Author: Chelbell

Spoilers: The end of S6 and possible spoilers for S7

Summary: Xander Watches Anya from afar.

Rating: PG-13- let me know if I should change the rating.

Genre: Angst/Drama



1.1 Trying

"I watch you. I know it's wrong but, I can't help it. I love you. I try to move on but it's hard. So hard.

It's my fault.

I think of you. I want to think good things but for some reason, I keep coming up with the images of you and * him * on the table. The one that you're sitting at right now, reading that book.

I try so hard.

Maybe one day we'll reconcile. Or maybe you'll move on. You and I both know that you'll move on and walk down the street hand and hand with your new fiancé and trample over my heart.

I hope not. I hurts.

Maybe I'll move on first. I don't want it to be a competition though. Maybe I fall head over heels in love with a girl. Named Danielle, 5'8, hair like the forgotten slayer/nutcase, Faith. She'd be beautiful. But… I don't know if I would ever be happy without you.

I'm sorry…



TBC…