I'm friends with the monster thats under my bed

Get along with the voices inside of my head

you trying to save me , stop holding your breath

yeah, you think i'm crazy

yeah, you think i'm crazy

well, that's not fair


Drowning. I was helpless, weak against the ice-cold water. I was screaming my lungs out, calling out to non-existent people hoping that someone would come but no one did .There was no one but me. The cold was gripping me, it was overpowering me. No, I wouldn't let it win. I fought back, trying to find my way through the currents but it seemed the harder I tried, the more it crushed me. I was alive but barely. Slowly, my body started betraying me. I lost my senses, my hands and feet went numb and I could imagine myself getting the sad ending Jack got in titanic.

I see a human figure in the dark, a glimmer of hope rises and I try to shout but only a whisper comes out. The figure is me, No scratch that, the figure looks exactly like me. It was Elena. I manage to get her attention but instead of helping, she snickers and mocks me, telling me that I couldn't even overcome this and that she had to forcefully be my knight in the shining armor , I try to argue back but I was in no position to do so. I could feel thin sheets of ice forming around me. I accept defeat and plead her to save me She recues me but something was different about her. She was not normal. As I got a closer look, I could see dark, black veins against her pale face, fangs instead of teeth and bloodlust in her eyes.

"You're more like me than you realize" she says and pounces me. Everything goes black. The dream changes.

I am still fighting, I am still weak and helpless. I find myself trapped against the wall and Damon's arms

"Shh Selena…" He mumbles near my ear as he kisses it softly. I tried to push him away and half-way managed to do so. His Icy blue eyes were fixed on mine. I tried to make-out that I didn't want it but we both knew I did.

"Just enjoy while it lasts will you?" he whispers and crashes his lips onto mine. It was rough but passionate at the same time. Mentally, I didn't want it but my body started to betray me once again and I found myself melting into his arms, no longer fighting but kissing him back with equal intensity

As much as I tried to hold it in, it came out. "Damon." I moaned, closing my eyes, leaning my head back and arching my body

"Shh..I thought we agreed. No talking." He moved his lips towards my neck and started kissing it. It was so soft, so gentle, and so tender until…

A sharp pain surged through my neck. I opened my eyes and found myself lying on the ground. The pain was excruciating. I felt nauseous. I moved my hand towards the source of the pain on my neck and it felt wet. Blood. It had to be blood. I got up and saw in what huge pool of blood I was lying and passed out again.

I jerk awake. I sat up and tried to convince myself that it was just a dream. A bad dream. Dreams don't mean anything. Dreams only haunt you in your sleep, so the only way out was staying awake. I badly wanted to go back to sleep my after this dream…but I was shaken. Not only because I was getting mauled but because of what I dreamt about Damon. I had just met that guy; I could not be having fantasies about him already. I was going to do an all-nighter, I needed Coffee. I put the blanket aside, got up and moved towards the door.

"Caw-Caw" the voice startled me and I turned back at once. I looked around for the source of the sound and saw a black crow perched up by my windowsill. It was 3 in the night, the wind was making the curtains of the window- which I clearly remember closing- fly out and there was a black crow staring at me; it couldn't get more eerie

"Hello crow, you so aren't creeping me out right now" great, now I was talking to a crow. Maybe I really should see a shrink

It looked back at me with its beady black eyes and finally replies

"Caaw"

"Well crow, would it be inconvenient if you'd just let me sleep peacefully?" no reply from Mr. Crow

"No reply huh? I'll take that as a yes. Now GO!" I shout the last word but the stupid creature doesn't budge

"Oh you wanna play rough? Fine. Take this!" I picked up a small show-piece from the bedside table and chucked it at him. Bulls-eye! It hit the windowsill and shattered. I am sure a piece must've hit my newfound night-time friend. It flew off. I was losing control of myself.

"Clam down Selena" I took deep breaths and told myself. I removed the black leather diary I had thrown from under my bed. It was a gift from my mother. One of the few fond memories I have with her includes her calling me to her room and giving me this diary. The last memory before things went downhill. I sighed and opened it

Dear Diary,

I hate writing into you. It makes me think I am one of those of those wretched, depressed, weak girls who can't talk to people so they bury their blues in a book. But regrettably, it's also one of those things that makes me feel better and there are not a awful lot of things left like that in my life anymore.

