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Chapter 2 – Another Part of Me
BPOV
Alice had definitely been busy after she disappeared for school on Monday morning. Not only had she started getting the ball rolling as far as the wedding preparations go, but she had also gone down to the police station and convinced Charlie to let me stay over at the Cullen's that night.
Edward took me home to get a change of clothes for school the next day and my toiletries. Once we were back in the car and making our way to his house, an idea popped into my head.
Ever since I woke up from the dreaded coma which I found myself in 3 months ago I have been waiting for the right time to bring up the subject of me becoming a vampire with Edward. Surely, he didn't think that we could be married and I remain human, in my mind it was an inconceivable option. If I was to become a Cullen, then I needed to be one completely, that meant that eventually and if I had my way, before I turned 19 then I would be changed.
Once myself and Edward were married I wanted it to be for eternity and not just the length of my human life, that was in no way long enough for us. When I was married to my soul mate, my other half I wanted to be his equal. Since the day we met he has been protecting and saving me using whatever means necessary. I was always the weak little human who had to rely on her vampire boyfriend to save her, from not just supernatural dangers but stupid things like falling over and banging my head or tripping over my own feet. I wanted, no I needed to be able to protect myself and with the Volturi's threat still hanging in the air Edward had no choice but to change me, and he would have to do it himself.
I stared out of the window thinking about how I was going to start the conversation as we made our way up the winding driveway which led to the Cullen house. I took a deep sigh still undecided about what to start with and also somewhat nervous about Edwards reaction.
Edward of course became anxious when he heard my frustrated sigh and began his questioning instantly.
"Bella" he whispered nonchalantly whilst grazing his hand upon my knee.
"Yes, Edward?" I replied, turning to face him as he parked the car in its usual spot.
Edward turned in his seat, anxiety crossing his features. I knew what he was going to say before he even opened his mouth. He was frustrated, and he was frustrated because he could sense something was bothering me and he couldn't listen to my thoughts to find out what it was.
"Bella, you have to tell me what you're thinking. Something is wrong, I can tell." He said as placed his hand on my cheek.
"I am fine Edward, trust me. We just need to discuss a few things that's all." I reassured him.
"Ok, love we can go up to my room now and talk if you want." Edward asked.
"Yep, sounds good." I replied an unsure and forced smile crossing my face.
As always Edward greeted me at the passenger door before I even had time to reach for the handle. I took hold of his strong, ice cold hand and he pulled me to my feet and up towards the house.
Every single time I come in this house I am always greeted by a stampede of excited vampires, all of them happy at my arrival. Jasper had learned to control his animalistic tendencies around me after everything that happened, so it was much easier for us to bond and Rosalie was like a completely different person. She was so full of love and friendship, maybe through guilt she had, but nevertheless I was happy for the change and myself, Rosalie and Alice had become inseparable friends.
As I came through the front door with Edward at my side on this occasion however, there was a weird silence. The house was empty, consumed in darkness, I didn't like it this way it reminded me of the times I would come to look it over when Edward and the Cullen's left last year.
"Edward, where is everybody?" I questioned in my confusion.
"I don't know, that is weird no one mentioned anything. I..."
Edward stopped his response as he spotted something resting on the lid of his beloved piano. We both walked over to it and Edward read.
"We have all decided that you and Bella need some alone time. We have gone away to hunt and will be back sometime early morning. Enjoy the house, Esme and co. P.S. try not to break anything."
Myself and Edward both smirked at that last part. No matter how careful everyone was around the house, Esme was always convinced something was going to get damaged. I think she might be a little obsessive conpulsive, but we still love her.
Edward and I sat down in the sitting room, both a bit 'weirded' out by the odd silence which was never present in the Cullen home. I sat on the sofa and Edward perched himself on the edge of the coffee table so we could talk to each other more comfortably.
"So, wife to be what is it you wanted to talk about?" Edward asked with a grin that failed to reach his eyes. I could tell he was nervous about what I was going to reply with.
"Edward, I think we need to discuss what is to become of me. The Volturi's threat is still present and they warned you that if you didn't change me there would be consequences." I responded with a traitor tear escaping my eye.
Edward looked over me, concerning clouding his face as he wiped the tear away with his thumb.
"I know Bella, I know. I'm just in two minds how to go about it. I know it's what you want and if it makes you happy I will do it." He assured me.
"Oh, Edward thank you. I know it will be hard for you but I know you can do it and just remember once all the change has finished we will have eternity together." I finished with a kiss.
"Bella, I will change you I promise. I am just worried as I always have been that your soul will go, you will be forever damned and that is what is bothering me constantly."
"Edward, look at me. You have a soul, I have seen it, I have felt it. Every time you kiss me, or smile that crooked grin, each time you tell me you love me and hug me with such love I feel it's presence. Being a vampire is just another part of you, it is not what defines you, your mind and your soul are what make you the Edward that I love. When I am changed it will be exactly the same for me. Yes, I will be stronger, faster, prettier..."
"Bella, you could never be prettier." He interrupted with a kiss on the nose.
"Edward let me finish. I will be more resilient, my eyes will change colour and I won't blush every time you look at me, but Edward I will still be Bella, your Bella. Remember when I say being a vampire will not be all that I am it will just be another part of me." I smiled whilst pulling him into a humanly tight embrace.
