Disclaimer: I do not hit man reborn.
How long was it till they started noticing his pained laughter. The forced smiles. And how long before they questioned why he would feel like that.
Was everything still a big joke to them?
Because all the smiles they had seemed to come from the heart. And who could smile at times like this.
His loved one was lying injured in the hospital. And they could smile as if everything was ok? Just because he was ok. Their boss was alive and kicking. Didn't they see the pain in Hibari's eyes as he watched his girlfriend being pushed into an ambulance?
How he wished he was in that bed instead of the poor innocent girl. Caught at the wrong time in the wrong place.
Tsuna hadn't left his spot by her bed since they had arrived last night. And he wasn't planning on moving. Though everyone was giving him strange looks. Wondering what his connection to the girl was. Other than the fact that she had indirectly saved his life. Shielding Hibari from a deadly attack as he was fighting to protect Tsuna. Keeping him safe long enough for the enemy to be completely dominated.
He wonders if Hibari blames him. Cursing him for the duty that was placed upon him. Not that he follows it all the time.
But if he was lying in that cold bed then she would be safe. And Hibari would be happy. Simply as that.
He should have taken that bullet.
His friends should have realized by now that he prized nothing more than them. Even his own happiness. They just were blind to everything he gave up for them. His own love.
How would they react if they knew he liked a man? Would Yamamoto and Gokudera run away in shock? Finding out that one of their best friends could have been staring at them as they changed. Not that he would ever do that.
He had liked Hibari for the longest time till his love grew so that everyone else paled in significance. Watching for years he had unfortunately picked up the skill of telling when Hibari was lying. And when he was telling the truth.
So when he heard Hibari whisper in the girl's ear, as she laid sleeping, that she was the only one for him and that he would do everything to show her that if she would just wake up. He knew he was telling the truth. It could have been the rare wetness that graced his hand as he rubbed his eyes. Or maybe it was the look of devotion that he knew so well.
Neither helped his heart from beating painfully fast as Hibari walked out of the room to talk to more doctors. The moment of lost control gone. His eyes wiped dry and giving off waves of indifference that was only broken by the true worry that refused to leave his eyes. The tense way he held his voice as him and the doctors walked further and further down the hallway. No Tsuna knew the truth about how he felt. And he cursed himself for it.
"Please you have to wake up soon." He rested his head head on the blanket. "Can't you see how worried he is? He really loved you a lot. So hurry and get better." Wet sobs racked through his body as he tried to laughed at the bitterness of knowing his love would be forever unrequited.
A/N: wrote this on my iPod so please forgive mistake I may have made. I will try and update more frequently. So please review and tell me what you liked or didn't like. Hmm so tired. I think I'm going to take a nap. -falls asleep on unfinished homework-
