Steve's Dark Secret

Chapter 2

By PhinalPhantasy

(A/N: Sorry it took so long to update this story. A lot has been going on recently and I haven't had as much computer access as I thought. Anyways I hope you like this chapter, it's going to be very serious so be warned. The part's between the lines that are all X's is very graphic so if you want to skip over it, go ahead.)

(Disclaimer: I don't own Family Matters or the characters in this story.)

Laura's eyes widened in surprise. She honestly didn't see this coming. She just performed a seductive dance for her new husband to get him in the mood for a night of love and passion, but instead of getting turned on, Steve was crying as if he had done something very wrong. He was curled up in a ball on their bed and was sobbing hard. She was very worried about him and climbed into the bed next to him, "Steve?" she asked, putting an arm around his shoulders, "What's wrong? Was it something I did?" Steve didn't say anything but shook his head in the universal symbol for "no."

"Please Steve…tell me what's wrong…" then Laura tried to reason it out for herself. Steve was always the gentleman, he hardly ever thought an impure thought about her, but they were married now and she really wanted him. Maybe he was feeling guilty about thinking of her in a sexual manner, ridiculous as it may have seemed, "Steve," she began patiently, "it's okay for you to…want me…you understand that right? We're husband and wife now. I love you and desire you. It's nothing to be ashamed of to want me in the same way. Honestly it'd be a real problem if you didn't want me. I know you pride yourself on being pure of heart and clean minded, and that you love me and respect me…but it's okay to want my body now...I want yours too you know," she said gently.

Steve's sobbing slowed down but didn't stop, "I know that Laura…that's not the problem…"

Laura kissed him gently on the cheek, "Then what is the problem?" she asked.

"It's…it's hard to explain…" he sniffled

"Steve," she said gently and firmly, "Please tell me. I'm your wife and I want to help you, but I'm not a mind reader. I need you to talk to me."

"It's a long story…" Steve warned.

"We've got all week," Laura said, reminding him of how long their honeymoon was going to be. She slowly laid down beside of her husband, "Come on Steve. Lay down with me so we can talk."

"Al…alright Laura," Steve replied, unfolding himself from his earlier position. Laura took a good look at his face and in all the years she's known him, he never looked more depressed. He lied down next to her but kept a small amount of distance. Laura sighed and patted her breast to indicate she wanted him to move closer rest his head there. Hesitantly at first, Steve nodded and wiped his eyes, then scooted until his body was against hers and his head was on its new pillow. Laura smiled and put her arm around his waist.

"That's not too bad is it?" she asked.

"It's very nice Laura," Steve replied putting his own arm over her waist. He closed his eyes and concentrated on listening to his lovely wife's heartbeat through the thin amount of clothing she had on and its tranquil rhythm began to comfort him.

"Are you calm enough to talk now?" Laura asked, beginning to play a bit with Steve's short hair.

"Okay…I guess I should…I don't want to hide it from you anymore," Steve said. He took a breath and calmly said, "I was upset after hearing you say you've kept your chastity all this time…"

Laura frowned, "But I thought that would make you happy," she said confused.

"Oh I'm not mad at you Laura…I'm mad at myself," Steve replied, "because…I couldn't do the same…"

Hearing that it dawned on Laura, "Myra right?" Steve nodded sadly. That confirmation thrusted a small knife in her heart. She should've seen this coming. She was the one who encouraged them to date after all and Myra could barely keep her hands off of Steve. But she thought that he had more self control than that. He always said that despite the fact he was dating another woman, his heart truly belonged to her and was just waiting for her to accept him. She assumed that he was saving his virginity as well for her. She tried to push Steve off of her body, but he only held on tighter.

"Please Laura!" Steve said desperately, "I know I'm not worthy, but don't hate me…I can't live without you!"

"I don't know if I can let this slide so easily, Steve. You wait until after we're married to reveal something like this?!" Laura shouted, "I knew Myra was very passionate about you, but I thought you had more control over yourself than that! You promised your heart to me. I assumed everything else went with it. I guess I was wrong," she said sadly. Steve then let go of Laura on his own and rolled over and began to cry again. Laura couldn't believe it. It was only their first night as a married couple and they were already having their first fight. But how could he do that to her after all his declarations of love all this time and after she finally fell for him. She began to tear up as well.

"Stupid…stupid…stupid…stupid," Steve kept mumbling to himself and punching his side of the bed in between sobs, "I wanted to save myself for you," he spoke up, "I tried so hard but I couldn't….I couldn't…" he said.

"All it would've taken was a little willpower. I thought you had that."

"Please Laura…you don't understand…" he couldn't turn around to face her though.

"Oh I understand alright!" Laura fumed, "Was it good for you?" she said in a mocking tone.

