Originally this was supposed to be a one shot of Jess moving on, but I decided to make it into a series of episodes on people being affected by Rory and Logan's relationship. This episode is inspired by Lady M's Symmetry, which you should check it out. This one has Christopher and Lorelai undertones.

Lorelai Gilmore was sitting down at the breakfast picture looking at the engagement picture of her daughter and Logan. She couldn't believe Emily; she had to get the biggest picture in the newspaper. She always thought when her daughter got in engaged, although truth is told she never wanted her daughter to get engaged, until she was an old lady. However, she should've hung the picture on the mantle or on the refrigerator. She should be happy her daughter had found guy, which after two years Lorelai had admitted was good for Rory. However, she felt the picture was mocking her lack of personal life. She should've been happily married before her daughter; instead she had two broken engagements and a failed marriage.

Lorelai and Luke had tried to rekindle their relationship, but in the end they realized they were destined to only be friends. Lorelai found herself missing Christopher, which was strange because she had basically sabotaged any chance of getting back together with him. However, she wondered if she gave up to fast let her need of independence, and failure to compromise get in the way of her feelings for him. What was wrong with her? When she was with Chris, she missed Luke? When she was with Luke, she missed Chris? Her daughter had never been confused about Logan; she always wanted him even when Marty and Jess had professed feelings.

She felt everyone had someone but her. Sookie had Jackson, her parents had each other, Lane had Zach; and even Jess had found the love of his life. What was wrong with her? Why was she forty, and still alone?

She decided to call Rory, and maybe have a talk with her. Her daughter always had a good insight on her life.

When Rory punched in her daughter name on her cell phone, she couldn't believe how nervous she got. Her conversations with Rory with the exceptions on talks about her boyfriends had always been as easy as breathing. However, it wasn't common for a mother to talk to her daughter about her own love life. Plus she didn't know how to tell Rory that she missed Chris; Rory hated the up and down relationship of her parents.

"Hello…." Lorelai recognized it as Logan's voice, why was he answering Rory's phone? Those two were becoming a little to in sync for Lorelai's liking. Lorelai still kept her cool; Rory would kill if she was mean to Logan.

"Hi Logan is Rory there…" Lorelai wanted to know what was wrong with her tone sounded almost like she was slurring.

"Actually, she's working on an article, she said no calls unless there's someone bleeding or dying. Although, Lorelai are you okay you sound funny?" Logan tone was filled with concern.

"No, I'm fine I'll call later. I'm really sorry to bother you…" Lorelai was about to say goodbye, and hang up when Logan interrupted.

"Lorelai, I know I'm not Rory, but I'm a good listener. "

The sincerity in Logan's tone got Lorelai to choose to confide in him. "I wanted to ask Rory why you?"

"Lorelai please don't tell me you're against our relationship, I know I messed up in the past but I love her…"

Lorelai immediately regretted her words. Logan and Rory were still sensitive of her opinion, especially after some of the fights Lorelai and Rory got after Logan and Rory got engaged. "No Logan I didn't mean it like that, believe it or not I've come to accept your relationship with Rory. You guys make each other happy, and are right for each other. I'm sorry it took me awhile to accept it, and believe it or not Logan I've grown to like you. I was asking in terms of how she knows you're the one. I've had two relationships where I thought both guys were the one, but now I've got neither. I miss Chris, and I shouldn't miss him…" Lorelai felt relieved to get that out.

"Why do you feel bad about missing Chris? I mean you two were married?" Logan asked sincerely.

"I told Chris he was just a possibility, everybody in Stars Hollow wants me to be with Luke. Rory will kill me if I jeopardize her relationship with her Dad again. "

"Lorelai you've never struck me as the type who cared what other people thought. Plus I talked over with Rory after you broke up with Luke she just wants you to be happy. She even admitted that she didn't think you and Luke made each other happy in the long run…"

"She actually said it, why did she never tell me that?" Lorelai said a little hurt that Rory confided to her boyfriend and not her.

"She doesn't feel it's her place to express opinions on your love life, she believes it's your choice. "

"That's understandable, but I don't know how to choose. When I was dating and married to Chris a part of me longed for Luke's ability to compromise, and coffee. When I was dating Luke again, I miss agreeing about movies, eating junk food, listening to music, and bantering with Chris. Rory has never been confused about you, I mean when Marty expressed his feelings she choose you no hesitation. How is she not confused?"

" Lorelai I hate to tell you this, but you're actually not confused. You have an entire list about the things you miss about Chris, and only two things about Luke. I think you're just worried about what others think Rory and I aren't confused because we both stopped caring about what my mom and Grandpa thinks. Plus we both learned how to compromise the times we were apart, Rory wanted to go to New York, and I moved my business there. "

"However, Sookie and the town isn't narrow minded people in Hartford there my friends. Plus I'm not sure if I miss Chris or is just a phase."

"Well, Lorelai if there really are your friends then they'll grow to accept whoever you end up with, for they'll want to see you happy. In the same way, you grew to accept me and Rory. Plus let me ask you this when Rory and I are apart. I would spend days thinking of her, and all the times we had together? Which guy do you think about more Chris or Luke?"

"Christopher, I just keep thinking about all the good times we've had as kids and adults…"

"Also, which break up did you feel that life as you knew it had ended Chris or Luke?

"Chris especially when he didn't show up at the hospital, I kept wishing it was him. "

"Which guy do you enjoy being with more?"

Lorelai pondered the question for a minute that's a tough question. "I enjoy being with them in different ways I enjoy doing things I like with Chris, but I also enjoy arguing and annoying Luke. "

"Well I guess we have to go down to the final jelly bean…"

"Jelly bean…" Lorelai laughed. "Is that a Boy Meets World reference…?"

"Hey Rory and I mock the show sometimes, "any way which guy do you feel you can't never be completely without.

Lorelai thought, and she couldn't believe it had always been Chris, but she had pushed him away for her need to be independent. "It's Chris it's no contest, but I screwed up." Lorelai started to cry.

"Hey, if Rory and I could get through a broken proposal then you and Chris can get through a broken marriage." Logan reasoned.

"It's not that simple you and Rory didn't call each other "a lovely possibility." Would you have forgiven Rory if she called you that?

"Ouch Lorelai to be honest it would take a lot of work for me to forgive Rory. I would need a lot of proof that she really does love me in order to forgive her . However, if you really love Chris then try to show him that this time it's real. Try and call him to talk. "

Lorelai took a minute everything Logan said made sense. She guessed it was up to her to take the first step. "Well Logan I have a lot of thinking to do. I really need to think this time, before I make another mistake with Chris. "

"I believe that's wise, and be patient with him, after all Rory was with me when we were getting back together. "

"Yep, you're right about that, and Logan again I meant what I said I really do like you…"

"I really like you to Lorelai…"
After Lorelai hung up the phone she started to look at the picture and now felt pride that she had such a wise future son in law. She picked up the phone, and dialed a familiar number. She felt a little relief when she heard voicemail. "Hi Chris it's me. I really want to talk to you. I'm really sorry I pushed you away"

Lorelai felt bold and stupid, but grateful for a little time top figure out what to say to Chris.

So concludes this episode. I'm goingcontinue the next one from Chris point of view.