CHAPTER 2

I took a step back. Closing my eyes, I felt him hug me tight. I opened my eyes, I saw him smirking . He pushed me roughly on the still wall. " You want proof? Then I'll give you proof " He snaked his arm on my waist and kissed me roughly but passionately.

My eyes widened. Because here in front of me is the guy who broke my heart and is the same guy who's kissing me. My tears were falling. Not only was I shocked but I was sad. Things were happening so fast.

How can he kiss me? How? I don't believe such things. After what he said?

*Sighs* I'm tired… Tired…. TIRED

I pushed him away from me and wiped my lips. Now I am the person with the dull eyes.

"GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME YOU BASTARD!" I screamed to the top of my voice

All those years I've wasted. I've wasted my energy,my breath, my whole just for him to appreciate my presence, just for him to even a little, like me. Yeah, I know. I can be always a lungy person. Always being obsessed and addicted to him but yeah, people have spaces too so It's clearly my fault

"Hey…" Sonic called out.

"I said, GET OUT" pointing my index finger to the door

"Okay…"

He went out and slammed the door. I breathed heavily and went to get my inhaler.
Pressed it two times so that I can be in a normal state of breathing.

I sighed then smiled sadly. I remember my favorite song that I've always sang for Sonic.

Our world is under a spell

Even the excitement of our love is sealed in our tears

Boy, let's go together to find that charm,

To the land of where forbidden dreams may come true.

Alone, tomorrow, let's secretly meet

Up on the hill where small birds are buried

Some day, when I hold your hand in the cold morning mist

And the seal of the shining road will be broken

Forever

I didn't wish to get heartbroken so I hid my feelings

I was happy, for you gave me that smile.

Boy, give me courage

To make everything that happened zero.

Let's kiss quietly in secret

Like a old picture book we're unable to read

When the wind blows in the morning dew

The shining road will strech on forever

Always

Callin'you

Callin' you

Calling out your name in a sad night

Callin' you

That will be the key to break the enchantment of the world

Alone, tomorrow, let's secretly meet

On the hill where we can the future of everyone's journeys

Someday, when I walk with you in the cold morning mist

The shining road will stretch on forever

Always

I didn't notice that my phone was ringing.
Standing by my window, listening for your call

Seems I really miss you after all

Time won't let me keep these sad thoughts to myself

I'd just like to let you know, I wish I'd never let you go

And I'll always love you

Deep inside this heart of mine I do love you

And I'll always need you And if you ever change your mind I'll still, I will love you

I wish you'd never left me but love's a mystery

You can break a heart so easily

Oh the days and nights reveal how much I feel for you

Time has come for me to see how much your love has meant to me

And I'll always love you And if you ever change your mind I'll still, I will love you

Time like a river keeps on rolling right on by

Nothing left for me to do So I watch the river rise

And I'll always love you

Deep inside this heart of mine I do love you

And I'll always need you And if you ever change your mind I'll still, I will

And I'll still, I will love you

I checked it. It became a fricking missed call =.=

It's from mom. I have 5 text messages too. I opened my inbox and scanned through the messages.

"Honey, come here. Live me for a while''

"Honey, please. Just for a while"

"Honey, I have brain tumor''

"Honey I need you''

"I'm sorry"

Then another case. You see when I was young, I didn't know that she has an affair with another guy. But my father did not know a thing about it so what I did was collect all my evidences and showed it to father.

Now, every night she gets punishment from father and she blames me for what I did.
But heck, it wasn't my fault she has an affair. Father has to know it somehow, right?

And now.. Mother blames me for what she did. She's so selfish. She only thinks of herself. She only thinks of her own pain. That's why when I was young I sang BECAUSE OF YOU by KELLY CLARKSON

She didn't care for how I felt when I knew about the affair shit. Sometimes I wonder why I was born? Now I realize that I was only born to feel all my mother's pain. She intended to make me just to let me guilty that I was born.

She's selfish,insensitive.

*Sighs* I hate her. I mean, she has two options:

Option#1 Give me up

Option#2 Bore Me

She tells me that if I hadn't been born she'll have a good future. Then why bother bore me if I am that of a hindrance to her.

And now, she says sorry and has brain tumor.

FORGIVE AND FORGET.

I always forgive, not forget because things and experiences like that not only makes me strong but it makes me cry. I can't believe it! She had the nerve to bore me and now she's blaming me that I was born! Can you believe that!?

I texted back. "K,sure mom. Be there in a few hours''

I packed my things and prepared myself for a snack. CHEESE SANDWICH and ORANGE JUICE UMMMH!