AN: thank you for all the support. To answer your question about how often will I update? I don't know, I still have a story that hasn't finished yet. Also I'm a student but as soon as I got a chance I will update. 20 chapters of this story are already done.
Here is the second chapter. Please let me know what you all think…..
Ps: all mistakes are mine!
CHAPTER 2: My hopes, my more
It's after 10 when we finally landed at the helipad of Escala, I can feel ana is nervous just like me.
"wow" ana say the moment she saw my penthouse.
"would you like some wine?" I ask
"yes please" ana can't stop looking around my penthouse.
walking to my kitchen and retrieve, two wine glasses and a red wine, I stop dead in my track, at the beauty that standing in my floor to ceiling window looking at the view of Seattle.
"let's have a seat" I say nodding towards my sofa.
"ok... ana can leave any time you want, but just hear me out first" I say getting scared of what might her reaction.
"Christian, i'm not going anywhere" ana say softly, grabbing my hand and giving me a reassurance.
"don't say that, you may run for the hills when i'm done telling you how dark I am" I can't look at her.
Taking a deep breath and slowly blowing it.
Here we go, now or never.
"go on" she say encouraging me.
"I was adopted at age four, my birth mother is a crack whore and neglected, her pimp used to beat me and burn me" and so on and on, I didn't dare to look at ana cause i'm afraid of what may I see in her eyes, but I feel teardrop in my hand when I finished telling her my past life, about Elena, the subs and the BDSM, I was shocked when ana suddenly wrapped her arm around me like she wants to take my pain away and to protect me.
For the first time in my life, I feel love…. cared for, and I like the way ana's arm wrapped around me.
Like a protective blanket.
'oh god she's touching me, my forbidden zone'
And the most shocking is!
I didn't feel the usual pain and burned that i'm feeling everytime someone is accidentally touch me, all I feel is warm and lights engulfing my dark soul.
'what is she doing to me'
"oh Christian" she's crying for me.
"please ana don't cry" I say and look at her wiping her tears.
"no child has deserved to go through that" she's looking at me with empathy not pity.
"your…. not running?" I ask disbelief
"do you want me to run?" she ask
"no" I say immediately
"then i'm not, as long as you want me here i'm not going anywhere" I can't help but crash my mouth at her, needed some kind of connection with her.
"should I change my hair color?" ana ask after we pull away from each other's mouth.
"no, I like your hair, silky and smooth beside your nothing like the others I been with, beside your far different and extraordinary" I say sincerely
"thank you for not running away and staying with me"
"well Mr Grey I happened to like you so much and it's in the past but we can create a future, a very happy and memorable one without pain, only happiness and pleasure" she say wiggling her eyebrow playfully.
"I would really love that" I whisper kiss her again.
"good cause your stuck with me" she say caressing my cheek.
"ditto miss Steele, i'm not letting you go" I peck her lips
"now would you make love to me?" ana ask shyly.
"yes but I want your first time, our first time to be special" I really want to make love to her but not yet, I want to be a romantic settings.
"ok" and my cock is protesting.
'sorry buddy not tonight'
...
its 1am and we change our clothes, ana is wearing my tshirt, and fuck me if my cock is so angry with me right now.
Imagining Elliott in a two piece and my cock settle down for a little bit, I know I have a case of blue balls by now.
And I know my sacrifice will be paid off and will be worth it.
I'm going to plan a very romantic evening for our first time.
My girl deserve a heart and flowers.
I know ana is already asleep but I couldn't help but stare at her, I don't know what I did to have met someone like her and agree to be mine but fuck it, I would do anything to keep her.
if I can I would really like to fly us to Vegas right now and get marry that way she'll never got a chance to change her mind.
'Grey? really marriage?'
Mrs. Anastasia Rose Grey, I smile at the thought; I like that sound Mrs. Grey I feel a tingling sensation across my chest at the thought.
"I will never leave you Christian" i'm startle at ana and looking at her, I see she's still fast asleep.
I breathe a sigh of relief even in her sleep she reassure me that she's not going to leave me.
I am totally and madly in love with the woman beside me namely Miss Anastasia Rose Steele. Soon to be Mrs. Grey!
With that I nuzzle my nose in her hair and pull her even closer to, closing my eyes for the first time I fall asleep like a baby.
...
ANASTASIA
I feel so warm too warm, opening my eyes slowly, I remember where i am; I can't help but smile at the adonis that is sleeping peacefully beside me.
I know I should run after everything he revealed to me but for some reason I can't seems to stomach the thought of leaving him.
No i'm not running I will be here as long as he wants me to.
i'm willing to take anything, everything for him.
It's a lot of risk that I'm willing to take.
I'm going to fight for him and be with him.
Tracing his beautiful face in my fingertips across his cheek
nose and eyelid to his lips.
My broken man, i'm so hurt to know what he been through from early age and that Mrs. Robinson, oh how I wish I would meet her cause i'm going to fucking kill her.
She manipulated him, and make him believe the worse and think that he wasn't capable of giving and receiving love! argg! fucking bitch.
But for now I need to pee then cook some breakfast for us.
'gosh looking at him shirtless, for the first time in my 21 years, i feel horny and ready to jump on him'
I need to wait till the day we will make love though.
After finishing my business in the bathroom, I reach the kitchen and start to look for something to cook.
I'm almost done when I hear Christian scream my name and I rush towards his room.
Christian is looking frantic around his room and cover in sweat.
"Christian i'm here" I grab his face to make him to look at me
"ana" he pull me flush against him, breathing in.
"i'm here Christian, i'm here" I say soothingly, running my hand up and down his hair to calm him down.
"I had a dream, you left then I woke up, your not here" I can hear a lost boy and it breaks my heart.
"i'm just cooking us some breakfast, and I didn't have a heart to wake you, I remember you tell me you always has a nightmare so I let you sleep" caressing his cheek, he look so fragile right now and I don't like it.
I gasp when suddenly he kiss me like his life depend on it but I reciprocate the kiss after a few second.
"next time wake me up ok" he say still his forehead against mine.
"ok, now get change breakfast is ready" I say pulling away.
"i'll be out in a minute" one final peck on the lips and i'm out of his room.
...
CHRISTIAN
When I woke up, I got panic because of my dreams about ana leaving me.
After I got changed I went to the kitchen and there she is preparing our breakfast
'god looking at her only wearing my shirt with her hair in a messy bun, she look so fucking gorgeous and she's all mine'
Looking at her again there's something flash in my thoughts. Bare foot and pregnant.
Fuck first marriage and now pregnant, I feel like losing my mind.
Oh Flynn your going to have a filled day with me this week session.
I went straight to ana and wrapped my arms around her waist, resting my chin in her shoulder; I can live like this for the rest of my life.
"smell good baby" and I don't mean the food, partially her scents.
"hungry?" she ask
"very" i say in husky tone.
"well take a sit and we will be eating now"
We talk some more and plan about what we will do this whole day.
My mind has already formulate a plan.
Next week i'm going to romance her.
Can't wait to fully claim her as mine.
