CHAPTER 2

When I wake up all I can see is a bright light. I realize I am in the Dauntless hospital. Suddenly all the memories come flowing back into my mind. The bomb, Tobias's blood splattering the ground, everything going black. Tobias! Where is he? What happened to him? He was standing right next to the bomb. Did he even survive? Tears start to stream from my eyes. I sit up quickly. Everything gets blurry and I get extremely dizzy. I need to get out of here and find out what happened Tobias. I try not to think about him possibly being dead. The door to my room opens and a nurse comes in. We do not have any actual doctors in Dauntless, they are all from Erudite.

"Oh good, you are awake," The nurse says in an oddly kind voice. She comes to the side of the bed and fiddles with some of the machines that are hooked up to me.

"It was good that you called the Dauntless when you did; if we didn't get to you sooner, you might have not survived. You have a slight concussion, and a few wounds from the explosion. We patched you up, and you should be able to leave the hospital
now," She says to me.

"Where is Tobias?" I ask immediately after she finishes talking. She looks at me with a confused look on her face.

"Who?" She asks. I forgot that most of the Dauntless still do not know him by his real name.

"Four. Where is he?" I need to know now.

"Oh, he just got out of an operation. You should be able to visit him soon," She responds.

"Wait, what operation?" I ask. I almost stop breathing. Why does he need an operation? At least I know he is still alive.

"Oh, of course you don't know. He got most of his arm blown off in the explosion. They had to amputate it because it got too damaged. He also got a few broken ribs and shrapnel wounds."

What? He got his arm amputated? This has to be a dream. This can not be happening. Tears form in my eyes. I ball the clean white sheets into my hands so hard it hurts. I can't breathe. How can Tobias be a leader if he only has on arm? He could learn how to do certain things, but some things would just be impossible to do. Would he ever be the same?

"I have to see him now," I look up at the nurse. She looks back at me with a sad smile.

"Well, like I said, he just got finished with the operation, and you will get to see him once he wakes up."

"I said now," I say sternly. She frowns at me. On her face the frown looks wrong. She doesn't seem like someone who frowns a lot. She must have transferred here from Amity.

"I guess you could go now. But you have to let him rest. You might need to get some clothes," She says.

I look down and see that I am only wearing a hospital gown. I could not go anywhere without some clothes. I stand up with the nurse's help.

"How am I supposed to get clothes?" I ask.

"Don't worry, I'll get you something," She walks out of the room and comes back a few minutes later with a pile of black clothing. She hands them to me and walk back out of the room, smiling as she closes the door. I quickly change and walk out after her.

I quickly realize that I have no idea where I am going. I have no idea what room Tobias is in. I find the front desk and ask the woman there what room he is in. I run to his room. I have to see him.

I slowly open the door to his room. I see him asleep in his hospital bed. There is no one else in the room. As I walk towards him, tears start to stream down my face again. The top part if his body is almost completely covered in bandages. Well, what is left of his body. He is missing his left arm, only a small part of his shoulder left. I start sobbing uncontrollably. I reach over and touch his cheek, wondering if this is real. I stay like this for a few minutes, then fall into the chair beside the bed, and curl up into a ball and cry.

About half an hour goes by and I still have not stopped crying. Then I hear a moan. I look up and see Tobias looking at me.

"Tris, what's wrong?" He must have not realized what happened yet. I walk over to his bed and put my hand on his cheek, tears staining my face. He looks at me, wanting me to answer him.

"Y-you g-got..." I can't speak clearly through my sobs.

Tobias grabs my shoulder and pulls me down into a hug. I feel him tense up under me. He must have realized something is wrong with him. He lets go of me and brings his hand to his shoulder. He looks at it and then at me again. His eyes are wide and he looks scared. Fresh tears run down my face.

"What happened?" He asks, his voice shaking. He tries to sit up falls back onto his bed. I help him sit up, trying not to hurt him.

"Your arm got blown off by a bomb." I say, barely audible. I bring my hands to my face and start sobbing again. He is just sitting there, staring at me in shock.

I hear the door open behind me and an Erudite doctor comes in. They only come to the Dauntless compound if something really serious happens. He smiles sadly at us.

