The alarm busted in my ears, I listened as it rang like coal on ice in my ears, I never sleep much anymore not until at least midnight. I groggily, wobbly, frankly, vacantly, ugly got up and dressed myself in my black cloak, red skirt, and underneath the coat the usual.
when I opened the door, everything seemed the same, everything seemed like nothing new was happening, it seemed...clean. And I didn't like it. I got some eggs and decided to make scrambled eggs, it took at least fifteen minutes, right now it's seven thirty and I am dishing them out now, I walk to souls bedroom.
i remember visiting his room after school. It wasn't anything pervy, but we would talk or fall asleep while I was in his arms, I guess that was a long time ago, or in any case my boys felt cold with out him. I opened it care fully and steadily, like a fierce field was there.
soul was asleep and he looked peaceful, but I didn't stare I didn't see the reason to; because I had lost my reason, I began to shake him mechanically and he groaned telling me to stop, but I didn't till he sat up and walked out. I know it seems mechanical but back then I think I was, and this life was cheesy and retarded.
i began to eat on the the table, while soul came out in his normal, orange shirt, black jacket, and jeans. I never looked at him now, not because of what liz was saying; okay that's a lie that's exactly the reason why, and for some reason he would always make comments at the Tv and sometimes I think they were aimed at me. But I shook it off.
then I couldn't believe what happened next.
i walked out like normal, I stopped riding his motor bike even how much I loved the wind in my face, but reality would always remind me I couldn't feel it anymore; I was dead. I walked past Soul putting the petal on the motor bike, and he stopped to stare, I caught his eye before he said.
" You wanna come with me?" I stopped and looked at him.
i thought I might cry, I think it was one of those situations where someone you can't have acts like he can have you, and in reality he can if he wants, I wouldn't care anymore. I scolded myself last night for saying goodbye to mama, she may have been a bitch, but I needed someone. It's to late now, I turned my back and shook my head.
" You sure?!" He asked half shouted as I walked. I waved him off, and like thunder and lightning he was off, and I couldn't tell if it was because he was mad, or just did it to be polite, and make sure no one saw him with the school slut. Probably the second slut bit.
i walked on and before I new it i was on the corner of the the DWMA. It seemed happy cheerful, and unique as a school, a dangerous school, which everyone new, but it seemed to suit me, I chuckled at the thought, I think I really was going crazy.
then I saw something in the corner of my vision, I saw a shadow of black a person who looked like me, but her whole body was made of black and different shade, a lighter black for the skin and a darker for the outlined features. It smirked then whispered.
" Your gonna own the game soon, can't wait to play" and a car went by and it was gone.
i stared at the space, thinking what was going on I think some emotion appeared on my face because I saw Crona walking past, and she stared, and I stared back before breaking it and walking away. I didn't want to go to school, I would just be treated like trash anyway.
i walked until I was at a park, this was the park where me and Blackstar got into a fight. But that was a long time ago, I sat down and stared at the city from the view, for some reason one minute I was at one place the next I'm sitting in the same place I spoke to Crona (episode 39) I stared and still wondered what's going through my head.
immortal.
half soul.
death.
game
monster.
I heard the voice, it was my voice in my head except darker and scarier. It sounded like me as an old hag in further years, and the words made my skin tinge with goose bumps. My hair was on edge along with my body.
theres nothing to fear but fear itself.
i told myself. Then the voice came again, like steel, and had the hag accent, but I heard the scraping of nails on a board, the cackle of medusa, and the voice of shura saying la la. and I heard my own voice sinister over the rest, with a howl on the background like a wolf.
death.
hunger.
revenge.
game
demise
souless
and I laughed my friendly laughed into the background and everything went black, after realising that I had my eyes closed. I was under a tree and I looked at the sun it was set to the west, indicating school is over, I got up scratched and yawned.
not realising how empowered I felt. I felt like honey, and strong. I felt my being fly over the ground as my feet touch, I heard myself him like I haven't in a while, and I knew that some where inside of me this will all come to a end, but right now I didn't care I might as well enjoy it.
everyone was leaving, and I felt there glares and stares, they didn't pierce me like knives, but like cotton on my back instead I felt at piece. Fortunately I didn't notice the gang look at me shocked, with Crona in front of them, it looked like Crona was telling them what he saw.
fine do what you want.
" Maka" I turned to find Kim in front of me with her pink hair brighter with ever, and her eyes,of shock, curiosity, and worry.
" Kim" I mimicked.
" Lord death wants to see you"
" thanks" I was about to walk of when Killik asked.
" You look better" he said.
" Gee so I really wasn't that bad, for a slut huh realise that now" and I was walking off when he kept talking.
" Hey that not what I meant I was just saying"
" look" I turned to him " you had three weeks to say something now, and you haven't so it seems hypocritical. And I don't want to deal with filthy liars, that can't even admit they thought horrible things about people" and I walked off."
" Gee what's up your arse?" He said.
" You"
" leave hi alone tiny tits" said soul. I turned on him, his annoying smirk, fine lets play the game.
" Sorry was I talking to you" I inquired.
" Know but I heard whore"
" ohh burn" I said turning.
" Yeah you better run!" Said Blackstar.
" Staple your nipples to you balls and do sit ups" and I left.
The group sat in shock, she hadn't heard the news, and she seemed totally different, soul was trying to be friendly this mourning but she shook her head as if dead and left. And now this!. He didn't even think this sport of thing could come out her mouth!
" You got owned" said dean, one of liz's friends.
" Whatever" mumbled Blackstar.
" I gotta admit she really got us this time, and I can't believe she spoke that" said Ox.
