The Right Path

When we are small, we are taught to walk the right path… not that direction, but the moral of the idea. You see, no one knows which path is right, except for you. That's why adults are always giving us life lessons to give us examples. These examples help our mental compass flash red at the threat of badness. Almost like a detector to push us in the right direction.

Then we are taught that the right path… again not the direction but morally… is straight and narrow. No room for any turns or pit stops. You keep going straight and never look back, because with each day the path starts to get narrower. You have to keep moving or you'll get stuck. Just imagine yourself in the middle of a straight path, nor curves or turns, and as you step the path fades behind you. However, you don't mind, because the right path should be made with confidence so you have no need to back track.

Then it happens. Something the adults and you fear the worst… and there's nothing you can do to avoid it. No matter how hard you try to focus on the straight path… It's ultimately inevitable.

The fork in the road.

That's right. The part in the journey where you choose to either go left or right… this time I sort of mean the direction… but a moral direction. I mean I don't think the left is bad… well unless I did feel it was bad, but I could have the feeling about the right path even though it's right… morally…

Any who…

That moment you have to make a clean decision. You can't go back… well sometimes you can just a tad, but you'll always have to come back to the fork. Maybe you'll run into a passerby on the road and ask for help. However, they can't help so much because it's not their path… it's yours. You have to make the final choice. And that choice is crucial… The sucky part is that you don't even have the traffic signs or nothing that say "Safe to travel" or "Dead End" Or "Do not Enter". You're on your own.

And it sucks… sometimes you have to camp out right there just trying to make a decision. But you can't stay there. Oh no, because the road you left behind is fading and soon it's going to fade the road you're on. There's a time limit, and that makes everything worst.

So finally comes the point where you stand up, look down each road, and ask yourself: "Right or Left?" Then you have to weigh the pros and cons, but there aren't any because they both look right. (Morally) Upon first look they both look straight and narrow…

It's the hardest decision ever…

And ladies and gentlemen, that's exactly where I am now.

"Oh Beastie!" I hear a femine voice break me out of my trance. I quickly look around my surroundings, a little dizzy from the sudden wake up call.

Kitchen. That's right I'm in the kitchen… With a skillet in my hand and tofu sizzling. Blue eyes… Long blonde hair… Terra. Okay I remember, I'm in the kitchen making myself breakfast, and Terra came in and started chatting me up.

That's right folks: Terra. The one and only Terra… maybe. I still have this theory that she was cloned…but whatever.

I guess you're probably wondering: "Terra? But the last time we saw her was when she flat out rejected Beast Boy and the super hero life and wanted to go to school instead." Yeah… That day sucked.

Anyways, so what happened was, us Titans had just gotten back from Tokyo. I, myself was satisfied. I was able to get at least fifty different girls' phone numbers. I'm telling you guys, it's all in the ears. Starfire and Robin had hook up officially, much to everyone's relief.

I mean seriously, those two … ugh I'm not even going to get into that.

We instantly went home, because all of us were a little home sick, but when we stepped through our doors balloons and confetti started falling. Then there was a popper and a small horn and some music playing in the back ground. A banner was hung up saying, "Welcome Home Titans West"… which kind of irked me because we are the originals and shouldn't have the put our direction on our title like the others… ugh

It turns out that that the Titans East (See they deserve the direction since they are second) decided to throw us a Welcome home party. The entire living room was filled with Titans, official and honorary.

Starfire was elated. Cyborg was irritated but then saw the barbecue (yuck) and fell in love. Robin looked as if he was going to blow a gasket but Starfire was able to get a smile on his face with how happy she was. Me, I dug it. I always like my parties… but one other person wasn't so thrilled.

I chanced a glance to Raven. Like always, there was no emotion… maybe a hint of aggravation, but that's it. She pulled up her hood and went into the direction of our rooms. I wanted to follow her, make sure she was okay, but I knew she was most likely just tired and would throw me out.

Still, she deserved to have a good time too. Maybe more than any of us.

Okay, let me go a little deeper…

I'm protective of her… her feelings. I know in battle; Raven can handle her own. In the years, though… Raven has become very important to me. Cyborg is my best friend, but Raven … well I'm not quite sure. I try to make her smile with every chance I get. Her smile is just so pretty. But it fails. I hate that she locks herself away from people… she's like the coolest girl ever. She deserves happiness.

Maybe I'm a little protective of her well being too… I mean, when I see her get blasted, I do my best to catch her or at least be the one to make sure she's alright. Then there's that time my inner beast came out… but I don't want to go into that.

She confides in Robin though… even Cyborg, but not to me. The one time she did was when her heart was broken, but I don't take much credit because I'm the one who made her run to that asshole.