"Hello Tobias, good to see you awake. I see you have a visitor. And your are?" He asks, looking at me.

"Tris, I'm his girlfriend." I answer holding out my hand.

"Ah, yes, I have heard of you." He says, shaking my hand.

Tobias still has not acknowledged the doctor's presence. I put my hand gently on his good shoulder to try and get his attention. He looks at me and then sees the doctor behind me. He still has wide, scared eyes.

"Well Tobias, it seems like you have realized you have lost your arm. You were unconscious when we got to you, and we immediately started surgery when we got you here. So you were never aware of what had happened."

Tobias just keeps staring at the doctor, not responding in any way. He is still is gripping his left side, wondering if this is really happening.

"I understand that you are a little shocked right now, but it is going to be okay. You can still do most of the same things you used to do, you will just have to learn how to do things with one arm. I am sure Tris will help you through it." The doctor says, trying to reassure Tobias.

"But I am a leader, how am I supposes to lead anybody like this?" Tobias says in a mix of anger and sadness. I answer him before the doctor can.

"Losing your arm doesn't change anything. You are just as strong. You can still be a leader."

"Yes, Tobias, your life is not going to change just because of this." The doctor agrees with me.

"Does anyone else know about what happened?" I ask.

"No, the other leaders only know that you got attacked and signaled them. Nobody else was informed about the attack. Everyone in your group was shot with some kind of tranquilizer, but we got there before anything else happened to them." The doctor informs us.

Wait, only we got bombed? Why did they tranquillize the others? I will find out about everything that happened later. I just want to help Tobias right now.

"When can he leave?" I ask. I just want to go home and be with Tobias right now.

"Well, there is nothing really wrong with your legs, and if you will be careful for the next few days, I guess you can leave now."

I look at Tobias who has calmed down a bit and try to smile. It feels more like a grimace. I don't think I will be able to smile for a while.

"I'll go get you some clothes," I tell him in a comforting voice. He nods but doesn't seem to be listening. I get up and walk out if the door and run to our apartment. We moved back to Dauntless after the war while everything was being sorted out. When I reach the apartment, I grab some of his clothes and run back to the infirmary. I walk into Tobias's room and see the doctor helping Tobias stand up. He seems unbalanced. I walk over and set his clothes on the bed. I look at his missing arm and feel the tears form in my eyes again. I blink them away. I am surprised I am not dehydrated from all this crying.

"Well, I have to go. Here are some pain killers if either of you need them you need them. And both of you will need to replace your bandages every day," The doctor says, handing the bottle and bandages to me.

"Tobias, you will need to come back in a week to get your shoulder checked on, and you should be able to get your stitches out in a month. If your need anything, just call the front desk," The doctor says, walking out of the door.

I turn to Tobias. He looks down at me sadly. I reach up carefully and hug him. He wraps his arm tightly around me. The hug feels strange, lopsided.
I rub his back and breath in his scent. He smells like blood and disinfectant. But under that I can smell the scent that always makes me feel safe.

Since he already has pants on, I help him get on his shirt, coat ,and shoes. The sleeve of his coat hang limply off his shoulder. I hug him again. He buries his face into my neck, as I stroke the back of his head.

"Do you want to make it look like nothing happened? Just for tonight?" I ask him.

"Sure, I don't think I can take any pity right now." He replies into my neck. We break away from each other, and I kiss him on the cheek. I stand on his left side with my arm around him waist, hiding his missing arm from anyone who might glance at us. It is also because he can not walk well without the weight of his other arm to balance him. We walk out of the infirmary with our heads down, hoping nobody will notice us. Thankfully, it is late at night so not many people are out. We get to our apartment without anybody acknowledging us.

Once we get inside, I collapse on the couch and just lay there. Tobias sits next to me and pulls me into him. I lay my head on his chest. I feel his chin rest on the top of my head.

"What do we do now?"

No, Tobias did not die. How could I kill him? Why would you even think that? I know that Allegiant would not be all about Tobias loosing his arm. But I could happen. Sorry if this chapter was a little boring, with all the doctor stuff. The next chapter will be about everybody finding out about Tobias. I will update soon.