Hey dudes!

Yes - I did delete the last chapter of this, but I didn't really like it and you can see it in my GG series of one-shots called 'Things Change' anyways.

This new chapter is equally depressing, although I hope you will enjoy it more than it's predecessor. I'm just gonna dedicate it to 'Forestmonster21stcentury' - for giving me the support and encouragement that has resulted in me publishing this after all. :P

It is inspired by the movie 'Never Let Me Go', my favorite ever. My favourite scene is the last - it is haunting yet so peaceful. If you have not yet had the pleasure of watching 'Never Let Me Go' then you really should, without delay - you won't regret it for a second.

You however, don't need to see the movie to understand this. It's just a post-break-up one-shot kinda inspired by it.

Anyway, I have rambled enough. So here goes:


Kat's POV:

(When I was writing this, I kind of thought of it as the last scene of a movie - I imagined Kat looking out of a window at the pouring rain, and what's written below as a voice-over.)

It is a week to the day that he left, and I can't help marking the anniversary with fresh tears and renewed thoughts of suicide. Forgive me; I speak so bluntly of such things, but truth be told, I see almost no point in living life without him. Hopefully these feelings will fade, but if they are as undying as my love for him, I doubt they shall, as unfortunate as this may be.

I feel now only an empty, aching sense of loss. This loss, it appears, can only be described fully by comparing it to the low chords of Beethovens Moonlight Sonata; grief-filled and lingering.

I have now lost all hope that he will return. Although I do often imagine the scene - how I would rush into his outstretched arms, how he would spin me around exactly twice, how he would look at me, face joyful and exultant, eyes alight with love. But these fantasies are just that - fantasies; dreams - and ones that will never come true at that, so I must refrain from indulging in them, hard as it may be.

So I must live my life from now on, not looking forwards, but backwards. Back to the time that he was still with me, back to the only two months in my life when I as truly happy, back to his embrace, his deep blue eyes; back.

I shall never marry - it seems love, even of the false kind, is an unbearable concept to me as of late. I shall only go through the motions of life, never feeling anything again; forevermore in a state of numbness, nothingness. This I do not mind - I had my two months of glory, of happiness, of love. Glory that will remain imprinted in my memory. Happiness that I will never feel again, but will remember indefinitely. Love that I will feel forever.

Forever.


Please review!

Thx.

XD

-Tess.