So here I am, sitting alone in the middle of the night writing in a diary

I am lost, and I don't think I will ever find myself again. I look at the girl in the photos around my room and I realize, I don't know her anymore. She looks like me but that's where the similarities stop. She has a care- free smile; I can almost imagine her ringing laughter. Sure, she had problems but she didn't let them stop her from enjoying. I on the other hand, deceit other people around me into thinking that I am fine. Hell, I don't even know who I was a week ago. I think I'll just keep changing and changing, little by little everyday till I become someone completely different. Will it be for the good or for the bad? I don't know

I slam it shut and close my eyes and lie my head on the bedpost. Praying that it'll be okay

Maybe going back to sleep was not such a bad idea after all.

In the morning

"Selena?"

"Mm hmm" I replied in my sleep

"Selena!"

"just five more minutes please…" I said lousily. I wasn't a morning person. At all

"you've been saying that for the past half hour." I don't bother replying. My sleep was more important than my pissed of twin.

"SELENA WAKE UP" the shrill, feminine voice screamed at me. As a reaction, I screamed back at her

"WHAT?" I see my twin looking at me disapprovingly

"you overslept…big time"

"So? Jeez, can't a girl get a goodnight's sleep here?"

"It's only an hour before the game starts… now get up!"

"OMG! We're late for a game I didn't even want to go for." I say flatly " I am going to sleep and there is nothing you can do about it" I sticked my tongue out at her and went back under the covers

"Oh yes there is…" she ripped the cover apart from me and poured the cold water from a vase kept nearby.

"Elena Gilbert! You did not just do that! I could just murder you in cold blood right now!" No one comes between me and my precious sleep

"I'd love to see you try. Now go get dressed. You used to love going to the game"

"Yeah…when my boyfriend was on the team. Right now, I love sleep"

"Selena…"

"Fine! I'm up! You just destroyed my one last chance of getting a good sleep. Are you happy now?" I said as I changed from my Pj's

"Come down quickly" She said as she gave me one of her wickedly innocent smiles.

Later that day

"Ooh la la… someone's looking hot in their jersey" I commented as I went and hugged Stefan. Elena had managed to drag me to the game and somehow, after seeing how good Stefan looked I was happy she did.

"And someone's looking hot even though they are not in their cheerleading outfits" he said with a friendly smile. I really didn't know Stefan knew how to flirt.

"Ahem" Elena cleared her throat, clearly uncomfortable with me getting close to Stefan

"Oh suck it Elena. We are identical twins remember? He's calling both of us hot"

"Selena, I want you to have something "He said as he pulled a ring with a big embellishment on it and gave it to me "it's an old family ring so I thought why not give it to you? You know, to commemorate the beginning of a new friendship" I slid it onto my middle finger

"You really didn't need to Stefan"

"I wanted to Selena"

"Thank you, it's gorgeous." I said as I went and hugged him once again. If I didn't say it before, I am saying it now; I like Stefan, he might just be my new BFFE

"Ahem Ahem" Elena coughed once again. Ooh, had the green-eyed monster bit Elena?

"Well, I hope this makes up for it" Stefan said as he pulled an exquisite locket "It's something I've had forever and I want you to have it. You know…for good luck

"Stefan, it's beautiful" Elena said as Stefan put it around her neck. It looked like they could kiss any moment now

"I should get going" I said not wanting to be the third wheel anymore

I watched throughout the night as everyone got excited, it looked like we finally had a shot at beating someone. As the rally was going on I noticed Jeremy at the back. I shook my head. It was him our parents death had affected the most, me and Elena had got passed it but him…It felt like he almost didn't believe that they were gone. I started to make my way over when I saw I wasn't the only one. Tyler was also charging towards him with Vicki trying to stop him.

"Don't look so down." I heard Tyler say to Jeremy, I stood between them, but neither of them took any notice of me. "You can have her when I'm done." He finished.

"Go away Tyler." I said to Tyler and pushed him slightly away from Jeremy. He pushed him not too hard, but hard enough for me to stumble back, right, looks like I'm going to have to get physical! I had always loved fist fights but this one looked serious. I looked back to see Jeremy had taken the first punch. "Jer," I moaned and tried to grab him by his waist. "Get off him, Jer! Just leave it!" I moved as Tyler had shoved him up against the car. "Ty, get off!" I grunted and tried to pull him off Jeremy. I was fighting a losing battle. "I am going to kick some serious ass in a minute!" Jeremy dropped his bottle and glassed smashed on the floor. "Look what you did! Do you know how highly dangerous that is? Health and safety regulations people!"

"Stop it!" Vicki yelled out, getting the attention of some of the members in the crowd. I saw Stefan was starting to make his way over. "TYLER STOP!" Out of all the people watching, Stefan was the only one who came over and tried to break it up, he pulled Tyler off Jeremy. Elena ran over, too.

