This is chapter two! Excited? I am. Hope you enjoy it cause I've worked hard :)

Chapter two

Getting Worried.

BPOV

I sat sitting on a hospital bed, awaiting the results. I had refused to take off my wrist warmers and the doctors didn't pressure it. The doctor took an x-ray of my upper arm and shoulder to see if anything was broken and now I was waiting. Edward was sitting on a chair across the room looking at his phone. I'm guessing he was texting so I stared out the window. It was around lunch time. I guess this was a great excuse to not be at school. I was lost in my own thought and I heard the door open and click shut.
"Well, Miss. Swan. You will definitely have a nice bruise, but you're lucky. No break. It was a deep tissue bruise so I'm going to prescribe you some pain killers for the uncomfortable pain. It should be better in about two weeks. Until then, try not to lift anything with that arm, or hit it off anything. You really need to be careful not to fall again either." Dr. Shoft said in a sincere voice. He was getting old now. He was in his fifties I would guess. He was the doctor that had helped me out many times before with all my accidents.

Id always been a pretty clumsy person. Unfortunately.
"Thank gawd. Thanks Dr. Shoft. Again" I said with a slight laugh. He laughed along, I saw his gaze focus on my arms with wrist warmers once more, and then he smiled and left. Edward got up and walked over to me.
"Come on. We can make it back for the last two classes of the day" he said helping me up by the waist. He'd been very careful of my arms this whole time. Not even touching them. I was thankful of that though. They hurt. First we walked down to the pharmacy to get my prescription. Then he walked with me out of the hospital, and we went towards his car. I got in and kept quiet. I was still right back to ignoring him. I couldn't have him hurt me. I don't care if he helped me.
"Thanks" I said quietly. I couldn't just not thank him. I don't think I could have driven to the hospital myself earlier. It hurt too much.

"You're welcome." He answered. We didn't talk the whole way back to school. He parked and I got out and grabbed my bag, going to walk away.
"Bella…?"He asked as I started walking. I heard a car door slam and footsteps. He grabbed my shoulder. The one that wasn't hurt. And spun me around.
"What's wrong? I know you haven't been sick. You're hostile towards me now. What happened to the girl you were on Monday? I liked that girl, Bella. The fun, blushing, cute girl. Now you're all dark and hidden. Please tell me what's wrong" he asked in the sweetest way. Leaning down so his breath was fanning out over my face. His green eyes piercing through mine. I wanted to break down. But I knew I couldn't. So I put my head down to avoid his gaze, and walked away. I walked straight to my car. I didn't hear footsteps. I was glad, because I'm sure I wouldn't be able to handle him up that close again.I drove straight home.

When I got there no one was home yet. I walked up to my room in a sort of daze. I closed my door and locked it. Putting on music and blaring it. I grabbed the knife and sliced through my arm. Again and again. Three cuts later on my right arm, and one on my left. I collapsed to the floor in tears. Screaming and balling in pain. I bandaged them all up and quickly washed off the bathroom floor. I put my wrist warmers back on and walked to the corner of my room. Sinking down with my head in my hands and crying. Crying because I was falling for a boy that I would in no world, ever have a chance with. Feeling tears run down my face because no boy like that, would ever want to be with a girl like me.

I fell asleep in the corner of my room, and woke up and it was still light out. I got up and stretched, I was stiff as fuck and I just wanted to collapse again. My arms hurt so much. I then remembered the pain killers Dr. Shoft gave me; I grabbed them out of my bag and took one. I got some water from the tap and drank it down. I walked in circles around my room until it kicked it. Then I could think straight again. I couldn't feel my body very much. But I'd rather it be that way. I thought about what I did. Four cuts. I'd never done more than one a day. I was glad it was Friday. I could hide away and show my pain in my room. it hurt so much. Everything hurt. I was falling for Edward Cullen, and he would never like me back. I heard my mom come home, and then my dad. They both tried to get me to open my door. Both failing at their attempts. I didn't want to talk to anyone. I heard them talking downstairs.

"I'm worried.." my mom was saying.
"…. big girl… fine" I heard my dad whispering. And then they continued talking and then more attempts to get me to come out of my room, all to no avail. I wanted to laugh. They didn't even see that their only daughter was dying on the inside. If I were them id kick down the door and demand to know what's wrong. But my parents aren't like your normal parents. I got up and walked around my room. Two hours later I was still walking. I had music playing and was humming along. But I was bored. I needed to get out. Clear my head. It was surprisingly just overcast today and it was starting to get dark. So I grabbed my thick sweater, a blanket, my cell, and my IPOD. Then I climbed out the old window of my house and climbed onto the tree there. I climbed down carefully, not wanting to fall and hurt my arm any more. Then when I landed softly on the ground I took off jogging towards the edge of the forest before my parents saw me.