" Should we tell her?" Asked Tsubaki.
" She will find out soon, I told her" said Kim, the stared at her She looked at them crossly " she was nice to me" they didn't say anything.
" Go on with what you were saying Crona" said Kidd, shackingly Crona nodded.
" I saw Maka on the corner of the school" he said.
" And, come on Crona that's not exactly different" said liz normally.
" No it was different she was smirking and what she said, it was lik...like" Crona said and stuttered off, her words in a lost void now.
" What" said tsubaki gently, this silenced Crona, until he was a still as a tree and he slowly looked up. It seemed everyone was tense, but no one could tell if it was them or crona, and finally when you could see his face, he lt the words release of his mouth, in a eerie that sent shivers up there spines. And he seemed as if the words dripped of his tounge.
"I coming to get you. Your gonna say bye bye to Maka albarn"
everyone stood like a weight had been placed everywhere around there bodies, and the were squashed into being still painfully. It was mortifying and they new he was telling the truth as his soul trembled. It was fucked up. And now they were scared but soul wasn't he was worried, along with Tsubaki and Blackstar and Kidd, he wasn't sure about liz.
" She said that" stuttered liz. He nodded.
" Does this mean Maka's coming after us?" Asked Jacqueline. To no one in particular.
" I can see why" said Tsubaki quietly soul stared at her, or more to the point glared.
" you saw the picture, she lied she deserved it" he said vacantly.
" we all know thats not true" said Tsubaki.
" She's right" stuttered Crona, uneasily.
" I can see why she would want too" a voice said. No one saw it though.
and in the back, beyond the window stood a girl, she had blue eyes and black hair but looked brown in the sun, she wore black red striped stockings, with a white rapp around crop top, along with a blu skirt, and her sleeves were white, as the ventured down the length of her arms. But exposed her sholders.
" And who might you be" said dean harshly. She smiled and dissapeared.
" You will find out soon enough" and she was gone.
" I think we have a mystery" said Kidd.
" Now you sound like scooby doo" said Blackstar they looked at him " not that I whatch it" he said looking away.
" What do you mean?" Asked Soul.
" I mean somethings going to happen" said Kidd.
" There's more" said Crona in a clear voice we looked at him.
" What now?" Said looked up
"death revenge game, half soul"
I listened to that conversation, and it didn't ease me. I don't remeber saying that at all, and it only worried me, now I was back to worry but at least I felt something. I walked down the halls it seemed the hall were beckoning me, trying to tell me something like it was haunted, but then again Kishin in lived down here so maybe the is.
i walked into the death room greeted by his presents, the reapers presents, he wore his usual and to my surprise we were alone. No papa. His been disappearing a lot lately and I was kind of worried.
" Hello lord death"I greeted
" hello miester Maka, how are you"
" I'm good you"
" good good" but then he seemed to darken and lose energy, I was afraid now, i was on edge.
" What is it?" I asked
" I'm afraid Maka that" he trailed off.
i new what was coming now, Soul never called me a whore and he did today, and he seemed sad somehow remembering his face, and everyone else. Now I felt weight I thought I might collapse this is it I have been waiting for it fearing it like a sick dog.
is it really going to happen? Am I being paranoid? Is it a lie? Is it something to do with the voices? Is there a new kishin? Is it about mum? I knew I was avoiding the answer but I hoped it wasn't was I souls choice? Am I right? Why does lord death keep calling me in? Is something going to happen to me?
" What's the time!" I rushed I wanted to avoid it for as long as I can, he looked at me strangely. Through the mask after a while you learn to understand his expressions even if there hidden.
" um, it's two thirty"
" so school not over?"
" no"
" few"
" now back to what where saying"
" um death"
" yeah?" He never gets angry this guy.
" Did Kidd say anything about me" he paused.
" no why?"
" Oh nothing"
" now back to what I'm saying"
it happened. I felt like in a rollercoaster until coming to abrupt stop. I felt the apolcalypse. I never thought it would happen, but I was wrong it happened. And I new it would but not now, I was happy before well not the part when I was picked on, but wasn't that enough anyway?
time stopped I looked into the eyes the holes of death,a nd wondered why hadn't he claimed me? Or was I that worthless? Did I deserve to die? In there words what me ex friends said. I tensed but didn't fall, I new I looked I. Pain, because I could sense the sympathy from death.
i think back then I was slapped, but not sure with what, until after that is. I laughed at the thought, back to what was happening I thought I was going to cry but I think my body already did. I'd grown so used to crying on the inside it was a habit, like a cage you couldn't escape not ever.
i heard the voice, tell me something but paid no attention, I need to focus on what was happening now. Soul I hope you happy. I thought. You got what you wanted. And I didn't want it but he used to give me everything before we became a thing, and now I think, after what he's been doing it really lost its meaning, and I felt like a robot again, and pins covered my body going full length in till I looked like a weird giraffe.
i grimaced at the thought of giraffes party's favourite animal, and then I cried I fel the tears go down my face like ash.
" You need a new partner you've lost your soul awake length" I wiped my eyes, I felt the pins pull out spilling my blood everywhere, and the fuzz of numbness covered by sadness consume me, I am dead he didn't needto claim me. I walked out like a robot again, not hearing death say as I wiped my eyes.
" I'm sorry Maka but it's happening" and he said to someone I didn't see, even if I couldn't hear the conversation " it's happening, we really are losing Maka, curse my sister the angel of death darkness"
and I didn't notice the red blood that was smeared across my sleeve, the same sleeve I used to wipe my eyes with.
my tears were my very blood, and I didn't even notice.
