Thank you all very much for caring enough about me to say soemthing. I don't know why I was so deppressed last night, but I really coudn't see any other way. My mother found me passed out on the floor this morning, not from a suicide attempt, but from all the stress, worry, fear, and exhaustion I'd worked up. So I woke in the hospital, the doctors want to keep me for a few days. My cousin in law brought her son, my nephew, over to see me and cheer me up since she knows I don't like hospitals. He's 10 months, he doesn't usually let me hold him for more then ten minutes, but I held him for an hour and a half and he made me feel like I was worth something, like I was loved. I think he could feel the sadness vidrate off me, babys have a weird way of knowing when they're needed. I'm feeling much better, so you all can let the breath you've been holding in go. Thanks for letting me know that even if my freinds and family hadn't missed me, that you all would.
Thanks everyone. :)
~Amanda
