Series: Beta

Pairing: Still Danny/Adam, don't like, don't read

Warning: Character death, twice, unrelated

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1. Walking

Walking was something Danny had always found easy, but when he woke up in the hospital, he knew he would never walk again.

2. Waltz

Danny and Adam's first dance was a waltz, a weird choice maybe, but as they whirled around the room, people watched and every single person thought that they were made for each other.

3. Wishes (not linked with 16, 1, etc)

If Danny had one wish, just one, it would be to see Adam's smiling face again, but instead, he has to live with the fact that he's gone, and never coming back.

4. Wonder

Adam loves to watch Danny sleep, but, lying there in the twilight that fills the room, he can't help but wonder what made Danny choose a lab geek like him, when he could have had someone like Don.

5. Worry

He knows it's silly, but when Danny goes to bring a suspect in, Adam can't help but worry.

6. Whimsy

If there's one word that Danny would use to describe Adam, apart from stunningly handsome, it would be whimsical.

7. Waste/Wasteland

A life without Danny , for Adam, would be a barren wasteland, nothing there of interest, just miles and miles of endless desert and loneliness.

8. Whiskey and Rum

Adam keeps telling him that rum plus whiskey at two in the morning equals a temper like a bear with a sore head in the morning, but Danny just doesn't listen.

9. War

There are so many terrible things in the world, war, famine, terrorism, death, but there are also many wonderful things in the world, Danny, for example, in Adam's case, and vice versa.

10. Weddings (prequel to 2)

The day finally comes, and when the rings are being put on fingers, Adam is surprised by the tears in Danny's eyes; he thought that he would be the first to cry, not his partner.

11. Birthday

As a kid, Adam dreaded birthdays, spent on his own, no other children, no presents, but now he treasures them, because it was on his birthday that him and Danny finally admitted their feelings for each other, and paved the way for a love that would last a lifetime.

12. Blessing

Danny was truly a blessing for Adam.

13. Bias

Danny often thought that Adam was the most beautiful thing in the world, but then, he was biased.

14. Burning

It's a cold December night, but Adam's skin is burning as Danny kisses his way down Adam's neck, sucking at the collarbone, nipping his earlobe, driving him crazy.

15. Breathing

It's late at night, but Danny isn't sleeping, instead he's just lying there, listening to the gentle rise and fall of Adam's chest.

16. Breaking (prequel to 1)

Danny can feel the bones in his legs snapping, shattering into a million irreparable pieces, and then they leave him there, battered and broken.

17. Belief

Adam was raised catholic, but it was belief in Danny, not in God that they would make it out of that warehouse alive.

18. Balloon

When Adam smiles, Danny's spirits are raised higher than any hot air balloon ever could.

19. Balcony

Sitting on the balcony, curled up in Danny's lap, Adam never wants to move again.

20. Bone (linked with 16, 1, 25 etc)

It was Flack who found Danny, lying there, the bones of his legs shining in the light, Flack who saved him life, and for that Adam is eternally grateful.

21. Quiet

Adam may be many things, but quiet is not one of his numerous idiosyncrasies.

22. Quirks

Danny has many quirks, none quite as weird as Adam's chips dipped in chocolate sauce though.

23. Questions

When Danny told him that their destination was a surprise, Adam couldn't help but ask question after question after question.

24. Quarrel

Adam remembers their first fight, it was so trivial, but he wants to remember everything about his relationship with Danny

25. Quitting (sequel to 1)

He was so close to quitting, so close to throwing in the towel and curling up in a ball, letting death take him.

26. Jump

Parachuting isn't Danny's idea of fun, but Adam soon teaches him that sometimes, you just have to close your eyes and jump.

27. Jester

When someone makes an offhand joke about Danny, he just laughs it off, playing the clown, but Adam can see the pain in his eyes, knowing that cruel jokes cut Danny deeper than any knife ever could.

28. Jousting

Danny's favourite ever case was the one where they found a dead knight in Central Park, and the expression on Adam's face he when told him was priceless.

29. Jewel (sequel to 25)

Danny's eyes were blue, brighter than the brightest sapphire, and more precious to Adam than any jewel, but when Adam found him, a gun in his hand, the beautiful blue eyes were lifeless, clouded over, missing the sparkle of life that made them Danny's.

30. Just

When Danny brings home a puppy, a small chocolate brown Labrador, and Adam asks why, Danny smiles and says 'Just because.' and Adam decided he loves it when Danny does things just because.

31. Smirk

When he witnesses Adam tripping over, sending beakers crashing to the floor, all he can do is smirk as he helps his lover to his feet.

32. Sorrow (sequel to 29)

Adam had felt sorrow before, but that was nothing compared to what he felt now, watching his reason for living, his other half being lowered in the ground, buried forever.

33. Stupidity

Danny could never wrap his head around the fact that someone as smart as Adam could be so stupid as to walk into a closed glass door, bouncing off it and dropping a box full of new test tubes.

34. Serenade (sequel to 32)

The music starts, and Stella stands up to serenade Danny's life with her sweet honey voice, and Adam thinks that there was never been a more beautiful, heartbreaking version of Amazing Grace.

35. Sarcasm

When Danny tells Adam he loves him, Adam is surprised, not because Danny loves him, but because the romantic words actually made it past the sarcasm filter he used so often in his day.

36. Sordid

Danny is a little worried about Flack, because when he finally tells him about Adam, all he wants to know is where the videos are.

37. Soliloquy

Danny thought that talking to himself was crazy, so when he's in the apartment on his own, he relieves his stress by pouring out his feeling to his guitar; only when Adam isn't available though.

38. Sojourn

When Danny suggested a long weekend in Canada, Adam jumped at the chance, only if Danny promised to protect him from bears.

39. Share

When Adam suggests a threesome with Flack, Danny refuses straightaway; he doesn't like to share.

40. Solitary

Now that he has Danny, Adam will never be on his own again.

41. Nowhere

Adam is eternally grateful to Danny, because without him, he would be nowhere, just another New Yorker; but he's not, he's Danny's and that makes him feel like he's somewhere.

42. Neutral

Danny wants to watch the baseball, but Adam wants to watch the Discovery channel, and finally they find neutral ground in the form of the Jay Leno show.

43. Nuance

The transition from glasses to contacts was a small nuance for Danny, but for Adam it was a huge step, one he isn't sure Danny should have taken; he much prefers the glasses

44. Near

Adam doesn't care where Danny is, as long as he is near.

45. Natural

People say that same sex marriage isn't natural, but looking at the white gold band on Danny's ring finger, Adam thinks it's just as natural as opposite sex marriage.

46. Horizon

The sun setting on the horizon is stunning to watch against the backdrop of a city like New York, and as Danny and Adam lounge on their apartment building roof, Adam thinks there is no place he would rather be.

47. Valiant

Marching a suspect down to interrogation, Adam watches from behind the corner, and privately thinks that Danny has never looked more valiant, and he is proud of him for that.

48. Virtuous

Danny smoked, he drank, he swore, all he had left was his virtue (sort of), and Adam took that away pretty damn quick; not that Danny cared, of course.

49. Victory

Every puzzle solved, every case cracked, every piece of DNA matched and in the database, Adam considers that a victory, and who is Danny to argue with him?

50. Defeat (linked with 16, 1, 25, 29, 32, 34)

He had fought till the last, but he knew in his heart he would be defeated, and this thought chilled him to the bone, the fact that he would be leaving so much behind, his family, his friends, his Adam.

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I've got a companion piece to this coming, a story with some of the sentences that I loved and were too angst worthy not to re-use, so look out for a story entitled 'Surrendering.' Coming soon to a computer near you!