Lighthouse

I ran through the rooms until I finally reached the balcony. I closed my eyes and inhaled the fresh air. The salty air filling my lungs. I gripped the railing so hard that my knuckles turned white.

After all those years he still haunted me. He left me behind, left me in the dark. He chased after her because she made him happy, the way I didn't. I had never felt so heartbroken. I never knew what they meant with a constant ache in your chest, losing part of your soul. Now I do.

He looked the same as 5 years ago. But instead of me on his arm, he had her. She noticed me staring and kissed him, just to prove that he wasn't mine anymore. I couldn't watch them be all lovey dovey, so I ran. And ended up here.

Tears streamed down my face as the ache in my chest grew. The wind rushed through my hair, letting it fly side to side. There was a storm going on, but I didn't care. I never wanted to go in there again. I never want to feel again. I never want to return to my life again.

I climbed onto the railing, watching the waves crash against the poles beneath me. The ocean, a deep dark mystery. One that I would have liked to investigate. A lightning bold appeared in the middle of the ocean. It broke through the darkness.

The light will always guide my way. It will always find your home. So it will find mine. My tears dropped into the ocean, drop by drop. There was no one who cared about me, no family, no friends and not the love of my life. They'd move on.

The thunder neared, it was time to go. I swallowed my tears and whispered to myself "I cannot live like this anymore, hiding in the dark. You were my lighthouse, my only light. You're gone and I have to find my own. No matter what I never stopped loving you." I heard the door behind me open. I didn't turn around, I didn't have to, I knew it was him. I looked down and swallowed.

I let go. Joining the mystery of the ocean. Joining the thunder crashing into the ocean. Because no matter what, the light will guide my way.