What I Really Need

CHAPTER 2

Prim POV

I wake in the middle of the night to screams, which is when a little voice comes into my head "especially at night" I rush into Katniss's room and see her thrashing around and screaming. I go over to her and stop her from moving, "Katniss, Katniss wake up it's just a dream." I say, but yet she doesn't stop, after about 10minutes the movement & screaming stops then eyes open. She begins to breathe heavily, so I place my hands on her shoulders & tell her to calm down, which eventually she does. "I am sorry I woke you Little Duck." She says, "it's fine Katniss & anyway you were thrashing around and screaming." As I finish speaking I lean over and give Katniss a big hug, which luckily I get one in return. "Go back to bed Prim you need your sleep." Katniss tells me, so I nod and walk out of the room, it is a going to be a long few nights.

PEETA POV

I hear my alarm go off which signals me to get up for work. As I do I begin to think about Katniss, god I love her so much. I would take a bullet for her but I don't know if she feels the same way, after recent events or if she ever has. I shower dress & head downstairs for breakfast.

As I make breakfast I hear a knock on the front door. I check the clock 6:40. Who would be knocking at this time, maybe my mother telling me to hurry up? As I open the door I am surprised to see Prim out this early, "Prim, come in, take a seat. Um what can I do for you?" I watch as Prim takes a seat and turns to face me, "I wanted to talk to you about Katniss and what you said." I go and take a seat in front of her "sure Prim." I listen as Prim speaks, "I finally understand what you meant about looking after Katniss cause the nightmares happened last night. I was curious though does it normally take 10-15 minutes to wake her?" She asks. My head is hung low in grief for Katniss but I raise my head to answer Prim, "no, not when I had to wake her on the tour." I answer, "wait you slept with each other on the Victory Tour. Can I ask how that came to be?" Prim asks me, "well one night I had woken from my nightmares on my own, so I decided to walk the train a bit. As I walked down the corridor where our rooms were, I heard Katniss scream and rushed to her. Then once I found out it was a dream I turned to leave which is when she asked to stay with her and so I did." I finish and Prim smiles at my generosity to her sister. "Well Prim I'd love if you could stay but I need to eat and get to work." I check the clock, I have to be there in 15 minutes. "Bye Peeta," I hear Prim say, "bye Prim." I and continue on with my day.

KATNISS POV

I get up and go to have a bath to clear my head. I fill it up with hot water and get in. It feels so nice just to be relaxed. After about 10minutes I hear the front door open and shut. I almost jump out of the bath, I grab my robe and race out to see who it is to my surprise it is Prim. "Prim, where were you?" I begin to panic, "its fine Katniss. I was talking to Peeta." She answers, what on earth was she doing there? "Ok, I will be down in a sec." With that I go back to take a bath. I think about Peeta, I feel bad that I put this on his shoulders. He has loved me forever and I have taken that chance of something real from him.

I finish having a bath and go get dressed. As I walk downstairs I can smell warm milk. "Mind if I have some Little Duck?" I ask her, she shakes her head and pours me a glass. I walk into the study and begin to write my letter.

Dear Peeta,

I am so sorry that I have put you in this mess, you deserve to have to play games all the time to be safe. You deserve to be free to make you own choices and be able to love anyone you want without a fake engagement or stupid parties.

I understand that you are a bit upset with me and I completely want you to be. I got us into this mess, it is my burden to carry not yours. I understand if you need space and I completely respect that. Please just know I am not angry with you. You helped me on the train and I am so thankful. One more thing I am sorry about this, I understand you have loved me forever, I didn't think anyone would like me like that, I am so sorry I have taken away from you what you wanted to be real.

Katniss,

Please forgive me.

As I finish I am on the verge of tears, I wipe them from my eyes and walk out of the study. "Prim," I walk back to the kitchen to find her and my mother making something, "yes Katniss." "Are you going into town today?" I ask her, "yes, mum and I are going to the bakery, why?" she asks. I hand her the letter, "please give that to Peeta." I go and give my mum a hug and then go upstairs.

