I am back (I seem to be repeating that). I just noticed that I've been writing these stories of mine for nine years already. In May I turn thirty and it scares me like nothing else. I wanted to write something dark once again, this time about darkness chosen. Something good always comes from bad, like flowers pushing their way through a forest fire area. Even in darkness, my happy ends are there – because we make them ourselves. Do enjoy and review!

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Pairing: Sasuke x Naruto

Summary: His pitch-black eyes are constantly following you and the anger gathers into your fingertips. You have been mistreated before too, so what is one more, when it was your choice? At least he pays for your services, right? SasuNaru. Rated M for sex and language.

Disclaimer: I have no rights over the characters or whatsoever (do not sue me Mr. Kishimoto), I am just loaning them and returning to the rightful owner (Mr. Kishimoto).

So now after school we keep up this money exchange, Sasuke sucking my dick and whatnot. He actually gets better at it and is eager to please, which I find pathetic and funny. I entertain myself by making him jerk off at the same time, so that I can watch how sorry excuse of a homo he is. His dick is swollen and the erection looks painful and fuck, is he a pervert or what. Sometimes I wonder what the fuck is wrong with him and how can he get anything out of this. But he does. He seems to be enjoying it too.

I know how to enjoy this of course, since well, it is kind of hard to whore yourself out if you cannot look the part. Also, it is easy sex, which means I do not have to take anyone to movies and pretend to listen and be interested just to get them under me. Repetition just gets boring along the way and I want the money. So, when we are in the toilet after everyone has gone home, I tell Sasuke that I do not want to look at his ugly face. He looks at me like a wounded dog and I pull him up.

You have been such an obedient dog that I have to reward you, I smile at him in a nasty way. His dick feels hard against my thigh and I lean in closer. Just this once, I let you inside, I whisper and I can hear Sasuke swallowing hard. It is not that I have not been fucked by guys before, but somehow I just want to see his reaction. His dick is pulsating now and his ragged breathing hits against my chest.

I do not have any condoms, I hear him saying and it is kind of cute. Well, I take it you are a virgin, so it does not matter to me, I tell him and he is such a masochist, this guy. He does not know whether I am clean or anything, and in a way I kind of perhaps expected him to ask me that. He does not. You know, I have taken it up my ass before, so…, I tell him while I look him into the eyes. Sasuke does not say anything to that and I tell him that I really love his lack of self-preservation. It turns me on, I moan into his ear and Sasuke just keeps huffing.

Sasuke begins unzipping his pants with shaking hands and I pull my pants fully down. He looks hot and bothered and nasty and I tell him that. I do not want to see your face, remember that, I tell him and he just nods. I turn to the stall wall and press my hands against it. Get on with it, I order and he complies. Sasuke positions himself behind me, spits on his fingers and begins fingering me. In swift motion he moves his two digits inside me until he pulls out and positions himself at my entrance. I am going to enter, he groans in a quiet voice and spits more to use it as a lube.

You are too slow, I grunt and he pushes now more with a force until his whole dick is inside my ass. It burns my insides and his cock is thick and demanding. Fucking hell, I groan and he starts to move without letting me adjust, which I like. Sasuke picks up the pace and I order him to do it harder and he slams himself so hard that I am pushed against the wall, its chilly surface cooling my burning skin. Fuck me harder, I keep repeating and he rolls his cock in me hitting my prostate relentlessly. There, faster, I huff and he delivers, he surely does.

I fucking come without even touching my dick, which is like the first time ever. I shoot my load to the stall wall and soon after Sasuke cums forcibly into my ass and it burns like needles. I keep repeating fuck all the while he keeps milking the last of his spunk into me, but does not pull out. The heat on my skin begins to cool down, and I tell him to fucking pull out and he does. I turn around and wipe my dick with paper and then I pull my pants up. He follows my example and the guy fucking radiates glee. You fucking disgust me, I tell him, but he does not seem to care. We walk out and part ways without saying a word, which works fine.

We keep fucking everywhere we can and he keeps obediently paying. I know I said that he could do it once, but instead I just raised the amount of money and let him keep doing this, since he at least got me off well both monetarily and physically. I put the money aside and I do not use it, since I will need it. Usually we fuck at school, in public toilets and whatnot, but occasionally also at his place.

His house is enormous and this only happens when his parents are not home, since I am not entering the house someone actually seeing or knowing that. His room is a good alternative to nasty and cold toilets and such, but it is not like I really care. It is just intercourse of which he pays and boy does he pay. I set the rules and make him do what I want, and the little masochist does everything without complaining.

He even eats his own sperm from my ass, which I find extremely hilarious. Even on our graduation day we kept fucking when all the others were in the hall for festivities. This was obviously for the reason that we were to part ways and I wanted to get every penny from him I could get. There were no parting words, even though I am quite sure that there is some lingering feeling on his face, but it is hard to tell when he is so impassive. In a way I am pleased that I get a great way out of this and I do not really need to do anything to make it so. The easy way out.

Like my teacher said, I am not stupid and I have never been. It was never an option to not to go to high school, but my first aim was to get out of the house. There is nothing parental in my dad, who thinks mom killed herself thanks to me. If he used his brains, he would know that she got fed up thanks to him beating her up and took the easy way out. I do not blame her. He used to beat me up too, until I became his size and started to hit back. Afterwards we kept a distance and avoided each other and interacted only when necessary.

The amount of money I got from Sasuke helped me to find a ratty and oddly cosy apartment, which was my own in a sense. It was relatively easy to find shady people to rent you shit when needed. There no one could say what I could do, and getting out of the house meant that I had one less reason to get angry. I cannot say I hated that. I enrolled to a low level high school that was basically tuition fee. I even managed to get two friends or sort of, more like guys to hang out with. Kiba and Neji did not annoy me too much, which is close to perfect in my case. Either of them knows nothing about my past and I tend to keep it that way.

Thoughts? Comments? Anyone?

P.S. I do not use quotation marks and this is an actual literary style used by writers. I write from inside the main character's head and thus there's no direct speech. It's how they hear the things said. If it helps, try reading my story to yourself inside your head (sounds complicated, I know, but it works).