So Tommy and I spent some time walking around London. We stopped at this little café that was exactly like the one back at home. As usual they closed it down for us, due to the paparazzi. We ordered and ate. All we did was look into each other's eyes. Inside I thought about how much I loved him and how I could ever want to give that up. Tommy called my name breaking my train of thought.
"Jude?"
"Yeah" I asked a little confused by the look on his face.
"Well, can I ask you something?"
"Anything"
"And you'll tell me the truth not sparing my feelings at all"
"Okay" I answered a little afraid of what his questions were
"Well, it's more like 2 questions''
"Go ahead"
"I wanted to know why you left in the first place, what did I do"
This question knocked the breath out of me as I thought of the right answer. I knew we would have to talk about this sometime, but just not now
"Um, it wasn't really something that you did, more as thoughts I had"
"I'm not following you"
"I thought that you weren't ready to do this whole thing, being here in London, I didn't want it to be that I forced you into it, and then you said you wanted to announce our engagement, and I thought you were trying to convince yourself, I freaked out, and as soon as I got here I felt so stupid because it was me who wasn't ready for this, not you"
"Wow, you thought I wasn't ready, I always knew you were afraid but I didn't think that, that was the reason, you could've told me that"
"I know and I'm sorry"
"That's not what I meant; if you ever have a problem no matter what it is, just come see me, call me it doesn't matter where I am or where you are, okay?"
"okay"
"So my other question was there anybody else in your head telling you that what you were doing was wrong"
"Yeah, Sadie, I guess I let her get to me, I thought with my head not my heart"
"We all make mistakes sometimes, do you have anything to ask me"
"Well just one thing"
"Shoot"
"Well, why did you come I mean I thought you'd be mad at me"
"Jude, I was a little at first but then I thought about things from your side and I got over it pretty fast, then I got that call, and I couldn't help it"
"I don't deserve you"
"And I don't deserve you, are you ready to go back home"
"Yeah"
As we walked through the door, his arms wrapped around mw, holding me against his warm chest. He put his hands on either side of my face pulling it closer to his. His lips met mine in a perfect way. They molded to fit each other. I wrapped my arms around his neck, as his hands became entangled in my hair, securing me there.
I heard the door slam shut as he scooped me up in his arms, carrying me over to our bedroom. He gently laid me on the bed, my arms still around his neck.
"Jude, are you sure about this"
"Yes, Tommy, I love you"
"I love you too"
And with that his mouth met mine again. A low moan in his throat sent an electric current through my body as if it were live wires.