I could hear the music pumping in the background as I just watched her walk away. I decided the party wouldn't be much fun anyways, since Cyborg was stuffing his face in an eating contest, Robin and Starfire were wrapped in themselves and The only other cool guy, Kid Flash, was trying to charm his new boo Jinx. So, I grabbed some punch for two and went to find Raven.

She wouldn't admit it but she loved company.

But then I heard it…

"Hey Beast Boy." From that sickly familiar voice.

I dropped both cups, and everyone seemed to stop… well Only my team and a few others. Because there she was. Not even a month after she refused to come back.

Terra.

It's been maybe two months since she returned. She was on probation with Robin. He had her wearing a location anklet at all times and made her catalog her whereabouts. Rigorous training was placed upon her as discipline. She didn't seem to mind. I think she was glad to be back… I thought I would be glad too.

Truth is, I was edgy too. I loved this girl… okay maybe not loved but I liked her. A lot. Then she just threw me around like a toy. She betrayed us. Even though she made an ultimate sacrifice… She almost killed me, my friends… Raven… She tried to kill Raven.

But I was willing to forgive her. That's why I asked her to rejoin after finding her at the school. But, my scars are still burning and as much as I hate it… I can't trust her. No one really can.

"Beastie… You in there? Or did you finally check out?" She snorted. I chuckled myself slightly, and flipped my tofu. She was trying. I had to give her credit for it, and I couldn't deny the small flutter in my heart.

"That's his secret… he never checked in in the first place." My head snapped in the direction of the voice. The soft but huskiness was unique to one person.

Terra snorted again.

"Good one, Raven." Raven didn't respond, only continued whatever she had been doing on the couch. Most likely reading… she loved to read in the morning glow.

"Ha ha, Yeah whatever." I said with dry humor, but still smiled her way. Still no respond from her. I wonder if she was deep in a good part, or upset with me. I can't usually tell.

The funny thing is… Raven was okay with Terra being back. She said that Terra's memories tortured her daily so much that we didn't have to do anything but smile at her to make her feel guilty. In fact, Terra and Raven have been having little sessions in which they meditate together so Terra can find her inner self.

Okay so, remember the fork in the road… I'm in love with Raven… Probably have been for a while, but a talk with Starfire confirmed my feelings… however, Terra is in love with me. Raven told me yesterday. Maybe this shouldn't be so hard.

I used to like Terra a lot, and now that she likes me just as much it would be perfect. But every time I rationalize this, I think of Raven. I love her. No question. The only thing is I don't know is how she feels about me.

So here I am looking down one path: Terra is waving at me, telling me to come on. Then I look down the other: Raven is there just sitting there on a curb, with her back to me.

If I go down the one with Terra, I know that she'll be a good girlfriend. She awesome, funny, pretty, and tough. Pretty much everything I've always wanted. But She doesn't have the dark hair and violet eyes that have developed in my list of perfection for a girl. But I could be happy.

With the other road… well Raven. I would never leave her side. Never make her feel lonely again. I would love her endlessly and always make her feel wanted. But… there's no telling that would even except me as a boyfriend… or anything other a teammate.

I finish my tofu, all the while Terra is talking about a new arcade. Usually I would be stoked, but my mind is going full throttle.

All of a sudden I feel a soft hand on my cheek, pulling my face to their direction. It's slightly cold, but warm to the touch, and I feel my entire body go practically limp. My eyes are being held hostage by deep violets. Not that I mind. Raven's hand goes from my cheek to my forehead.

"You're running a fever…" She says softly. I don't hear Terra anymore. "Go to bed. I'll finish this up and give it to you." She then looks over to Terra, who is watching intently. "Go tell Robin that Beast Boy is sick and will not be participating in any training today. If he tries to argue, tell him to speak with me." Terra nodded and walked away.

I watch as Raven goes around me and turns off the stove. Her hand silently hovers over a teapot that I had placed on. When she looks at me, I just smile. I swear she smiles back, but it could just be imagination.

"Go. Get some rest." She says sternly. "I've watched you make this before; I know how you like it."

"So you've been watching me, huh?" I say trying to flirt.

"Not as much as you've been watching me." I freeze and this time I know she's smiling, but only slightly. She snaps her fingers and a small portal appears behind me. I'm then whisked away to my bedroom and flopped down on my bed.

My bed is comfy, and soon I start to fall asleep, but not before Raven appears with my food and a glass of water. I watch as she places it down and leaves.

Okay, I lied… You see, I've already passed the fork in the road. I chose Raven's path a long time ago, I just wasn't aware of it. I feel bad because it was almost Terra's, but I can't go back. Not that I want too. Because you always have to choose the road with confidence.

I love Raven, and I'll continue down this path until she finally stands and faces me with an out stretched hand, and believe me; I'll never let it go.


Sorry that it jumps around, but it is Beast Boy's Point of View and I've always imagined him with ADHD. Thank you for the reviews. Until next time.