ExorcistAllen: Hey, here's chapter2, sequel to Just So You Know. Song is used is Missin' U by Super Junior. Original lyrics are in korean, italic/bold. Translated lyrics are in english, italic, just below the korean lyrics.
brief summary: Lavi is returning to HQ the next day. He reflects on his thoughts blah blah... sorry that sucked..

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Missin' U

Lavi POV

"… It is said that the tomb is cursed, but research shows that it only due to the growth of microorganisms which lead to deadly viruses in the air…" I jotted down on my history records book.

We were finally on our way back to the Black Order HQ.
It had been two years since I left the order for my research trip to Egypt. But I knew that there were other reasons behind this sudden decision.

I sighed and subconsciously said aloud, "Wonder what the guys at the Order are up to…"
Unfortunately for me, Bookman overheard me and instantly, a book flew straight into my face.

"Itai…" I said, rubbing my head.

"I told you to just concentrate on your work…"
"And don't get too attached to the Order." I cut in. "Hai… you told me that many times already, ji ji…" I said, waving my hand at him as if trying to push his words away.

"I'm going for a walk." I said, excusing myself from conversation that would eventually lead to matters of being a Bookman. I really didn't need that right now.

"Ok… and remember to tell me your new name when you get back."

"K." I answered casually, not bothering to look back at him.

I stepped out onto the field, shivering slightly as the cold breeze caressed my face. The slightly damp grass seemed to dissolve under my boots, making no sound at all.

Jeo hayahdamothae shirin saebyeokhaneul sokeul
Inside that cold crisp night

I sighed again. Tch… I figured that I have been sighing a lot lately… maybe to a point that I was almost as anti-social as Yuu. I laughed at that thought for a mere second before my face turned into a frown again. I couldn't stand the fact that I was to go back to the Order as a different person. A totally new persona, with new memories, and who knows what else I might become?

"Damn it!" I yelled.
I turned around abruptly and started to run. I closed my eyes and just kept running, letting the wind rush past me… "Let everything just rush past… and leave me behind…"

Soomi tokggaji kabbeuke dalriko dalryeodo
So I run and run, with my breath all the way up to my chin

I slowly came to a stop and collapsed on the ground, trying to catch my breath. I felt the soft-wet grass under my head. It felt nice, and reminded me of the field just outside the Order by the small stream, where I would hangout sometimes.

Immediately, my thoughts lead me to Lenalee Lee… the times when we used to lie on the field together and watch as the clouds slowly float by, time seemed to have slowed down, lagging us into the past, away from the present.

"Shucks… here I go again." I muttered under my breath.


Hayangke itkoshipeun keunyeoye kieok

I want to completely forget everything about her

Bookman told me to forget about her… Well, hey, I tried. But it always ended up the other way round and I'll miss her even more. Oh, spare me the irony. I guess I'm back to square one again.

I close my eyes and chanted in my head, "Forget… forget…"


Yeojeonhi meorisokeul hayahke deopeo

I make my mind blank as usual

I am missing you

I rest my head on my arm and look up into the dark, clear sky – stars, a tiny bright light in the vast sky, bursting through the darkness. I heard that everyone had a star that belonged to him or herself, some sort of a guardian angel in the skies,
always watching over you… "Nah... that's just crap for little kids." I told myself.


Nalkkarooon byeolggeuti nal halkkwieodo

Even if the sharp stars scratch me

Dalbiche bichin neon nae sangcheoreul jiooji
The moonlight's shinning down, you erase my scars

It was a full moon, gleaming in its glory, overpowering the little ones. I always stay up without sleeping, and think to myself… Where do I belong forever? In who's arms, the time and place… You were always there for me… and reminded me who I was.


Nae kaseum kipeunkoke soomeun hayan saeneun

The white bird deep inside me

Keurioome jichyeo pooreun ooreumeul tohaenaedo
I'm tired from the sorrowness, I cry out a blue cry

But now you're gone… so far away. I can't feel anything anymore…
I cry out. I'm tired of all this…


Adeukhi meon haneure jeo hayandareul

That white moon way up in the sky

I reach out my hand towards the moon… feeling its glow upon my palms…


Jabeulsooka eobseo baraman bol bboon

I can't grab, oh I just watch the wind blow

I am missing you


Nalkkarooon byeolggeuti nal halkwieodo

Even if the sharp stars scratch me

Dalbiche bichin neon nae sangcheoreul jiooji
The moonlight's shinning down, you erase my scars

I am missing you

If only I could go to the moon… so peaceful… so carefree, looking out over the world. Stop all these useless battles. Oh, the stupidity of humanity. Let the world be at peace again.


Adeukhan jeo dalbicheun nal yoohokhako

Even though the moonlight is seducing me

Dalggeute daheul soo eobseo barabol bboon
There's nothing at the end of the moon except to just long for something

What was this feeling I felt before, that I just couldn't stop and wallowed myself in it? A feeling… were Bookmen supposed to feel?

I'll erase it out. This was not what I was meant for. I was here as a Bookman not to become an exorcist.


Jiwobeorikesseo neol

I'm going to erase you

Sokeuro myeotbeoneul dajiko dajiko
I told myself many many times,

Meoritsokeul biwosseo
I tried to empty out my mind,

But, kaseumsoken keudaeye chooeoki bakhyeosseo
But, the memories of you are embedded inside my heart

I just can't seem to erase you. It hurt… hurt too much.


Michyeobeorikesseo ijen eoddeokhae…

I'm going crazy, I don't know what to do
Naesoonjeongeul dabachyeoseo saranghaesseosseo neol
I love you with all my heart

I laugh at myself. Why in the first place had he told her to remember him when he knew that this would happen in the end?

"Ha… Haha… I'm such a sick bastard…" I would only hurt her this way.


Sangcheoka amooljikaanhneunkeol

This scar isn't healing

In my dreams… I see you.


Wechyeobwado doraoji anhneun neo

I call out for you but you're not coming back

You're going away… with Allen Walker… why him?


Babokati ajikdo neol
kidaryeo
Like a fool, I'm here still waiting for you

I'm watching from the corner of the room… "I'll follow to record what happens…" My responsibility as Bookman was just an
excuse to be there. I just wanted to be around to protect you. That's all.


Areumdaoon keunyeo nal hwijeotjiman

That beautiful girl stirred me up

Meomchoolsooka eobseo keureolsooka eobseo
I can't stop, that just can't be

I'm drifting further and further away, going in the wrong direction. "Stop!" I cry out… I reach out to grab something, anything… My grip slipped. I'm falling. "Take me back!" I scream.


Haying hansom soke damkin neoreul baetko ddo baeteodo…

Even though I cry to spit you out with a heavy sigh…

I am missing you

And I'll promise that I will be there to protect you no matter what…


Nalkkarooon byeolggeuti nal halkwieodo

Even if the sharp stars scratch me

Dalbiche bichin neon nae sangcheoreul jiooji
The moonlight's shinning down, you erase my scars

I push myself up and dusted my jeans. "Tomorrow…" I thought. "Tomorrow I will see you again. And this time, I won't let go." I said, clutching my special headband that was given to me two years ago… I'm surprised that I still have it.


I am missing you

Adeulhan keo dalbicheun nal yoohokhako
Even though the moonlight is seducing me

Dalggeute daheul soo eobseo barabol bboon
There's nothing at the end of the moon except to just long for something

Taking one last glance at the moon, I turned and headed back to the small little hut. "What name should I give myself this time?" I wondered. Let's just stick with 'Lavi' for now… I'll have quite some explaining to do afterwards…


I am missing you