone freaks out when someone points in that direction). Yao jumps out of his chair and shots his tea. He takes his papers and books, smiles at the principal, and runs out of sight. I sigh as I hear the bell ring, and I get up from the spot. Taking my bag and books with me, I head to the next class, and hoping that I don't run into Alfred on the way.

Still, I hope you guys can forgive me, and big thanks to my beta