Edward moved onto the sofa beside me and held me in his arms, breathing in the scent of strawberry shampoo which encompassed my wild locks of hair.
"Bella, you must understand this will be the hardest thing for me to do. I don't know how I will handle seeing you in pain after I bite you, but if it is truly what you want I will do it to make you happy." He said as he fiddled with a strand of my waving chocolate tresses.
"Edward, it is better this way anyway. Carlisle can give me lots of morphine to help with the pain and after all I will be going through the change without being close to death first. If we do it whilst I am healthy then maybe it will happen quicker and it won't be as painful." I put across.
"Maybe, your right but I will still have to go over the finer points with Carlisle first."
"Ok, sure no problem." I agreed.
At that moment my stomach made the loudest rumbling noise ever. I hadn't even realised I was so hungry until the break in our intense conversation.
Edward immediately lifted me into his arms and sat me at one of the stools in the kitchen.
"Edward, you don't have to cook. I can do it." I told him.
"Bella, what kind of gentlemen would I be if I didn't cook for my fiancée once in a while? Besides I have been practising." He smiled as he chopped up tomatoes and threw pasta into a pan of bubbling water.
I loved just sitting and watching Edward do things. Whether it is cooking, playing his piano, sorting through his vast music collection or even messing with his hair. He was perfect in every way and as I observed him piling the pasta and tomato sauce onto a plate I was in that moment giddy in the thought of one day soon being his wife.
He seemed to like watching me do mundane things as well, because as I sat there slurping up yet another string of spaghetti I found him leaning against the counter glancing over my every movement.
"What?" I questioned. "Is there sauce on my face?"
"No, Bella." He laughed.
"I was just wondering how I was lucky enough to end up with a girl like you."
"Stop it; you are going to make me blush." I said embarrassed at his cheesiness.
"Hopefully." Edward replied as he pecked me on my now crimson cheek and he took my almost finished plate away proceeding to wash it up in supernatural speed.
It was now 7pm and in my opinion we still have a bit to discuss. My rumbling stomach had to interrupt things, didn't it?
We went back to our original positions on the sofa, him being sat at one end and myself being cradled in his arms.
I rested my head on his shoulder and was getting tired of the awkward silence that engulfed the room. We only got like this when something was plaguing our thoughts, and it was then that I chose to restart proceedings.
"When?" I whispered into his ear.
"When, what?" he replied, manoeuvring himself under me so that he could look at me as we talked.
"When are you going to change me?" I responded unsure of myself.
Edward sighed heavily, whilst running the back of his hand across my jaw.
"Like I said I have to go over it with Carlisle first, but when do you want it to happen?" Edward asked anxiously awaiting an answer.
I thought about it for a moment. What would be the best time? Definitely after graduation, but then there is the wedding. I needed to come up with a solution, but what?
"Oh, I know." I said as I fidgeted in place.
"Let's wait until after graduation and the wedding. That way my family and our friends can still be there and I won't be some crazed new born." I giggled.
Edward didn't smile in response. He didn't like the thought of me as some hunger crazed new born vampire, but I knew he would deal with it because it was what I wanted and he loved me.
"Good idea, love. If it had happened before then no humans could have attended. This way when we leave after the change people will just think we have gone off to college." Edward responded.
"Right, so that's sorted then. I will be changed as soon as the wedding is over." We both nodded in agreement.
Edward and I were both in agreement about this arrangement and finally settled down to an evening of pointless tv and uncompleted homework.
I was just finishing up my paper on Shakespeare's The Twelfth Night for English, when my cell phone rang.
Edward began checking my work over as I pulled the phone out of my jean pocket and looked on at the number on the screen, it was the station. Great dad must be staying late at work again, and thought he would check up on me.
"Hello." I asked exasperated as I lifted the now answered phone to my ear.
"Yes hello, is this Miss Isabella Swan?" the unknown voice on the other end was asking. Wait, why was he ringing and not my dad?
"This is Bella Swan. What can I help you with?" Edward sensed something was wrong from my tone in an instant and was immediately at my side.
"Miss Swan, I am Sergeant Thomas from Forks Police. I have some bad news. Your father has been in an accident." He said apologetically but full of authority and professionalism at the same time.
"An accident? What kind of accident?" I snivelled down the phone as Edward encased me in his arms. I knew he could hear the conversation along with me.
"Your father took a call to an armed robbery on the outskirts of town, and upon arrival he received a bullet wound to the chest."
"He is going to be ok isn't he? He has to be ok." I sobbed to both the man at the end of the phone and the vampire consoling me in his iron grip.
"Miss Swan, I am sincerely sorry that I have to tell you this but your father died on the scene."
That was the thing, the thing that had been destined to tip me over the edge. Not even 5 seconds had passed between Sergeant Thomas telling me the news and me collapsing into unconsciousness still held tight in my true loves arms. How was I going to cope without my dad? As the blackness started to take over and Edwards pleas for me to stay awake lessened in my ears an image swept across my vision. The image of Charlie walking me down the aisle at my wedding was now one that would never come to life and it was with that picture still coursing through my head that everything became dark and for the second time in my life, the first time being when Edward left me in the woods my heart broke.
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