"I didn't give it to her," Steve said desperate to be heard, "SHE STOLE IT FROM ME!" Then he rolled over as far as he could to be away from Laura but still on the bed. He didn't make a sound but the tears just wouldn't stop flowing.

Laura was shocked out of her own jealousy and immediately regretted her earlier anger, "Are you saying what I think you're saying?" she asked.

Steve looked back at her, trying to control his fragile state, "I would like to tell you the whole story…if you want to listen…"

Laura sighed and nodded, "I'm your wife," she said, "I asked for you to tell me what was bothering you. I'm sorry I got upset."

"I don't blame you," Steve replied, "I'm just as upset at myself."

"Come back here," Laura said, opening her arms to him, "I promise I won't interrupt until you've told me everything you want to say."

"Alright," Steve replied. He slowly made his way back to her and laid down in his earlier position, once again the sound of Laura's heartbeat had a calming effect on him. "I'm not sure if you knew about this, but back in high school, a bunch of the guys in the locker room were picking on Eddie when I mentioned he was still a virgin to prove to them that waiting was a good thing…well after Eddie was convinced to be true to himself, he stood up to the others and proved his point and they all left…except me. During that time, Maya was crazier than a cat in heat. I was trying to hide from her and stayed behind in the locker room when the others left…that was the biggest mistake I ever made. She found me and since we were alone, despite my protests she forced me into a locker and managed to squeeze herself as well and even closed the door behind her…"

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"Myra!" Steve said in protest as he was pressed against the back wall of the locker. He was stuffed into them before of course, by various jocks and bullies, but never by his girlfriend before. He always found them to be cramped and was honestly surprised that Myra had managed to stuff herself in here as well and closed the door behind her. Of course this also meant that he barely had any room to move at all and the only light was coming from the thin slits in the door.

"Oh Stevie," Myra said in her sweetest tone, "Alone at last," she grinned and then began to kiss him furiously, forcing her tongue into his mouth. Taken by surprise Steve couldn't even moan a protest as her tongue rolled around rapidly in his mouth. He was breathing heavily due to being overwhelmed by this sudden action and the low amount of air that was in the cramped locker. This only encouraged Myra more and she continued the kiss and took Steve's hand in hers and moved it up her leg and up her skirt to show him she wasn't wearing any underwear under there. To make sure that he would get the picture she moved his fingers to her already wet area. Steve shouted against her kiss and she pulled away, but lingered on his lower lip a moment. He tried to pull away from her, but as always she was stronger and this only encouraged her to press his fingers into her body.

"MYRA!" Steve shouted in protest.

"That's right Stevie, shout my name to the heavens!" Myra said and she began to lick and nibble at his ear, "Doesn't this feel good? Doesn't this feel right?" She forced his fingers to move up and down inside her.

"Myra I've told you. My heart and body belong to L…OWWWWWWW!" he was cut off by a fierce and painful bite to his ear.

"Don't you dare mention that name when you're with me, Steven Q. Urkel!" Myra hissed in his ear, "She doesn't love you and you don't love her. Got it!" she bit him again for emphasis and even drew a small droplet of blood which she licked. "I'm the only woman for you," she said taking his other hand and forced it, despite his struggling, over her butt and began to moan as she moved his hand all over it and his first hand in and out. He tried to pull away again and when he opened his mouth to try to talk her out of this insanity, she forced another kiss on him, she moaning in pleasure, him trying to shout out but his sounds were muffled and Myra was only encouraged more, "Yes Stevie, I know you want this! Your may be thinking 'no' but your moans tell me 'yes!' Quit fighting me and just accept it! I'm going to give you a very precious gift. I'm going to prove to you that your heart belongs to only me. I've already given you my heart, now I'm giving you my body, something I know she wouldn't and after this you'll never think about that tramp Laura again!" she then removed her hands from Steve's and he was too shocked and out of breath to try to stop her as she quickly unbuttoned and unzipped his pants, quickly forcing them down just enough to expose his manhood. Despite how utterly wrong this was to him, Steve couldn't fight the male human body's natural reaction to stimulation from a woman as she pumped him, "Oh Stevie! It's even more wonderful than I imagined!" Myra's eyes lit up with pure lust and it looked like nothing was going to stop her.

"Please Myra…" Steve whispered desperately, tears in his eyes. She pressed her body against his as tight as possible.