I quickly got into the thick underbrush and was hidden by the green. I breathed a sigh of relief. Serenity. I was alone. I was at peace. I was actually feeling okay. I walked a little father into the forest. Setting my blanket down on a wet rock, glad that I brought it. I turned on my IPOD and put the earphones in my ears. I was listening to a quiet peaceful some staring up at the tops of the trees. I liked to come out here when I needed alone time. I use to do this all the time. I hadn't in a while and I missed it. I loved living beside a forest because I didn't have to worry about nosy neighbors and I could escape from my house, just like this. I sat for hours listening to music and staring at the sky. I sat until it started to get dark. So I walked to the forest edge and waited. I would wait until it was dark to go back and climb the tree. I didn't want to risk getting caught. I'd have to do a lot of explaining to my parents. And I didn't have the time or patients for that. The sky quickly turned dark and I ran for the tree. I put everything in my pockets and folded the blanket over my shoulder. Making my way up the tree quickly into the warmth of my room. I quickly changed out of my cold clothes into something warm and comfy putting music on and turning on my laptop.

I couldn't live without music. It got me through everything. That's why I was so drawn to listen to Edward playing earlier. The music was just so beautiful, and those lyrics. Oh those lyrics. I couldn't help but wonder who there for. Probably some pretty girl from another country or whatnot. But he sang them with such brilliance and love and devotion. His voice was truly angelic. His fingers were magical. I could imagine him touching me… oh the pleasure. His fingers brushing along the piano with such accuracy and smoothness. That boy could probably do wonders with those fingers of his. I had myself panting at the image. Gawd get control of yourself Bella! I yelled at myself. My laptop powered up and I started opening my email. I hadn't checked it in forever. That reminded me I hadn't checked my phone yet today. So while my email was opening I grabbed my phone. I groaned. Again with the many messages. I read them all. Alice and Angela asking where I was today. And of course, more from Edward. What did he want with me? Couldn't he just leave me alone and make this all so much easier!

Hey Bella, just wanted to make sure your okay…-E

I understand if you don't want to answer me. But id really like to know if you're okay from today. Hows your arm feeling?-E

Bella? Maybe your asleep.. Im sorry for bugging you but im worried.-E

Fuck bella ! its been HOURS can you please just fucking answer me?-E

I laughed at the last one. So Edward had a temper. Who would have thought? I read them all over again. He was worried about me… I smiled and then stopped. He was just worried because he saw my fall, nothing more. I contemplated answering him back. Finally deciding I should because he did help me out today.

Hey, sorry, I fell asleep because of the pain killers. Then I wasn't looking at my phone. Sorry-B

I then started checking my emails and deleting ones I didn't want to read. I was on my computer for a good hour and a half then got off and went and sat in bed. The clock said 9:12 pm, but I was so tired. The pain killers were brutal. Then my phone vibrated, alerting me of a text. I grabbed it and read the text.

Oh, sorry I freaked. I was worried. I actually thought you were ignoring me… Well how are you ?-E

Im fine. A little sore. A little tired. How about you?-E

I replied to him quickly. Just wanting to hear what he had to say. He intrigued me like no other person ever did. He made me feel things I'd never felt before. He made me feel alive something Laurent never made me feel. I felt funny inside when his green eyes were piercing into mine… I felt safe. My phone vibrated so I picked it up to read the message.

Im fine… now that im talking to you. Ive been going crazy all day thinking about you—well worrying about you. Your arm. Its my fault. Im sorry-E

Noo! Its not your fault. Im the clumsy one. I shouldn't have even been eavesdropping. Beautiful song btw… I love music and I just couldn't help myself. It was soo beautifull… I just had to listen..-B

That's okay, its actually nice having the input. Having someone tell me if im good or not. I compose a lot. That was a new song though.-E

Well you are very talented. I wish you could have continued to play.-B

I can on monday if you want me too. Meet me in the music room at 7:30.-E

Will do. But im super tired. Ill see you Monday then…-B

See you Monday Bella. :) wait. Is it alright if I text you again tomorrow?-E

Sure. I'll try to answer when I can. Goodnight Edward-B

I re read through the whole conversation. I couldn't help but smile. I got to hear him play again. On Monday. And he wanted to text me tomorrow! Ugh. I felt like a little girl, all giggly and happy because a boy was talking to me. I had to get a hold of myself. I was stronger than this. I didn't need a guy in my life. Even though I wanted him to be in my life. I decided it was probably time to head to bed. I needed sleep. I felt so drained lately, and these pain killers made me want to pass out standing. So I went and got my pajamas on and got comfy in bed. I turned off my phone and lamp beside my bed, and fell asleep thinking of Edward Cullen. This was the first night I dreamt about Edward Cullen….