Tyler tried to show what a big man he was by punching Stefan, but Stefan strangely wasn't affected by it. I saw Jeremy pick up some of the broken glass. "Jeremy no!" I snapped, but it was too late, he was lunging at Tyler with it. Stefan pushed Tyler to the side and put his hand up and the glass Jeremy was holding slid right into his hand, I covered my mouth with my hands. "Jer!" I pulled him back away from Stefan as Elena went to see if he was ok. "What the hell is wrong with you?" I said angrily. "Oh god, you're bleeding."

"I'm fine!" He snapped.

"Well you don't look it!" I tilted his head up. "Why must you bother everyone?"

"I said I'm fine." He pulled away from me and stormed off.

"Bloody borderline brain-dead teenagers." I missed the time when he was small, cute and did everything I said. Now, he was just plain annoying

I walked over to Stefan and looked at his hand, but there was no blood. ""No, no, I saw it, the glass cut your hand." Elena said, turning over his hand. I saw it, too.

"I'm ok." Stefan pulled his hand back. "It's almost kick off time, so I will see you after the game." He walked off. Elena turned to me.

"But I saw it." She said, her face filled with confusion. "I have to go find Bonnie."

I was near my car, closing its boot thinking about whatever happened when I felt a presence behind me. It was a man, I couldn't see the face properly in the window reflection but it was enough to get me on my guard. I took out the hockey stick I had always kept in the car and turned by sharply, swinging it in process.

"Hey." Damon said as he unflinchingly dodged my attack

"You seriously gotta stop sneaking up!" I said as I kept the stick back in the car "what are you doing here anyway?"

"I'm hiding from Caroline." He whispered

"So am I" looks like no one wanted to face Caroline today

"She talks way more than I can listen"

"Happy birthday Damon. Caroline talks a lot" I said as I tried to step past him, but he moved with me. I let out a sigh of frustration, crossed my arms and looked up at him.

"She's awfully young too. I don't see it going anywhere in the bigger picture. She drives me crazy"

"And you are telling me this because…?"

"Because I want you to know that she means nothing to me"

"Telling this to the best friend, not a good move" I said spitefully. Caroline had told me how much she liked Damon and here he was, telling me that she meant nothing to him. I wanted to get the hell out of there but at the same time, I wanted to keep talking.

He stepped closer to me but I took a step back at the same time. Unfortunately, I bumped against my car "I am sorry if I make you uncomfortable" he placed one of his hand behind me on the car. Fantastic! I was trapped and there was no way to escape." It's not my intention"

"Really? Then what is? If Caroline means nothing to you then why are you still with her?" I spat the words out. He was not going to get away with using my best friend for his personal entertainment

"Caroline? She's just…a distraction for pastime…till I get what I want" His smirk fell back in place as he leaned in closer and closer

"And what is it that you want?"

"I think we both know the answer" he whispered in my ears. I pushed him back but he didn't shift much. He wanted me to be afraid, he wanted me to feel uncomfortable and I wasn't going to give him what he wanted.

"I see it Selena. You want me" An arrogant, cocky dick who over-estimated himself, that's what Damon was.

"Come again?"

"I get to you, you find yourself drawn to me, you think about me when you don't want to think about me, I bet you've even dreamed about me." I narrowed my eyes at this one. My dreams were a part of my dirty, dark secrets that I didn't tell anyone. How the hell did he know? I had no idea "and right now…" his icy blue eyes stared right into my brown ones. I didn't look away despite of what happened yesterday. Looking away would have been considered submissive while staring back was assertive, so that's what I did.

He leaned down even further, his pupils enlarging. "You want to kiss me." He said sternly. I didn't move, I wanted to see to what level would he stoop. His eyes drifted down to my lips, he smirked and moved his body closer to mine. Then he moved his lips to mine, he was an inch away I gathered up all my anger, resentment, and bitterness and combined them into a strong, hard slap that was enough to make him take back a few steps. He looked staggered, as if thinking how anyone could resist his charm and good looks. Like I said, cocky arrogant bastard

I showed him my middle finger "Screw you dude. Trying to kiss your girlfriend's best friend is so not cool-" I started but was cut off by him

"That's a nice ring. May I see it?" what the fuck? I was in the middle of giving a speech and he interrupts me to interrogate me about my ring? What an ass

"No, it was a gift from Stefan"

"A gift from Stefan…" he repeated through gritted teeth

"Get one thing straight Damon, I don't want to be a part of whatever game you're playing. Now, fuck off"

I turned to leave muttering "what a jerk" under my breath


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