Happiness
Disclaimer: Sailor Moon is not mine, although it would be cool if it was
On popular demand I've decided to continue this story, so please keep reviewing, they give me the drive to keep writing. Thanks to all those who have reviewed. Enjoy.
The cold smile firmly plastered onto my face as I left the bathroom and waked back into my room, observing my wrinkled bed covers from my previous tantrum. My smile increased as I remembered how pitiful I must have looked if anyone had seen me, but I would not let anyone see my true self and I would not let anyone see my 'happiness'.
I started slightly as the house phone suddenly yelled out into the empty apartment, trying to grab my attention into lifting the phone off of the receiver. With habit, my pale hand reached out for the source of noise, instantly silencing it when my fingers wrapped around the cool plastic cover and raised it to my ear.
"Hello, Mizuno Ami speaking," I said smoothly into the microphone of the device and waited to see who had, suddenly thought to call my mother or me.
"Hey Ami-chan," I knew the collected voice on the other side belonged to the one who had caused me my 'happiness'.
"Rei-chan what can I do for you?" I asked keeping my voice neutral as I spoke, why on earth would Rei want to call me? She had never did in the past, I'd even forgotten that she had my number as I'm sure it was another Senshi's number that was frequently dialled and not mines.
"I…" She hesitated momentarily before speaking again, "I was wondering if everything was alright?"
"Yes Rei-chan everything is fine here." I said abruptly waiting for her to continue, if she hadn't cared in the past, why did it matter now?
"Oh…that's good to hear then Ami-chan," Her voice was not convinced by my statement but I knew she wouldn't pursue the matter further, "I was just making sure you were ok…"
"Yes Rei-chan I am fine, there's no need for you to worry," I assured her with my voice still remaining monotone, clearly giving off the sign that this case was now closed.
"Well if you say so Ami-chan, I'll see you later then bye," I heard her breathing through the speaker as she waited for my reply,
"Yes Rei-chan I will see you later, bye" I heard the tiny click of the phone being replaced on the receiver on the other side and I copied the motion.
I knew that Rei-chan would discuss this chilling conversation with Mako-chan, saying how I was so cold and emotionless, then Mako-chan would say something like just leave her be, she'll fine in a few days. I could imagine the whole scene as though I was watching a play with the actors in front of me, speaking my thoughts and following my script. I sighed my 'happiness' faltering ever so slightly but I remembered the girl in the mirror from before,
And to make her happy you must be happy…
My eyes clouded over with non-existent emotions as I made my way to my bed to rest for the remainder of the night with the thoughts of Rei-chan still haunting me. After all, all I ever wanted was to make her happy and if this was the only way to do it I would. No one ever cared much for my sake anyway, sinking into the comforting mattress; I laid my head into the pillow and drifted off into a light slumber, allowing myself to be myself in the protection of my solitude…
My night was choppy and restless as though I had become a storm far out on the horizon above the sea, the same thoughts and people kept tormenting me and that girl from the mirror, her words echoed through, what felt like time and space as I was suspended between it all, spiralling and overwhelmed by it all…
Gasping, I was gasping again as I suddenly found my body upright and eyes flying open, clutching the dampish bed sheets; I leaned forward inhaling as much air as I could to get to return my hearts pulsations into a stable condition. I groaned, burying my face into my sweaty palms, making even more so as I felt the sickening, slick liquid on my forehead rub onto my shaking hands.
There was also another liquid adding to the solution as droplets fell from my tightly shut eyes, smoothly slipping off of my already tear stained cheeks and onto the sheets…
And to make her happy you must be happy…
There she was again, with that same sentence that plagued my sanity, eating away at my mentality,
"But how can I be happy?" My voice meek and scratchy as it left my mouth, I can imagine her face in the mirror again, but it would be much different from mines. The girls' face would be emotionless, impossible to read all apart from the cold smile that played upon her harsh lips and her eyes…they would not be all red and puffy from crying. They would be ferocious, sharp and chilling, slicing into anyone's and everyone's soul. I swallowed hard waiting for her to speak…to guide me.
By seeing the one you desire and showing her that you do not care about her…
I sat there dumfounded, she wanted me to see Rei? Well I guess that isn't too hard, I'm seeing everyone today anyway. I sighed as I noticed the rays of light slashing through the tiny gaps in the curtains: morning…great. I sighed again, it would only be a few hours before I had to face everyone again. I grumbled to myself for a few more minutes before hoisting myself into my morning routine.
The sun blared relentlessly down from the heavens, casting very little shadows as its rays covered most of Tokyo. I walked firmly with a new resolve in mind and the same cool smile upon my lips as my light blue summer dress swished around my legs with the slight breeze I was creating. The lush green grass attracted my gaze instantly as I felt peaceful by its fertility and purity…
An enthusiastic blonde came sprinting up to me speaking far too quickly for my mind to register anything her mouth was babbling on about.
"Usagi-chan calm down I can't understand you," I said laughing half heartedly at the childish girl in front of me, looking slightly embarrassed from my statement.
"Heh sorry about that Ami-chan I'm just so glad that you came, look I even brought you a book!" She finished smiling proudly as she produced an encyclopaedia, holding out for me to take it.
"Thanks Usagi-chan," I smiled my fake smile, taking the large volume off of the girl and walked placidly with the group to our picnic spot, under the shade of a large cherry blossom tree that was beautifully presenting its pink treasures to us.
The spacious blanket was laid out flattening the lush grass underneath its weight…
The picnic took full swing as Mako-chan revealed her mouth-watering selection of picnic food she had prepared for the occasion. Usagi-chan and Minako-chan both squealed in delight and immediately attacked the food with their chopsticks and squealing again as the explosion of flavours overwhelmed their taste buds. Mako-chan smiled warmly at them and began to help herself to some of the food before her chance was chomped away. Her strong hands offered both Rei-chan and I a pallet of food to choose from, which we did gratefully and nibbled on the exquisite food thoroughly enjoying Mako-chan's talent.
"Let's play Frisbee!" Usagi-chan's high-pitched voice rang out as she had scoffed away her food before anyone else had barley begun, but the rest of the group were willing enough to join in her suggestion. I used the old excuse of having just ate to sit out of the game, I felt a pair of amethyst eyes trying to probe into my thoughts and feelings but I just allowed her to see the harsh smile, which donned my mask as I waved at the group as they wandered a little further from the blanket to play their game.
I sighed, closing my eyes as I leaned sluggishly upon the thick tree trunk behind me, providing me with excellent support…
My peacefulness was broken within moments as I heard the rustling of grass next to me and the shouts of the group calling to me. Opening my ice blue eyes, I stared annoyed at the simple rainbow stained plastic circle that brought so much enjoyment to my friends and grudgingly I picked up the object, picking out my target threw it back with as much strength as I possessed.
She caught it, taken aback by the force behind it, she stared at me, her face hurt as she flicked her cape of raven coloured hair back into place and continued on with game, trying to regain her composure before anyone had noticed.
But I had noticed…
So here's chapter 2 guys hope you all enjoyed it and please review because it was you guys that wanted this story to be continued so I need to know what you think of it. Good or bad I like it all – Dark Shadows 01