"Yes Stevie. Ask for it…beg for it! I love it! I will make you mine!" she grabbed his manhood firmly and although Steve tried to pull away, Myra shoved herself on top of it and began to ride him. There was nowhere for Steve to run, it was too closed in and it was too dark for her to see what this was really doing to him. She was much too strong for him to push her off of him. All he could do was let his tears flow as she had her way with him while she moaned and screamed his name in what she thought was an expression of love, but to him, hearing his name like that only furthered his terror…After what seemed an eternity of hell, which in reality was only 15 minutes, she finally removed herself from him and managed to open the locker and exited calmly with a bright smile on her face as if she hadn't done anything wrong. She straightened out her hair and clothes and Steve managed to walk out of the locker and straighten himself out too, but was too sore and exhausted to get very far when she walked towards him and caressed his cheek, "Stevie that was the most wonderful experience of my life. You're mine now and forever…I love you," she kissed his cheek and noticed his tears, "How sweet. It was just as good for you…I don't know how I kept from crying in pure joy myself…oh well…maybe next time," she said sweetly and skipped out of the locker room before he could even say anything. It was too late for him to do anything now…all he could do was go to the shower and try to clean up how dirty he felt…

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…Laura gasped in horror as Steve finally told her the whole story, "My God Steve…I am so sorry…" her eyes filled with tears as well, she felt horrible. She was upset that something like this was even possible…that it happened to Steve, the man she loved, her husband…that she even thought for a moment he was unfaithful in his promise to her…that he actually blamed himself for what happened. She wrapped her arms around him and held him as close as possible as they both shed tears together.

"Laura…I'm so sorry…I couldn't keep myself pure for you…" he said, "I tried so hard…and it wasn't the last time it happened either."

"She did it again?" Laura asked in shock.

Steve nodded, "The Christmas we were working in the gift wrap department…the customers were impatient with my slow wrapping and they all turned on me and wrapped me tight and then left me alone with her. Since I couldn't move very well, Myra took that as another opportunity to show her 'love' for me."

"Steve…" she whispered his name softly. She thought about all those times that Steve came to her, asking advice on how to get Myra to leave him alone, or even just to hide from her. Laura only thought that Myra was annoying him as much as he used to annoy Laura and so didn't take his pleas seriously. In retrospect, she should've realized…Steve was actually scared of Myra...and now she knew the reason, "Why didn't you tell anyone?" she asked.

"Oh yeah, that would've gone over very well. I was already being teased and bullied for my high pitched voice, my lack of physical strength, my love of cheese, the way I dressed, and my aptitude for science…letting word out that I was raped by my own girlfriend…that would've been the one thing that people would've teased me the most about…and you know what? I was willing to roll with the punches on the other stuff that I get picked on for, but that would've broken me…"

"You could've talked to my dad about this you know," Laura said, "he could've had her arrested..."

"I guess I was just…too ashamed of it to even tell him…besides…other than those two times, Myra pretty much behaved…"

"Those two times were two times too many!" Laura insisted, "You should've broken up with her after the first time!"

"I tried, but she still managed to guilt-trip me into staying with her. I just couldn't stand up to her until just before we got engaged…it was only your love for me that gave me that courage…"

"You know she's in jail now…for the surveillance thing…she can't hurt you anymore…" Laura said.

"I know that in my head, but in my heart it still hurts. I know you love me Laura and I love you too…but it's too late. I can never give myself to you the way I want to…" Steve replied sadly, "She stole that chance from me…from us…this is some wedding night huh?" he mocked himself.

"Only if you let her," Laura said softly.

"What?" Steve asked.

"It's not too late unless you let it be too late," Laura said, "Myra hurt you and by hurting you she hurt me too. We can either let this break us in which case she really did win, or we can try to work through this and start our life together." Steve perked up a bit and Laura kissed the top of his head, "And Steve?"

"Yes Laura?" he asked.

"They don't count. The two times Myra forced herself on you. That precious gift you wanted to give me, it was stolen from you, so you didn't give it up to her. That means you can have the chance to give it to me…the right way," she replied.

"Really?" Steve smiled slightly through his tears.

"Yes Steve. I'll be your first and last and only and you'll be the same to me," Laura said.

"Thank you Laura," Steve said softly.

"And even though we're married, I'm still willing to wait for you. We don't have to do anything tonight."

"We can work our way slowly through this. We do have a week here," Steve said, "If we do little things to build up my desire for you without feeling bad, I think I can be ready for you on the last night of our honeymoon."

"I'd like that," Laura said softly, "but if you can't I'll understand."

"I love you Laura Winslow," Steve said.

"And I love you Steve Winslow," Laura replied, "Let's try get some sleep." Laura kissed the top of Steve's head and rubbed his back gently as he laid on her breast, trying to gain comfort in hearing the heart of the woman he loved and who truly loved him while she gained comfort in feeling his body wrapped around hers. It wasn't what she really wanted to do tonight, but it would have to do for now, she realized…but it was still nice and intimate in its own way, holding her husband close to her as he fell asleep. As she saw the smile on Steve's face, Laura truly realized that they would get through this and then really be able to start their life together.

(A/N: Well I hope everyone enjoyed reading this chapter. I haven't decided yet whether to end this one here, or make one more chapter after this one. Please leave me some reviews and comments and let me know what you thought of this story and if you want me to continue it.)