PEETA POV

FEW HOURS LATER

I am working out back when my older brother of 2 walks in, "Hey Peeta," Billy says. "Hi Billy, what can I do for you?" I ask him, "what if I was to say that a girl is asking to speak to you and her last name is Everdeen." Billy comments, I walk out to the counter and see Prim and her mother standing there. "Hey girls, what can we do for you?" I ask them smiling, "well I would like to get some of your yummy bread please, oh and Prim here wants to talk to you." Mrs Everdeen says. My father attends to Mrs Everdeen while I talk to Prim, "what's up Prim?" I ask her, she hands me a letter. "From Katniss, she wanted me to give it to you." I nod and thank her as she leaves. I watch them go and my mother walks over to me, "you're not reading that now. You have work to do." She says, I nod and get back to work while my brothers snigger.

KATNISS POV

My mother and sister aren't home yet so I decide to go to the woods and see if Gale is there. I grab my jacket and boots, put them on and walk out the door.

I reach the fence and climb through it, I make sure no one is watching and run into the woods. I have reached the tree line so I can stop running and I begin to walk. As I walk further I see someone in the distance, "Hey Catnip," Gale says. "It is weird how you can hear me so far away." I say. He turns to face me and gives me a big hug, "I missed you to Gale." I say as it seems his hug speaks for him. He nods. We walk over to the hollow log where we stash our bows and arrows. We put them on our backs on begin to hunt. As we do we read others movements so we don't need to speak. A few hours later we have caught enough meat for 2 days max, even though I don't need it. We walk out of the forest and down to the butcher to get the meat skinned and de-boned while we wait Gale speaks to me, "so how was the Victory Tour?" he asks, "not that great. But I don't wanna go through the details. How were things here in 12?" I ask. "Different, some new Head Peacekeeper showed up and got Cray's spot oh and he installed a whipping post in the square." I feel a rush of horror go through me after Gale says this. We are told that the meat is finished so I pay for it, Gale shouldn't have to with this work, and Hazel needs money.

We say our goodbyes at Gale's house and I continue to walk home. I want to be home before dark.

PEETA POV

I finish working at the bakery and head home. I am surprised my family didn't move in with me. As I reach home I hear the paper moving in my pocket. I unlock the door go inside and start the fire. I take of my shoes and coat and sit down in the kitchen to keep warm in front of the fire. I take out the letter from Katniss and begin to read,

Dear Peeta,

I am so sorry that I have put you in this mess, you deserve to have to play games all the time to be safe. You deserve to be free to make you own choices and be able to love anyone you want without a fake engagement or stupid parties.

I understand that you are a bit upset with me and I completely want you to be. I got us into this mess, it is my burden to carry not yours. I understand if you need space and I completely respect that. Please just know I am not angry with you. You helped me on the train and I am so thankful. One more thing I am sorry about this, I understand you have loved me forever, I didn't think anyone would like me like that, I am so sorry I have taken away from you what you wanted to be real.

Katniss,

Please forgive me.

As I finish the letter I feel awful that she is taking the blame for this, I don't want her to feel like that. I am not upset with her, just mad that the Capitol is using us as puppets. I put the letter down and put my shoes back on. I walk across the path to the Everdeen house and knock on the door.

KATNISS POV

I go to answer the door and wonder who it could be, my mum cooking dinner so we aren't being interrupted. I open the door and I am shocked by who I say, before I could even speak Peeta embraces me in his arms. He hugs me tightly as I do the same. I begin to cry and whisper in his ear, "I'm so sorry, this is all my fault, I am so sorry." He hugs me tighter and begins to speak, "you're not to blame, we did this not you. OK" He says, I nod with my head on his chest. 'Katniss who is, oh hello Peeta." My mother says. "Hi Mrs Everdeen, sorry if I interrupted I just needed to talk to Katniss." I can tell Peeta is lost for words when it comes to my mother. I have seen his mother hit him which is something I could never imagine . "No, not at all. I was about to send Katniss over to see if you wanted to come round for dinner. Would you like to stay?" my mother asks him, "I'd love to." This was going to be a very fun evening.