Connor
All I could think about all day was seeing Jude. It had been so long since I had seen him. Two and a half months was a long time and I couldn't wait to hold him again. I looked out the window and thought about last time I had seen him. I had been staying with my dad. He had really come a long way in accepting me and Jude and who I was as a person. Moving in with my mom had been good for our relationship.
But it hadn't been good for mine and Jude's relationship. He had let me go because he loved me. Even though I knew he didn't really want me to go, he wanted me to be happy. The truth be told I wasn't happy. I hadn't been ever since I left. I never understood the saying the grass isn't always greener on the other side of the fence till I moved here.
My mom was great. She accepted me for who I was no questions asked. She loved Jude and said he was always welcome in our home. The thing was though, she was hardly ever here and I was alone a lot. We never spent any time together except the occasional dinner two or three times a week. Then this new boyfriend came along and I got less and less time. I liked him though don't get me wrong. He was also accepting of my relationship with Jude. He accepted it like I wanted my dad too, but I didn't think my dad would ever be in that place of complete acceptance. He always hoped this was a phase I would grow out of soon.
I glanced down at my phone. It was time to leave to go get Jude. As soon as the bell rang I headed to the parking lot and got in my car. I loved this car and the freedom it gave me almost as much as I loved Jude. The car had been a present from my sixteenth birthday. My parents had gone in together to buy it for me. As I pulled into the train station parking lot I got a little nervous.
I walked in and waited where I was supposed to wait. I had been here so much in the past three years either leaving on a train to San Diego or picking up Jude. I couldn't sit down. When I tried my leg bounced and I couldn't control it. I paced the lobby. I took my phone from my pocket and glanced at it for the hundredth time today. Where was Jude? His train should have been here ten minutes ago. Just as I thought that my phone buzzed in my hand.
Jude: I just got here. Where are you?
Connor: waiting impatiently for you
I spotted him before he saw me. God he looked good as he stood there searching for me. I felt my heart beat faster as I walked towards him. He still hadn't seen me yet. He turned around and I was right in front of him. He dropped his bag and pulled me into a big hug. I noticed he was now slightly taller than me. When did that happen? In the two and a half months since I'd seen him he had grown at least an inch or two. I was always taller than him and then at one point we were just about the same height.
"When did you get so short?" he joked.
"I am the one who has to put my head on your shoulder now if we dance," I said as we headed to my car hand in hand.
At my house we got out of the car and went inside. I noticed Grant's car was in the driveway, so I parked on the street just in case he needed to leave again. As Jude shut his door I walked around the car and grabbed his hand. He laced his fingers in mine as we walked up the driveway. I lived for these moments. When he was with me was the only real time I was happy. I wanted to move back to San Diego so bad. I just didn't have the nerve to admit I had made a mistake moving in with my mom.
"Hey boys," Grant said as we went into the kitchen. "It's good to finally see you again Jude."
"It's good to see you too Grant," Jude said.
I grabbed two sodas from the fridge and handed one to Jude. He said thank you and took it from my hand. I opened my soda and took a big drink. Jude sat down at the breakfast bar and did the same. Grant turned his back to set his plate in the sink and I couldn't wait any longer. I sat my soda down on the counter and went too said between Jude's legs. From his position on the stool he was just the right height. I kissed him and he kissed me back immediately. He put his hands under my shirt just above my pants. I couldn't help the moan that escaped my mouth as he touched me.
"Well, I am going back to work now," Grant said.
I turned to look at him. Jude's cheeks were bright red and he buried his head in my shoulder. I had forgotten he was here. I still expected him to freak out when he caught us kissing like my dad used too but he never did. He such smiled like it was the most natural thing in the world.
"Okay," I said.
"Your mom wants to have a family dinner since Jude is here. Do you guys want to go somewhere for dinner? Your choice," Grant asked.
"No I'll cook dinner. I got somethings at the store yesterday to make dinner for Jude anyway," I offered. "So you and mom are welcome to join us. When will you be home?"
"About seven," Grant answered.
"Okay I'll have it ready then," I said.
I took Jude's hand and led him up the stairs to my room. He followed me to my bed and we laid down together. I put my arm under his neck and pulled him close. He put his head on my shoulder and tangled his legs with mine. It felt so good to have him in my arms again. We just laid there like that for a long time and neither of us said a word. I kissed his forehead.
"Connor," Jude said.
"Yeah," I answered.
"I'm ready," he said without moving.
"Ready for what?" I asked.
"To have sex," Jude surprised me with his answer.
"Not today I just want to hold you right now," I said.
Inside I was screaming like a little school girl though. I had tried so hard during Spring break to get him to have sex with me. I want so bad to take our relationship to the next level but Jude always said no. my dad had always said when I was with anyone and they said no it meant no. We had come so close that night and he backed out at the last minute. Now he was ready and I was the one holding back. I was afraid if we had sex our relationship would be all about sex. I mean not that that was a bad thing. I wanted to be as close as possible with him. Now that I knew he was ready I hoped he didn't change his mind.
I wanted to kiss him again but when I looked down at him his eyes were closed. I smiled as he let out a soft little snore like he always did in his sleep. As much as I wanted to kiss him I was happy and content right now just to lay here with him in my arms.
