Chapter 2.

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At the spectator,

Serena was upset, another Monday, another fight with Dan. Why was it so complicated for them to be happy. They have been married for less than 4 months and the only real moment of pure happiness that they got, well it had been during their honeymoon between Key islands, Bermuda and Cuba. They came back 3 weeks ago and since then it felt like grey clouds were not ready to leave them...

At least she was busy between the Spectator and her Master in psychology at Columbia but this is not how she had been imagining her married life with Dan. And Dan was always trying to put her down.

When Nate arrived and saw that Serena was eating donuts he knew that it meant that she had a fight with Dan and even if she had an insane body Nate really did start to think that she should also get an appointment at the gym if she continues to eat donuts that often. She got that habit a while ago already, few weeks before she got married. Everytime that she was upset or if she had a fight with Dan, she needed to eat sugar.

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His office was next to Serena's one and it was breaking his heart to see her like that. He did accept that he would not get the girl but he could not accept to see the girl unhappy. May be he should have listen to Chuck and does not shut up when the sentence speaks now had been pronounced during the wedding.

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As usual he stopped by her office and sat on the corner of the desk. Seeing how she was dressed up today made him thought about a lot of things, one of them was that those donuts were definitely the enemies of every woman except her. She was glowing in her little crop top. However, he noticed that she looked really sad and he asked what happened that time.

Nate was trying to cheer up Serena and making jokes about the donuts. He also made a joke about a possible pregnancy. When he started to see her eating donuts or reese's or cinnamon rolls or anything that contained a lot of sugar he first thought that she might be pregnant. So he joked about it, she told him that no she was not pregnant and he stopped to worry about that idea.

But since Serena and Dan came back from their honeymoon, the fear came back. He needed to be sure that it was not the real reason why serena was eating like that. Serena's answer made him relax.

« No Nate, I am not pregnant, not that I don't want to have kids but Dan is busy, I am busy, we met to fight, so no, no baby »

She looked so sad when she pronounced that sentence that Nate almost felt bad for being such an egoist for praying that Serena won't have kids with Dan anytime soon or never.

He was just not ready for a pregnant Serena unless he was the father of the baby. They would grt such cute kids but he had to stop to dream, she was married to another man.

Her voice called him back to reality

« I know, I will look like a pregnant woman soon if I continue to eat like that but believe me Nate, there are more possibility of you getting pregnant than me at the moment » and she sighed

« You know Nate, the worst part is that he thinks that I am not doing anything, that I am here because of you and that I am doing a master just to do something with my life. Which is not true, I love my job here and I really want to get my master and become a psychologist. Help people to deal with their problems »

« I am sorry serena » He took her hand and with his free hand he grabbed a donut.

« I take you one of those, ok, so you won't have to feel that bad and Dan's an idiot for not seeing how hard you are working and studying. But Serena, you have nothing to prove to Dan. You are doing those things because you want to and if he is not happy with that or thinks that you are not worth it, it is his problem because you worth it. »

« Thank you Natie and thank you for defending me on friday at the party when that journalist said that I was suffering from the Stockholm syndrome. I don't know what I would do without Nate »

« Well, you would go to Blair and Chuck everytime and I have to say that it would be funny, between Blair's war strategy and Chuck genuine and pragmatism. »

Serena laughed, he smiled, he could now start to work.

« I have tons of mails to reply between the Spectator, the Spectator in LA, the campaign for the election and of course my Grand Father »

« Good luck and thanks again »

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Blair came for lunch to pick up Serena and asked what was wrong. Blair had a radar, she knew everythime that Serena had a fight with Dan and it was not because of the donuts that Serena was eating as when Blair was coming to pick up Serena for lunch, the donuts were long gone. She just knew it.

Blair said that it was because of her pregnancy. She was more sensitive and empathetic. But it was an excuse, the truth was that she knew Serena so well that it was evident when something was wrong and since Serena married Dan, Blair had never really seen her totally happy, which was illogical.

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At the restaurant

« So what happened this time » Blair asked while she was reading the menu at the new italian that had just opened in front of the Spectator. »

Serena was following the contour of the glass with her index, trying to do not look at Blair.

« S, come on »

interupted by the waitress, they ordered and then Serena after drinking a bit of perrier explained what occurred with Dan earlier that day.

Blair listened but replied that as she already told serena she was not going to say anything because:

«S, we warned you, we told you to do not marry him and you did so now this is what you have to deal with or you can ask for a cancelation of wedding, go to see a psy regarding the Stockholm syndrome and get a real new start over for once. »

« So you really think that I developed that syndrome » asked Serena confused

Interrupted again by the waitress. He let the plates on the table and left in less than 30s, Blair gave him an angry look to make him understand to go fast. When he left, she smiled, looked at her plate of pasta, took her fork and looked at Serena with a smile and got back where she stopped.

« Why not, it is totally logical and it would explained why you married your psycho evil biographer » replied Blair

Serena sighed and remembred Blair that she was studying psychology and she did not have that symdrom. Blair argued that in those cases it was like anorexia or being bulimic, it was hard to recognize it. Blair added that one day she would just see it and accept it and start to do something,

«Before you turn 30 would actually be great and S just for the record, not because you are a psy means that you can see what is wrong with you, you should talk with one of your teacher about it or one of your schoolmates »

Serena raised an eyebrow. What does she have to loose by trying. Who knows may be it could help her to finally be happy with Dan or not and that was the part that was scarring her... What if that was making her realized that Dan was not made for her