A/N: After I saw that I already have four alerts on this story I wrote a little something up for you all, Let me know what you think..


Chapter 2: Don't Tell


Harry rushed, getting dressed for work, he had slept in. Avoiding going to bed while your wife is awake and may be expecting sex, took its toll. She had tried to get a little something going when she had woken up, but with their daughter, Lily stirring in the kitchen, he was saved.

It wasn't that he couldn't find ways to enjoy their time together, when he was drunk enough, or when he really needed it, he made due. It was just that he and Ginny differed somewhat in sexual style.

That should have been my first sign that marriage was a bad idea. But after he had gotten her pregnant, and on their fourth time, what are the odds? He felt like he had too, everyone expected him to, and he wanted to be a part of the Weasley family, just maybe not in that way.

No turning back now, he muttered to himself sighing. He had definitely thought about it. But he hadn't ever loved any man other than Severus, so it seemed stupid to break up what he thought would eventually become love, just because he was in love with someone that was no longer there.

And it had become love, it always was love, in some ways, just not the love he wanted.


"Do you think we have soulmates?" Harry had asked Hermione a few months after his marriage to Ginny.

"I'm not sure," Hermione had replied, "I mean, I think there are people we are supposed to be with, so I guess so, in a way I believe in soulmates." She had smiled like she thought Harry was implying that Ginny was his soulmate.

"I just worry sometimes.." Harry muttered, and Hermione's smile fell slightly.

"Worry? About what? Are you and Ginny having problems?" It was hard to talk about with Hermione, who's marriage to Ron seemed pretty flawless, sans their typical playful bickering, but he didn't know who else to go to.

"I just worry sometimes that I don't love her enough… you know?" She didn't know, and he knew she didn't know, but she nodded anyway.

"It's just a rough patch," She had said patting his arm, "You love her Harry, otherwise you wouldn't have married her, you'll get through it."

"I think I might love someone else-" The words came out before he could stop them and Hermione's eyes widened and her eyebrows drew together.

"What do you mean, someone else? Harry, please don't tell me you're having an affair-"

"No, it's nothing like that," She visibly relaxed at these words, "He-he's dead-"

"He?"

"Yeah… I think I'm in love with a… man-"

She hadn't reacted the way he had expected her to. He had expected Hermione, who was a lawyer who protected those commonly discriminated against, to be understanding. He had thought she'd hug him and tell him that everything would be ok and that he had to follow his heart. But she hadn't.

"How could you do this to Ginny?" She was livid, "Harry, you dated her for two years before you married her, she's eight months pregnant with your son!"

"I didn't mean to- I didn't know until-"

"Harry Sirius died four years ago, two years before you even started seriously dating Ginny-" Harry was confused for a second before realizing that she had assumed it was Sirius. A part of him wanted to correct her, but her rage was so that he thought it better not to. "If you leave her now, not only are you going to ruin her, but you're also going to hurt your child."

She was right, and he knew it. Tears had welled up in his eyes at this point and Hermione's tone softened.

"I'm sorry," She started, "I just think maybe you're just confused, afraid of the commitment or something, you know? And he's not here anymore anyways.. You do love her, don't you?" He nodded, more out of obligation than any true emotion. "So it's just a phase…Right?" He nodded again and she turned serious again. "Maybe we shouldn't mention this to Ron, I think he'd be pretty angry if he thought you were screwing around with Ginny and then planning on leaving her.."

"Yeah, probably,"


And they hadn't told anyone. Not a single soul.


A/N Cont.: Yes? No? Maybe? should this continue?