Thanks for all the wonderful reviews, the story came to me when watching a movie with this really cute three-year-old in it.

As it was my first story I forgot to put a disclaimer at the beginning of the first chapter. So here it is - I do not own any of the characters (except Lucy),

I will try and put up a new chapter every day as I like to write before going to sleep.

Also I hope this chapter makes things a bit more clearer, obviously Grissom has some secrets of his own but I felt a bit of back story would help it come along a bit.

Also sorry about the changes to the second chapter as I am having teathing problems with this website! As it will not allow page breaks??? So as you can see I made my own.

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Starring back at Grissom Sara nodded her head, "I think we could both use some strong coffee," watching him sit himself down on the sofa as he stared at a number of photos of Lucy, Sara walked into her kitchen and remembered back to nearly four years ago.

Things were going so well, after five years working together Grissom was finally talking to Sara and in a good way. Of course talking had lead to sex but they had their whole lives ahead of them as she believed at the time.

Walking into his apartment Sara walked through to the bedroom and flopped down - it had been a long day.

Working together and having a relationship was harder than she had imagined. Working on cases together all Sara wanted to do was jump him at any available opportunity.

Looking up as Grissom walked in the room she could see he was upset. Reaching out for his hands Grissom pulled away, "Gil whats wrong?" Shaking his head he sat down on the bed and began to speak, "I have to go, I can't tell you why".

Unable to grasp what he was saying Sara started feeling ill as she looked over and saw two suitcases packed.

"But but," was all she could manage.

Feeling like the floor was about to open up Sara used all of her power to keep from crying.

Still sitting down Grissom suddenly stood up and started talking again without looking Sara in the eye. "I'm leave tonight, I'll call you, I don't know when I'm coming back."

Still in shock to hear the love of her life announce his departure Sara could not handle it and she spat back at him. "Go, do whatever you want it's not like we have anything together is it."

Storming out of Grissom's town house Sara speed home and cried herself to sleep. Although he tried to call a number of times over the next six weeks Sara refused to talk to him or answer the many messages he left for her, she also refused to open the letters he had started to write to her.
After another few weeks Sara was going to force herself to call him until she heard from Ecklie that he was never coming back.

"What!", she shouted at the packed meeting.

Noticing Ecklie look at her Sara shut up and decided to listened to what he had to say.

Looking in Sara's general direction Ecklie continued, "As I was saying before Miss Sidle rudely interrupted me I received Mr Grissoms formal resignation a few days ago and although it will come as quite a shock to some of you," now looking directly at her she started sinking back in her chair as everyone looked at her.
Clearing his throat to gain the crime labs attention again Ecklie continued, "As you will now be aware we have a vacancy to be filled and I would like all applications from those interested on my desk in two days, any more questions, Ecklie asked before adding, "right now thats sorted back to work."

Crying herself to sleep every night Sara was beside herself, how could he do this to her - to them. Unsure what was going on Sara started to feel ill every morning before finishing her shift. Having felt numb since he had left she had not suspected anything until Catherine suggested she take a pregnancy test.
Her worst fears confirmed, Catherine guessed who the father after her strange behavior and her outburst at the meeting and suggested she ring the father to be.
Sara knew Grissom didn't want her or else he would never have left and ringing him out of the blue to tell him she was expecting his child would only cause pity, something she could not stand.

After deciding that to hide her pregnancy was something that would not be possible she came out and told her co-workers. Many were shocked at the news never thinking she was the mothering type while Greg and Nick felt it was both their responsibility to propose marriage.

Looking down at Nick, Sara muffled her laugh as she closed his hand around the ring. "Thanks Nick but getting married is not going to solve any problems,
only create them." Still feeling he had a chance Nick started again, "Sara I know you don't love me in that way but every kid needs a dad." Smiling as she stood up Sara hugged Nick and whispered in his ear, "thanks."

Although she thought Nicks proposal was sweet Sara just could'nt stop laughing as Greg walked up to her a few days latter and said, "Lets get hitched, although Sara was looking at Greg like he had been abducted by aliens he continued,
"just think about it in less than an hour you could be Mrs Greg Sanders." Patting him on the arm Sara gave Greg a hug and thanked him for his thoughtfulness but said she would probably be throwing up in an hour as it was about time for her morning sickness to kick in for the day.

Thankful no-one else tried to propose she was great full when Catherine offered to be her baby go to lady. Looking sceptically at Catherine she continued, "what ever you need call me no matter what time day or night." Hugging her new friend Sara was thankful as she had thousands of questions.

The logical choice for her birth coach Catherine was with Sara for the 28 hours she was in labor and was more than touched when Sara asked her to be Lucy Elizabeth Sidle's godmother.

Unsure what type of mother she would make Sara was struck by how quickly she fell in love when her daughter was placed in her arms for the first time.
Gazing into her daughters blue eyes she was suddenly hit with the realization that she would never loose Grissom as she would have a part of him forever.

Coming back to reality Sara poured out the two drinks and headed into her lounge.

After joining him on the sofa she looked up at Grissom and said, "where do I start."