"Wake up, Xanxus."
A hand was prodding me softly on the shoulder. I opened my eyes, and the boss of the Vongola Famiglia was standing above me... His tie and shirt were loose, untucked and unbuttoned, coat probably thrown on the floor some-where, but he stood as formally as if he were doing business; Even after every-thing, he was very cautious around me. I grabbed onto his slobb-y tie and pulled him down on top of me, and he made a girly noise and hid his face by smashing it against my solar plexus. It got pretty hot right there, as if he was blushing, and that's when I knew that the new title Sawada Tsunayoshi had gained that day hadn't changed him at all.
The days leading up to the inheritance ceremony had been pretty tense. We had been fuckering around a lot ever since he started staying at my house, and it was a little bit like a "wake-up call" when we got news from the HQ that they were ready to go through with it. At that point, I let some really hot feelings come back to me. I remembered why I hated that kid... All his crumby, unconditional love. The way he practically peed his pants when he first saw me, but still managed to kick my ass when we fought. Worst of all, the way the look on his face completely changed when he was fighting... The face that was dangerous and hopelessly innocent at the same time.
One day, I decided to do something really horrible. Tsunayoshi was still trying to adjust his sleeping schedule to fit with the Varia's habit of operating at night, and had fallen asleep next to me on the sofa just as the sun was rising. That little rat-like thing he keeps was sleeping on my lap, and after staring at Tsuna for a long time, I picked it up and headed for the bathroom. It wasn't afraid of me any-more, and just went back to sleep when I put it down. I filled up the sink with water to the point where it was nearly overflowing, then grabbed that thing and shoved it in. It took a second for it to realise that it didn't have anything to breathe any-more, but as soon as that happened, it started struggling right away. It must have been yelling for help or something, because the water was totally gurgling and bubbling; How useless it was on its own! I couldn't help imagining it as Tsuna... It wasn't hard, considering how weak and stupid-looking it was. It got me feeling pretty horny, and the water stopped bubbling and turned pink with blood when i wrapped my hands around its neck, making the thing dig its claws into my skin.
It was really weak... Disappointingly weak. I probably would have killed it out of pure contempt, if it weren't for the fact that it was so bright. What I mean by that is... Most things you put in the sink will make a shadow. Even if they are white, once the basin is full up, it's very dark inside. This thing... Its head was made out of inextinguishable sky flames, or something. While it thrashed and clawed at my hands beneath the surface of the water, the light from its mane reflected off the white basin and shined in my face like the sun that was rising at the same time right out the window. I lost interest. I felt sick to my stomach. My hands slowly opened, and the thing clawed its way up my arm in .05 seconds, like I was a goddamned tree. I fell to my knees and bent over into the bathtub and a sort of wretch-y thing wracked my body. I didn't puke or dry-heave or any-thing, but I kind of wish I did. I was feeling so sick. The thing I had just tried to drown 5 seconds ago was still on my shoulder and it started licking my face. Animals are so dumb, some-times... Or maybe they are just crazy. I dragged my body back to where Tsunayoshi was sleeping, leaving a pink trail from the water and blood that steadily dripped down my arms. The rat-thing shook itself off and jumped onto Tsuna's head. I laid down and wrapped my soggy arms around him. I didn't feel love, or any-thing... just emptiness.
The next night, I stayed in a strange, emotionless state. On the good side, I wasn't angry and wanting to drown things any-more, but the part that I guess was unfortunate was that I didn't want to do any-thing to or with any-one. The feeling was like a detached hatred. It was as if all the moments I spent with Tsunayoshi that made me realise why I didn't want to kill him any-more were all worthless, now. I looked at him, or any-one, and all I saw was filthy meat and blood and bones.
The thing that brought me back happened when I got home, and he was in his room watching some animation on tape. He had made, like, some kind of weird igloo thing out of the blanket, and he could barely keep his squinty eyes open. I sat down next to him on the bed and rested my head on top of his, and he looked up and kissed me right on the forehead. That killed me. Tsuna was more submissive than even the most submissive girl I ever met, and that was the first time he had done any-thing remotely like making the first move. I grabbed his chin before he could look back down and kissed him slowly. When I went to break it, he caught my tongue in his teeth and I realised I really didn't care if he became the tenth boss or not... Either way, if he pissed me off I could easily kill him, especially now that it was like this.
