And so, it starts again

„Come on Ash, just one more..." Aiden offered me.

„No..I've h-haad enough..! Pleeeasse, take me hoome..." I slurred.

Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep...

Aiden!?" no, wait...that was a dream, yeah, it was just a dream, nothing to matter about, nothing.

Oh...suck my dick, school!!" I screamed, I totally had forgotten that the holidays were over.

Well Ash, I've never known we were that similar, but now that you got a dick, we..."

Oh shut up, Jim!" I interrupted him. I don't know how long he watched my self-debate, but at that moment it wasn't really important.

Without further ado I grabbed some clothes and ran to the bathroom, ten minutes later I was ready to go.

Dad dropped us off at school and as I searched for my first class with my head nearly in my new shedule, my destiny choose me to ran into a very feminine body.

I closed my eyes while I landed on top of her and as I opened them again I saw a very angry looking pair of blue eyes, I jumped up immediatly and stretched my hand out to help her up, but she slapped it away, stood up and glared at me with her angry eyes.

Let me see, could it be that this little dork here is the newbe?!" she nagged.

'Oh no...why do I have to ran into the school bitch on my very first day..?'

Hey..sorry, okay, just get over it." I told her, when she was just about to say another stupid sentence, a pair of arms wrapped around me from behind.

Ashley, my newest friend, you didn't told me you would go to North High School." It was Alex and I was extremly happy that he rescued me from this little bitch.

Oh hey Alex, sorry I've never thought you would go here too" I smiled.

He showed me into the entrance, while both of us ignored the bitchy girl, who still stood on the grass and stared at us in disbelief.

So..I see you've met Spencer already?" Alex asked with his stupid goofy grin.

Spencer?Wow, she doesn't look like a Spencer...more like a bitch! Who does she think she is anyway?!" I asked, rising my voice.

Ashley, hey, calm down.Well, most of us just ignore her, since her boyfriend cheated on her with her best friend, she got like this, to all of us, so forget this, she's only a little arrogant cow."

Maybe your right." After this little talk we said our goodbyes and I went to my first class, history. As I walked in the room it seems like everyone was watching me 'being new has to be something special'. I searched for a free seat and while I sat down I looked around the class and saw the girl to my left was no one other than the bitchy-angry-eyes girl or simple in terms: Spencer! 'No...Why me?' I stared at her for a moment, she sat in her chair and looked so peaceful 'Maybe she isn't that bad..' Her eyes slowly darted towards , she caught me staring, I slightly blushed 'Why do I blush??'

What are you looking at?!" 'Though, she IS that bad..'

Before I could answer her the teacher entered the room and immediatly started the class.

During the day I found out that I have every single class together with her, Alex just laughed at me because of that, he presented me to his friends, jocks and cheerleaders, not really the people I used to hang around, but if they're all like him I'll get to like this, maybe.

On friday after school I was so tired that I slept during Alex' ride home and didn't notice that he was talking to me about something only when he dropped me off and shaked my shoulder I woke up.

Morning sleepyhead, so I'll pick you up at seven, alright?" He asked mockingly.

Äh, yeah, whatever.." I told him in a daze and got out the car. Until I got in my bed I didn't got what Alex told me, but then it hit me 'today is friday, Alex and his friends wanted to go to this club in the neighbouring city..with me..I totally forgot.'

Therefore I picked up a cute black skirt of mine and a green tank top 'that should be enough, don't want to impress anybody there' , I went in the bathroom to take a hot shower, straightened my dark brown hair, put on the clothes and some make up, went down in the living room and watched some TV, after some time I dozed off again. Till something tickled my waist. I opened my eyes and..

Heey, Alex is waiting you can go to sleep when you're dead." Jim winked, he thought Alex and me had a thing or stuff, but this match would never go right!

Kay,kay I'm out, see you later." I smiled and went straight out to Alex.

Hey Ash," he grinned as he would know something I don't. „What?" I asked.

Well, you know, Mike is coming, too." He winked. Mike is one of his teammates who is so in love with me, even if he don't know a thing about me.

Uh, huh...you know I don't like him, right?" I asked a bit disappointed.

Yeah, but I mean all the other girls are totally in him.."

Could be, but I'm not this kind of girl, I want to know who I'm with, I don't fall in love with looks!" I answered. I have to admit, Mike is one very handsome, but I'm not over Aiden yet. For the rest of the ride, we didn't talked much.

The others were already in the club, Mike, Peter,he's the footballstar, Eric and his girlfriend Sarah, all of them are nice and stuff, but something is missing, they're just kinda superficial.

Maybe I should be happy to hang around the popular, but I don't feel like belonging here. Mike came over and tried to plant a kiss on my cheek, but I quickly sidestepped that he only kissed the air.

Hon, what's wrong?" Mike asked like we would welcome like this everytime.

Nothing, just don't try to kiss me." I angrily answered. After that he went quite.

The night went along well, we had a lot fun, until I had to use the bathroom, Mike showed me the way and just as I wanted to walk in he grabbed my hand and tugged me into the empty room. He pushed me against the wall and started to kiss my neck, I just stood there and stiffened, he went his way to my mouth and as he roughly pushed his tongue in my mouth I could taste the alcohol. I tightly closed my eyes. His hands were all over my body, I was so scared.

Suddenly the door opened and I heard a girls voice „Hey guys, get you a room or something, some people come here to pee, you know!?" She said pissed. I knew that pissed voice, could it be? I opend my eyes and panicly looked at Spencer, I think she eventually saw what's going on in my scared eyes. Without a second thought she came over and hardly kicked her knee in Mikes manhood. He screamed painfully and fell to the ground. Spencer grabbed my hand and tugged me out of the bathroom, out of the club and into her car.

Where do you live?" She asked, not so pissed anymore.

I was too shocked to answer her, I just looked at her in disbelief.

What? Are you thinking how a bitchy girl like me could do something like that?" She asked getting angry again. Finally I found my voice and answered her.

No, I-I just, äh, thank you, really" I said honestly.

You're wasting your breath, just tell me where you live!" She ordered.

Hallington Street 23" I told her, a bit sad about the fact that this girl won't let anybody brake the big wall she builded. She drove me home and as I stepped out the car, she said „Be careful with this dude, it won't help to go to the police and stuff, just ignore him and don't go near him, that'll be best." She really confused me, first she is a total jerk and two minutes later she gives you advices how to act on this shit.

Maybe you're right and even if you don't want to hear it, thank you, a lot" I lightly smiled at her.

Hey don't think we're friends now!" She said and drove away.

'Wait, what was that? Did she smirk? I don't get her.' After that I went straight to my room. Everything with Mike came up again. I went to my cabinet and pulled out a bottle of Vodka, as I felt the liquid in my mouth, running down my throat I knew in a very moment I'll feel better. Three month clean and now this, I can't get away from the alcohol. After I emptied half of the bottle I felt my body went numb and with a smile I entered a dreamless sleep.