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Spencer Reid knew what was happening with his life but he couldn't believe it was happening. He was prepared to know that he was going to have a baby and how to prepare for it but emotionally he did not know what he was doing, he was still unprepared, hurt and dumbfounded that he had to do this all alone. He thought about calling his mother about all of this but decided against it when he tried to call her but he nurses said that she was having a particularly bad episode, so he decided to put into one of his letters, but he never heard anything back. As he carried the carrier containing the sleeping infant through the airport, he started to realize that this was his reality and that there was no turning back, only going forward. On his way to find a taxi he was still trying to comprehend what was going on and what his next move would be. He tried to think of this as a chess match, to always look three steps but he had to keep reminding himself that this wasn't a chess match; it was caring for a small and dependent child. First and most importantly he was worried on how the team was going to handle and react to this monumental announcement. He had told Hotch that he would need a couple weeks off for personal reasons but didn't release any more information than needed. Instantly, Hotch was worried about his youngest agent only because the last time he asked for personal time off his mother was really ill.

"Is your mother okay" he asked concerned.

"Oh no, she's fine I just need some time off" he replied.

"Okay I'll talk to Strauss and see what I can do"

"Thanks Hotch" Spencer replied relieved Hotch didn't press the issue. He was not ready to tell the team about what was going on in his life.

As he was leaving Hotchs office he heard his boss say "Reid if you need to talk". And without another word Spencer left his office. He was quickly pulled out of his memory when the taxi pulled up to his apartment building. He handed the driver the money grabbed his bag and the baby carrier and proceeded to climb the stairs to his 4th floor apartment.

Once inside, that's when the fear set in. He was nervous to say the least. Spencer had been taking care of himself since he was nine and also taking care of his mother till he was eighteen. He chased down serial killers, terrorists, arsonists and other killers, but taking care of a tiny six pound baby all by himself positively terrified him. Needless to say he would probably be more comfortable chasing killers than taking care of a baby, though it was his own. His baby. His little girl. When he got to his apartment he did his normal routine that he has been doing since he lived by himself, unlocked the door, reset the alarm, check the mail and check his phone messages. He set the baby carrier on the coffee table and proceeded to unpack her bag. Bottles in the fridge, diapers on the coffee table, but he paused when he came across a piece of paper. He pulled out her birth certificate, which was folded behind the diapers. He looked at it complete anguish written on his face as he read the document. Everything was there. Everything was correct to his dismay

Name: Shelby Reid. No middle name.

Date of birth: April 2nd 2010

Weight: 6 lbs. 0 oz.

Father: Spencer Reid

Mother: Blank.

He still could believe it. Blank. The space was where her mother's name was supposed to be. It was blank because she didn't want her. This was one of two copies of the birth certificate. And this is the one she wanted her daughter to have. The other one would forever be in Spencer's possession and he would never let anyone see it if he had any say in it.

Spencer still couldn't understand why a mother didn't want her child. Okay she was married, and got pregnant during a trial separation, but she didn't want Spencer nor did she want Shelby. He was brought out of his thoughts by a sudden knock on his door. He was startled and he hoped that the sudden noise didn't wake his daughter who fell asleep during the taxi ride home. He re-folded her birth certificate and put it back in the diaper bag whee he knew it would be safe until he was able to secure it inside his safe with all of his other important items. He was quite nervous to see who is it was knocking on his door since it was late on a Sunday night. He peered through the peephole hoping to see one of his neighbors who was seeing if he was home, but he was pleasantly surprised to see none other than his boss, Aaron Hotchner, though he was nervous to see how Hotch would react to him having a child.

Spencer went over to unlock the door and was a little terrified when he heard Shelby start to whimper, not really prepared to deal with a wailing newborn. He relaxed a little bit when she started to calm down and opened the door for his boss.

Aaron Hotchner wasn't an idiot; he was one of the best profilers in the world, and wasn't really surprised when is agent had come to him to talk about his situation, though he didn't really give away any specifics. Hotch somewhat understood what was going on as soon as Spencer had talked to him and he knew from his experience with Jack that Spencer wouldn't be able to do it by himself. Spencer had told him everything one evening after a particularly difficult case and needed someone to confide in, and he knew Hotch would never betray that trust. Hotch knew all about what was going on with Spencer but did not want to know the mothers name and was very respectful of his decision, all Spence told him it was a one night stand.

Spencer welcomed Hotch in and offered him something to drink. He gracefully declined and went over to sit on the couch in front of Shelby who was still in her carrier which was still atop the coffee table.

"She's adorable, how old she is?" he asked looking at the tiny form in front of him.

"Yeah, she's three days old, she was cleared of medical care and after all the paperwork was signed they let us leave." He said with a sigh.

"I just came from the office and wanted to see if you were back yet and how you were making out" he said fatherly even though Reid is only 12 years younger than him.

"Thanks Hotch, I should feed her and put her to bed".

"Okay, call if you need anything and I've cleared it with Strauss so you don't have to be back at work until next month. For now she has you listed as working from home". He said pilling a stack of case files from his briefcase and setting them next to the baby carrier. "You don't have to rush to get these done, just work on them when you can"

"Thank you Hotch" he replied as he stifled a yawn as Shelby did the same.

As soon as Hotch had left Spencer had fed, changed and clothed Shelby for the night, which he honestly thought he was going to break her though he was being very careful with her and handling her like a china plate. He had finally got her to sleep in the little cradle that was in the corner of his room and went to bed himself thinking how he was going to manage this and hoping they would make it out alive.

DFBTA xox-H