I woke up feeling better than I have in a long time. I stretched and smiled. I dreamt of Edward. One of the best dreams ever. I got up and went to the bathroom, washing my face and brushing my teeth to feel refreshed. I re bandaged up my arms because there was blood coming through. I didn't look at the cuts though. They disgusted me. But they made me feel better at the time. When that was done I put my wrist warmers back on. I went and sprawled out in bed again. I looked at the clock. It was only seven in the morning. I groaned out loud. I had to occupy myself in my room all day. I grabbed my phone and powered it up. Waiting for my messages to come in, but I only had one. From Edward…

Morning, hope I didn't wake you up. I couldn't sleep….-E

I laughed. He was so cute. The message came in at 6:30. I answered right away.

No, you didn't wake me. I turn my phone off at night. Just woke up a little while ago. Couldn't sleep either…-B

I got a response back almost instantly.

Im bored today. Do you wanna hang out? maybe go see a movie?-E

I almost screamed out loud. Like a date? With Edward Cullen!

Like as friends… you should get out of the house-E

I'd actually really like that. I doo need to get out of the house.. ive been kinda trapped here while I was sick..-B

I hated lying to him, but I couldn't tell him the truth. It just didn't work that way. He would be repulsed. He would never want to talk to me again. He would hate me. He would hate everything about me. I didn't want that. I spent the last week ignoring him, but I didn't want to anymore. We could be friends. Just because I couldn't let a guy into my life to love me, doesn't mean I couldn't have friends… that are really good looking. I really wanted him to be in my life. I felt better around him. He made me… almost normal. Not happy. But feel much better.

Good. Want me to pick you up?-E

Uhmm…. No. I'll drive. I don't want to be asked questions…-B

And there was the fact that I would have to sneak out. I couldn't just go out the front door without being stopped and I'd have even more questions to answer If a guy came to pick me up. My mom's just as bad as my dad except she wants to know because she likes butting in my life.

Okay. Meet me at the park in an hour and a half. See you there :)- E

See you there.- B

I quickly rushed around my room grabbing everything I needed. I hopped in the shower and scrubbed clean with my favorite shampoo. Watermelon scent. I smiled. Then hopped out and immediately started doing my hair. I wasn't going to get dressed up, like I was going on a date. We were just going as friends. But I wanted to still look good. I was going out with my sex god. Man that boy was hot. I had to look at least decent in order to be with him and not get looks. Wait. Did I say MY sex god? He wasn't mine! Why did I think that? Sometimes I puzzled myself. I finished getting ready in an hour. I had a half hour to get to the park. It was only a twenty minute drive. But I didn't want to be late. And I did have to sneak out. So I grabbed my money, shoved it in my pocket of my skinny jeans, and grabbed my phone. I took a painkiller then slowly and carefully climbed out my window. Car keys gripped in my teeth so I'd have them. When I touched the ground I ran to my car. It was still early in the morning. So my parents might be sitting in the living room. Hopefully they were. The kitchen had a plain sight to the driveway. The living room did not.

I quickly got in and started the car. Pulling out quickly. Even if they did hear me, I would be out of here. They were bound to see me come in earlier and question me. Unless I didn't go home tonight… I could call Alice or Angela, but I'd been ignoring them all week. They wouldn't want me over. I could sleep in my car though. My beautiful black mustang. This thing was a beast. It could put up with everything, and it wasn't the quietest cars in the world. So I can almost guarantee they heard me pull out. My dad would be leaving for work soon anyways. And not getting home till late, so I didn't have to worry about him if I did end up coming home. Just my nosey, overprotective mother. I started driving down the road; it felt good to be free. Not having to be at school, not being stuck in my room. I'd also get to spend the day with the sexy Edward. I got to the park pretty quickly. He was there. Waiting standing on the side of his silver Volvo. Looking like a god. He was sexy as hell. I really wanted to jump his bones right then.

