I know i said it was going to be a OS, but the bunnies in my head decided that there was more to this story and so here i am, writing chapter number 2. This one was written while listening to "My dark side" glee's version too so if you want you can read while listenin too ;)
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I OWN NOTHIN, if i did glee would turn into BLEE.
"Uh... Rach, what do you think he meant with this?"
Kurt was flaring Blaine's letter in the air, worry marked his face while he was trying to get Rachel's attention. Of course the girl was too worried with her own problems, because she was lost in thought.
"Rach!"
She turned around and looked at Kurt as if she had never seen him before. "What did you just say?"
"I was telling you that Blaine sent me a letter talking about the night after the marriage fiasco"
"...And?"
Kurt let out a breathe, maybe he was being paranoid, because of course Blaine wouldn't do that to him. He just wouldn't and Kurt knew that... but the letter seemed pretty serious and he deserved at least some attention from his friend.
"and he says he's saying goodbye to me like, forever"
"Well he might aswell have finally found some self appreciation and step aside"
"what!? This-" he started, once again flaring the letter "has nothing to do with his ego, he's just being drammatic!"
"Kurt" Rachel finally stood up from the couch so that she was facing her best friend. She took both his hands into hers and winced a bit before talking, as if the words were about to hurt her "Blaine loves you"
"Yeah, I've known that for a while thank you very much" he deadpanned
"Just... listen" she started once again. When Kurt calmed down she continued "he loves you, and these past months he's been doing everything to get you back"
"But he cheated on me!" Kurt interrutped
"and he regretted it ever after!" she was starting to speak louder, which meant that she had a point to prove, Kurt knew her and so he started finally worrying. He felt his eyes watering while he listened to Rachel
"Kurt... he regretted it, and he tried everything so you would forgive him. Now it seems that you having sex with him and then asking to stay friends was what it took for him to crack, and then realize that you didn't want him anymore"
"Nobody said I didn't!"
That was it. Kurt felt the tears falling from his eyes; Blaine couldn't leave, he would never... he knew Kurt loved him, and it wasn't as if he hadn't said it when he came for christmas.
"Kurt, you used him"
"And he cheated!"
"So did I, with Finn, you know" Rachel continued "and it was a mistake, but thats just what it was. Even the best of us make 'em from time to time"
"But I needed time..."
"You had time, Kurt. Blaine waited, and I'm sorry to say that this time I think I get what he's saying"
"I can't lose him, Rach"
"I'm afraid that then you'll have to win him back"
Kurt looked at his friend and then back to the letter, still in his hand. He could picture Blaine writing it, he could even see him when he closed his eyes; those puppy dog eyes watering as he realized that he wasn't going to get Kurt back ("you never really lost me!"), the way he would put his hand over his mouth so that no sound would come out, the way he would sweat because of the effort of keeping his emotions hidden so that his parents wouldn't come asking what was wrong. And then what?
Kurt couldn't picture what Blaine would do after sending the letter.
"You think he's okay, Rach?"
"You could try calling, he could tell you himself"
He wouldn't answer his call. Blaine had promised to himself that the letter was for real and he knew that if he heard Kurt's voice he wouldn't be able to stop himself from crawling back.
So there he was, staring at his phone and grabbing his desktop so hard that his fingers were turning white; but he would not answer.
When the song he had chosen for Kurt's number stopped, he looked up to the ceiling and stood up again, he had things to pack and a party where he had to be in about half an hour.
He remembered the conversation he had had with Sam, remembered the way he exploded and told him that Kurt was the only reason why he had left Dalton; he thought it was worth it, he still did if not for the heartache he was feeling now, the sensation that he was never going to get over this -but he was a teenager, and this dramma was normal... at least that's what he wanted to believe, this had to be normal.
"Isn't it?" Blaine asked to himself, ignoring the tears that were falling from his eyes. Why had Kurt been calling the past hour? He wasn't supposed to call, because Blaine wouldn't be able not to answer, would he?
He let the air out of his lungs slowly and then continued packing. He had a lot to do before leaving to Sam's goodbye party.
"He won't answer, Rachel!" He was freaking out, and he didn't even care that Brody was now openly staring at him from across the room, silently asking Rachel what was going on. Instead of explaining, she just grabbed Kurt by the shoulders and made him look at her directly to the eyes.
"Kurt, just... shut up, damn it!"
The swearing had worked, Kurt had been effectively silenced "Now, calm down" she started again, calmer herself "and think what you're going to do next, okay?"
"Die?"
"No, let's stop this pity party and find a way to solve this, I mean, it's just a letter, it doesn't mean that he's never going to see you or talk to you again"
"Rachel" Kurt answered "As a matter of fact, that's exactly what he wrote; you don't understand! it was part of our code: I said to him I was never saying goodbye as a way of telling him that we were end game... him saying this, he might aswell say that we're never seeing each other again and it would be the same"
"It's not my place, but if you ask me... he seems to be trying to work his life out, and since you moved on, Kurt, the fact that he would eventually do too never crossed your mind?"
The silence that followed Brody's words was almost tangible.
Blaine knew rumours were quickly spreading among New Directions, he even got a call from some of the warblers -how did they get the news was absolutely unknown to him, but irrelevant too. They must think he's a coward, always running from place to place when things get ugly; maybe he was. Or maybe it had something to do with the fact that since Kurt was the only real reason for him to transfer to McKinley, the reasonable thing to do is grab the little pieces of life he could and reorganise things. Staying there would be torture, everything remembered him of Kurt Hummel. Even his own house, his own bed!
So his father's offer wasn't hard to accept. He'd just wait the next week and then leave.
"Kurt, what are you doing? stop typing so hard, hey! you're going to break that thing!"
"I'm buying plane tickets, Rach"
"What?!"
"In a few hours I'll be back in Lima, you can come too if you want"
"Oh my god, Kurt are you crazy?!"
"I think I've been acting like a crazy person these months, I guess I'm just sane now... or getting there at least"
Rachel smiled and crossed her arms, resting her body next to the door that led to her room "ok, I guess I've got a bag to pack"
I hope you like this, I'll be updating soon (: once again thank you for reviewing and following/favoriting
starstrukkxxx So here it is, Kurt's reaction to the letter, i hope you liked it and well i guess you'll see more of it when i update next time, thx for reviewing! you were the first one who did! :D:D
StoryDreamer urwelcome! yea youre not the only one... i think blaine's characters been destroyed i mean, he turned into this sad little thing that cries around for kurt like always and i think he deserves better, blainers the best person ever and he made a mistake, rachel said it herself, thats just what it was! (well and tina said it too, i think i had never loved her more) i hope you liked the second chapter!
Blackness I'm glad you liked the first chapter, well it was rough written because i guess a letter like that would be really emotional and even a bit senseless cause basically Blaine's vomiting his mind out and well.. i guess thats how i imagine it would be hahah but im glad you liked it, i think itsbeen enough of blaming blaine and hatin on him because hes not the only one to blame, tbh i think kurts been the worst of em both, so i hope you like this second part (: ill update again soon
