Kallen couldn't sleep, she felt strange, like she was safe, yet, she couldn't shake the feeling that the person that saved her was more than just a stranger, that he had more motive for his hospitality than he let on, that it was more than something out of outright kindness.

If her internal clock was correct it was 4 AM, at least it was on this side of the Brittanian mainland. She turned on her bed to face the open room, and stood up, begging to pace.

'Things are going from bad to worse to down right horrific, I need to get back to friendly territory. I have so many questions, why the set up? Why did they chase me and not Nunnally? And who, who saved me?'

She turned to look at her rescuer, sleeping on the floor.

'I need to know who he is. I can't go near him, he could be a light sleeper and I don't want him to know I've been snooping, though I could peek under his hood, I don't want to risk it, he might have something else for me to figure him out.'

She began to look around the room, her head swiveled as her eyes glanced around the room, getting a mental layout and trying to find anything of note for her to look at.

'That will work.' She spotted his notebook on a shelf. She pulled it down, sat on the bed, and flipped to the first page.

'This is my first notebook, a journal, mother told me it would provide comfort for my thoughts and space to draw, so, time to start. Today Nelly and Euphie came over, I like them better than my other siblings, they where always so much nicer to Nuna and I, all the others called us half blood worms, I don't get it, we're supposed to be family. Anyways we spent most of our time in the gardens at the villa, I got bored and put a little frog on Euphie's head, Nelly threw me into the lake in turn...'

Kallen smiled at the entry, but couldn't help recognizing those nicknames, though she can't remember where she heard them. She only heard it once or twice a few years ago back when-

She bit her lip and blinked away a tear that had been forming.

'He's gone, he's gone and it's your fault for ever doubting him in the first place, that's why you quit the black knights and became Nunnally's personal guard. It's the only thing I can do to honor and remember him, now stop crying, he wouldn't like to see me cry, even up there, in heaven, where he truly belongs.'

She flipped through a few more pages past several doodles and notes until she found another entry.

'I hate his guts!'

Her eyes widened, and she read the next entry carefully.

'That vile, dispicable, disgusting excuse of a father! He doesn't care at all! They killed her! And now Nunna is hurt! Oh how I despise him! I loath him! I want him to die! All he does is vouch for war and execute anyone he doesn't like! He never once told anyone that he loved them! Be it his wife's or children! I went to the throne room today, I demanded he find the assailant, but he didn't care, so I called him out right in front of everyone, every last noble, military man, and member of the family! You know what he did? He said that I was dead to him, that I have been since the moment I was born! He exiled me and my sister to Japan as political hostages today, they all laughed at me! We leave tomorrow morning, I need to pack...

Her jaw dropped, she began to flip through the pages, for a while, there was nothing, as if he didn't feel like writing much of anything for years, keeping his thoughts private, but then, she found one sketch that caught her eyes instantly as she flipped by, she went back to find the page.

Blue prints for a mask, one she was very familiar with, on the left, an equally familiar costume design. She stared at it for who knows how long, before turning a page and finding an entry.

'Yesterday was the beginning, though I had hoped I could wait just a bit longer until I was ready. But it has begun and I will follow it through to the end, I defeated and killed a member of my family, and in doing so I have set out on my mission, I swore, on the day that Brittania attacked Japan, and destroyed my home for the second time in a row, that I would destroy the empire. I also received a power, known as geass, from a green haired woman known as C.C. I do not know much about my power, only that I can now give a single order that a person must obey with eye contact. I didn't want it, I wanted to live, I want justice, but this isn't a tool of justice, it is more of a crutch for revenge, but I will use it, and my second target, was myself, I have found that while it only works on others once, I can use it on myself a few times before I become immune.

I ordered myself to lock away my emotions and my morals, in order to destroy Brittania, I must be a monster, a demon, something more than human, or perhaps less? I have ordered myself, from here on in, to stop at nothing to achieve my goal of creating a better world, even if it means the world hates me, even if a potential lover, friends, even Nunnally. I must either succeed or die, so I write this as an apology to anyone that is killed because of me, as well as to those that I hurt, physically, mentally, and emotionally, this is the last time I can say or think these things under most circumstances, unless it is a unique, or overly taxing situation where holding in my emotions would damage what's left of my sanity.

I'm sorry, I'm so, so sorry, I do not ask for forgiveness, I know that what I am about to undertake is the work of the devil himself and I will burn in hell for it, and I resign my fate to whatever this fucked up universe deems appropriate. But know I do not enjoy it, know that every time I kill or order someone to do something against their will, a part of me will die, burn to cinders, and I will slowly melt away until I am nothing but ash and bone, until I am well and truly dead, mind, body, and soul.

To Clovis, I'm sorry I couldn't save you from father's corruption, and that I had to kill you in Shinjuku.

To my friends, I'm sorry I didn't tell any of you but this is my mission and mine alone, you deserve to have normal lives.

To any potential romantic partners, I'm sorry, but I cannot allow myself to love anyone until my mission is complete, and you must be kept out of harms way, a very wise woman once said, 'if you wish to keep someone safe, you will push them away to keep them out of danger.'

And to Nunnally, I'm sorry, I know I promised I wouldn't lie, that I would be there until I die, but to make the world you dream of a reality, I must break that promise, I'm gona have to have a rain check on swallowing those thousand needles.

Goodbye.'

She flipped through page after page, it was all here, every strategy every tactic, everything that happened during the black rebellion, from the prospective of Zero himself.

She finally reached the end of it, there was a page, titled Zero Requiem. She recognised this, Nunnally told her, along with the other leading black knights, and select members of the UFN, about how she received a vision, about how Lelouch planned his own death, they scoffed and began to write it off, but then Zero pulled his mask off, revealing Suzaku's pained, angry, and emotionally unstable face in the conference room, and yelled at them, describing what had happened, what was planned, piece by piece, with incredible detail, and in the end they believed.

And he described it just as this journal entry did, to the letter.

She couldn't help but to start crying silently, as she let the book fall from her hands into her lap, the next page revealed a beautiful drawing, it was her, in her Ashford uniform, standing under a tree, there was another on the next page, Lelouch and herself where laying down together under the same tree, she continued to flip through the pages, sketches of her, one was of her in a bunny suit which she immediately blushed at and looked away from, then of the student council, Nunnally, of the Guren, all well drawn and done with care. She closed the book, and set it down on the shelf. She then stood up and turned to look at the man who rescued her.

She stepped forward, knelt down next to him, and pulled up his hood...

POV SWITCH LELOUCH

He sprang up at the sound of one of his cabinets toppling over.

After rubbing his eyes and blinking he searched the room for the source of his slumber being disturbed.

He looked at Kallen, who was sitting on the floor and had her back against the wall, and he noticed two things...

1: His hood was down

2: She was staring right at him

'... Bugger...'

A/N a little cheesy I know, kinda like chapter 10 of code wars, but it was the best I could think of. REVIEW!