"We need to talk."
Now that was never something that someone really wanted to hear, but nonetheless, Saga had to accept it. His boyfriend had been nervous for the past few days- maybe this would help?
"Ok tomorrow after school?"
"ok senpai goodnight i love you :)"
Even with the cloud now hanging over the teen, Saga couldn't help the warmth that spread through him, or the smile that worked its way onto his face.
"I love you too. Goodnight."
Tossing his phone aside, the teen allowed for the warm feeling to settle inside of him, a sigh filling the otherwise quiet room.
It had been a month since that in time Ritsu's room, and thank goodness that event had taken place. Having the boy in his life again, and at such a closer intimacy, filled him with a happiness he hadn't felt since he was a naïve child, ignorant of the problems in the world. It helped that Saga learned where the flaw had been in their relationship- improper communication between the two.
No matter what, Masamune would listen to Ritsu's problem- any problem- and take it seriously. It was clear they both had their different troubles, and with that, Masamune would do whatever he could to support his love.
The teen was brought out of his thoughts as the voices of his parents boomed. Somehow, Masamune felt as things between them got worse, even if that hardly seemed possible to begin with.
A sick feeling of anxiety coiled within his guy, feeling as though something… big and bad was waiting just around the corner to take everything away.
Was he prepared for the worst? It felt like it was more than prepared for him.
Perhaps Sorata sensed his distress, licking his hand before curling up beside him, emitting a low purr.
Eventually, he fell asleep, though it was far from peaceful.
Hopefully, tomorrow would provide him with relief.
"I… have a fiancé."
Like an anchor, his stomach just dropped as his eyes widened. The words were just caught in his throat as he stared at his boyfriend who was fidgeting and probably having an internal meltdown. When he didn't say anything- How could he?- Ritsu began to wring his hands together furiously, looking away.
"I- I've already said "no"… this actually came up a while ago… but I already told mother no… She…" A frustrated sigh and his brows furrowed. "Mother won't let it go, and I tell An-chan that I only see her as a friend and she says she gets that but- she won't just say no. Mother won't accept it from just me and father doesn't say anything- I don't even know what he wants." A shaky, breath escaped his lips as he furiously scrubbed his eyes.
Masamune's eyes finally refocused on the boy before him, shaking, hands in a constant state of motion. Blinking away tears that kept threatening to spill, just looking miserable and frustrated overall. As much as the older wanted to comfort Ritsu he just… couldn't. The words were missing, a lump in his throat.
A fiancé? An arranged marriage, to his childhood friend?
How…
Was he supposed to compete with that?
"You're not."
Oh- had he actually said that out loud?
Masamune couldn't dwell on it, not for long. Those nervous hands, getting clammy with sweat, reached for his own, emerald eyes pulling him into the endless warmth that was his love.
"M-Masamune." That voice still wavered, especially when saying his name, but those hands only tightened as if proving his determination and love. "You are the one I love. Not An-chan. No matter how hard anyone, my mother included, pushes, I won't stop loving you. I won't leave you for her." Those eyes became big and earnest, pools of everlasting love. "I won't leave you."
It was those statements that came out of Ritsu's mouth that always put a lump in Masamune's throat- how could he respond to those things? What on earth did he do to deserve this person in his life? If he couldn't answer in words, then who could blame him for pulling the shorter male into his arms and kissing him without restraint. "Don't leave me." He whispered between kisses. "I won't let you go."
Breath hitching- partly out of surprise at that and partly because it made him feel loved- Ritsu could only nod and return the physical affections.
For the first time ever, Masamune had something in his life that was good- great, even. He didn't know what on earth he did to deserve it, but now that he had Onodera Ritsu, he certainly wasn't going to let him go.
Said boy melted into his tight embrace, eyes soft, sad, and hopeful.
"…I guess telling your parents the truth it out of the question?" Saga sighed quietly. His own parents- who cared? They'd be out of his life in less than a year anyways. Ritsu's?
"I have no idea… they've never brought up their own views on the matter but…" If possible, he pushed himself even further into his boyfriend. "But- if they don't accept it…"
"Things could get bad, really quickly." Again sighing, Masamune finally pulled away, pressing their foreheads together, their eyes locked. He didn't want to risk it, not until he could take care of Ritsu himself if worse came to and he was disowned. He saw the guilt in those emerald eyes and kissed Ritsu's forehead lightly- he didn't blame him for wanting to keep his homosexual relationship a secret. He would be worried too if it actually mattered with his parents.
At the same time, however, he didn't want to sit back in the shadows and watch as Ritsu was handed off to anyone else- especially not a childhood friend-
…
"Could you tell her- your fiancé?
"An-chan?!" Ritsu seemed shocked- now he knew her more- childhood friends- but Saga pressed on, urging the matter.
"If you told her, would she understand? Would she be helpful in the matter?"
Biting his lower lip, Ritsu turned his head in thought. If he just jumped right in and told her, she'd probably feel hurt. She did confess to loving him, after all. What if she ended up ratting him out to his parents, just so she could win him?
No! Ritsu shook his head quickly. An-chan was not like that in the slightest! He had more faith in her than that.
Yes.
He had faith in her as his friend.
"We… we should tell her."
It would help both of them to have someone else in their corner, and neither of them had a lot of people to go to… plus, well, maybe this would make things less awkward between them and they could go back to being friends?
He didn't like this awkward silence or forced conversation between them.
Ritsu was brought out of his thoughts by the reassuring and soft smile sent to him by Masamune.
"I love you, Ritsu. Thank you." For considering it, for doing it, even though we both know you're terrified.
Blushing like mad, the green eyed boy stumbled and stuttered, looking for the words but never finding them as he instead was kissed, silenced.
Pulling back, he offered a hesitant and shy glare, causing Masamune's heart to flutter. The more he was offered these sides of his boyfriend, the more he knew that the other was growing comfortable with him and trusting him.
"I… I love you too, Masamune."
"You know what? We can worry about everything else tomorrow, I'm tired of it for today." Masamune hummed, smiling and pressing kisses on the other. "Right now, it's just us."
"Mm… y-yeah." Ritsu mumbled quietly, looking down, as if thinking. Hesitantly, he wrapped his arms around Masamune's shoulders and leaned in for a kiss, pressing their lips together.
"Hm- taking the initiative are we?" His words were quiet, teasing, said around their kiss.
Again, Ritsu blushed a furious red, as though a secret plan had been realize. With that, he attempted, quite horribly, to come up with some extremely unnecessary explanation- so Masamune did the only reasonable thing one could do in that situation.
He kissed him, deeply and passionately.
Hm.
If only these simple times together would last forever.
Be glad. I originally wasn't going to add anymore to this.
BUt I'm tired and it's 11pm on a school night and since after this year I probably won't have time for writing and stuff- well, might as well get it done while I can still enjoy it, right?
Sorry for any mistakes, but I can't wait to have this conversation with An. :')
