She wishes Daniel would wake up one day and understand that they are meant to be. She wishes Annelise would at least stop breaking his heart. But those are only wishes and she's just his plan B. She's everyone's plan B but that's okay, she'll just keep fucking his pain away
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Fuck away the pain
She was sick of this. Sick. Sick of only being his plan B. Sick of fighting her feelings like this. She was well aware that they couldn't be together because of who they were. Because she was Julchen. Because he was Daniel. Because Daniel only loved Annelise. And she wasn't like her. Not a single bit.
(It hurts so much to know it)
Daniel was in love with Annelise. Totally. Unconditionally. Fully. It was a well-known fact. It was obvious. He couldn't see Julchen loved him or he just didn't care. Sadly for him, Annelise was a moody bitch. One morning she decides he's the only one for her before changing her mind the day after, after waking up in his arms.
And Daniel, oh Daniel
(Her Daniel)
Sweet Daniel was so hurt, so sad, so alone, so depressed. She couldn't -can't- leave him like that. (She'll never let him down) But Julchen, poor Julchen, was always there. She loves him. She loves him so much.
(Too fucking much)
She hates herself for it. She can't stand looking at her reflection in the mirror anymore. She's a helpless fool. She's stupid.
(Love is stupid too, anyway)
She replaces Annelise in his arms every time he's down because of her, that annoying stuck-up Austrian elitist. She's there every night. Dutifully like a clockwork. She kisses him. He doesn't taste like vodka and sugar like Ivan. He's tasteless. She doesn't feel as happy as she should. She's just sad.
(So fucking un-awesomely sad)
He doesn't kiss her. He kisses Annelise through her lips. She tries to erase her from his brain each time.
(So many times)
He tries to make her leave his mind as she fucks his pain away. Daniel's stupid too. He's too foolishly in love to look at her the way he should. She knows he's only pretending. He closes his eyes and think of dark her and violet eyes. It hurts. He always pretend. Unlike Ivan. (She can't forget him. He's the fear she'll never forget. The hatred that keeps her alive.) Un-awesome Ivan.
(Un-awesome Daniel)
They touch, the grind against each other. They lick and kiss. They bite and caress. She screams. So loud. She screams for him. And he moan. He moan so loud. But not for her. A name always leaves his lips as he release inside her. A single name. (The same name.) Annelise. She's not even surprise. She knows he only loves her. She understand.
She's not surprised.
(But still jealous, says the voice in the back of her mind)
He doesn't love her. She's just a friend. She's just his plan B.
(She's everyone's plan B, whispers the voice.)
She's never plan A.
Except for Ivan.
But she hates him.
She's Daniel plan's B.
But she loves him.
She knows it. So she just keep comforting him.
She's already broken, it's too late for her.
(Her heart is broken)
It was crushed too many times to be able to heal. But it's okay. She's Julchen Bielschmidt. She breathes. She's Prussia.
(Motherfucking Prussia)
She's doesn't need help. She's strong. She's the White Beast.
(A broken beast. Alone in the dark, sings the voice)
She's the White Beast. The red eyed devil. She has fire in her swords and power in her guns. She's the White Beast. She's Prussia the Great. She has demons in her body.
(But ghosts in her eyes. So many ghosts. Far too many ghosts.)
She's alright. She's the strongest nation.
(She bears the most scars on her body. On her soul.)
She's alright. She's Julchen. Daniel doesn't have to fix her.
(She doesn't fixing.)
Ivan had understood it.
Daniel doesn't have to be a romantic hero.
She's the one fixing him. She's always the one fixing him, mending he's broken heart, licking his wounds.
(The voice let out a mocking laugh in her head.)
It sounds too much like Ivan for her to be comfortable.
She's Julchen. She's just a plan B.
(Even if it hurts that much?)
Even If it hurts like hell.
She's just a plan B.
She Julchen. Only Julchen. She'll just keep fucking his pain away.