I pulled up beside him and he opened the door for me. It took my breath away. He was a gentleman too. I got out and looked up at him through my eyelashes.
"Edward" I greeted.
"Bella" he said back. The way my name sounded so smooth off the tip of his tongue. The way he said it like I was important. My panties were wet instantly. I wonder if it was plain on my face how much I wanted him. If he could tell what he did to me. He gave me his lopsided grin, and I had a feeling he knew exactly that he did to me. We started walking towards the middle of the park. It was quiet. We didn't say anything and no one was up and about that this time in the morning. With the close proximity to him, it felt like electric shocks were traveling in between our hands that were almost brushing against each other.

"You look pale. Are you still sick?" he asked me, stopping to turn towards me. We parked at the front of the park, so it was a long walk. I stared up at him. I was speechless. I couldn't make words come out of my mouth. I couldn't do anything. He has a sparkle in his eye and he smiled a little smile.
"I really hope you don't slap me…" was all he said before he brought his lips down to mine quickly. I broke out of my trance instantly. Wrapping my arms around his neck tightly, gripping his hairs at the back of his neck, yanking slightly and moaning deep into his throat as he trusted his tongue deep inside my mouth. He took his lips off mine and started kissing down my neck, licking and nipping gently as he went down. My knees got all wobbly and I almost fell. Bringing me out of my dream.

Edward was standing in front of me. I was still by my car. He caught hold of me as I swayed.
"Are you okay? You look pale. Are you still sick?" he asked in his sweet velvety voice. It was all a fantasy. That mind blowing kiss. Didn't. happen. I wanted to scream.
"I'm fine" I said instead. Walking away abruptly. Hearing him walking behind me. my panties were soaked and I really wanted him to kiss me! I never really got what I wanted. He came up behind me grabbing my arm. I slinked back automatically. Worried about my arms. He put his hands up in an apologizing way.
"Sorry. I forgot that you hated when I touched you." He said. I wanted to groan aloud. That's not it silly boy. You drive me crazy when you touch me. Just not my arms. If only he knew…

EPOV

Gawd this girl was driving me INSANE! I knew she didn't think this was a date. We were going out as friends. But she drove me crazy. I liked her. A lot. Sure I was a badass. And in the past I never got into relationships. But this was different. Sure. At first I only talked to her because she was my lab partner. But then I started actually seeing the person she was. She looked upset. She looked depressed. And that dick Laurent didn't treat her right at all. And when they broke up, I knew I had to keep her from him. What, I know I'm supposed to not care, but I wanted her to be safe. I wanted her to be happy. I was protective of her. And now I realized why. I loved her. I loved Isabella Swan. All though I would never call her Isabella. She hated it. I heard from her friends. I had always known she was this pretty, guarded girl. The mystery kept me wanting to get in and find out everything about her. I guess in the process, I kind of fell for her.

So recently I started talking to her. And after that one day everything changed. She changed. She went from smiling at me one day. To a cold hard shell the next. She was in her depression state again. I could tell. And it was worse than when she was with Laurent. I hopped it wasn't my fault. And I had to find out. So I asked her out to hang with me today. I knew she was scared to be with me, scared of what was going to happen. And I was going to be calm and nice today. I wasn't even going to smoke; I didn't know if that was a turn on or turn off for her. I didn't want to lose her again. It hurt too much the last couple days not talking to her. Knowing that she was dying inside and I couldn't do anything about it. No. I didn't know for sure what she was feeling. But I was always perceptive. I always knew people. So I had a good guess about the girl Bella was.

I couldn't stop thinking about her. She was always on my mind. Like the song I wrote said. I'm crazy for her. I was falling hard and I didn't think I could stop, but she didn't even try to stop me from falling. She just ignored me. Even if I was dying. As she walked away from me today, I felt a little piece of me die. I knew I had to mend that piece by making her happy with me again. I ran and caught up to her. Making sure she was okay. She looked fine. She looked strong and sturdy. Like she could face anything. I wanted to make her mine. I wanted to kiss the fuck out of that face. I wanted to take her to the backseat of my car and fuck her senseless. She was so beautiful. With just the right curve of her hips and as she walked the way her ass swayed. She had the perfect lips and oh those eyes. They pierced into me every time our eyes met.

She stared at me breathless, with her mouth open a little bit as I stared deep into her eyes. I started leaning it. I wanted to kiss her. Oh I wanted to kiss her…

BPOV

He started leaning in to kiss me. I really wanted him to kiss me! But as I realized what he was doing, I snapped out of my daze and pulled back.
"I-I-I'm sorry" I stammered as I ducked under his arms, tears filling my eyes and stumbled towards my car.
"Bella..." he whispered. I turned around to see him with a strained look on his face. "I-I-I…"

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