Author's Note: Thanking for those who had read and reviewed to tell me to continue. Also I would like to thank someone who had reviewed although he/she had criticized my work.

Tero-Fan:

Thanks for the criticized, but I got to tell you that with my busy schedule I can't really have a time to write and had someone beta my work and so far with so many stories I had written, you are the first one who had problem reading my story. But thanks anyway for reading.

As for you thinking that this story might be Miyagi and Hiroki, I think I would post my story under the right category, if this would be Miyagi and Hiroki I would have post this story under both their names but I didn't instead I post it under Miyagi and Shinobu because they are the main pairing.

As for Miyagi saying "I'll try loving you" or whatever else you had written, it my story and the "I'll try loving you" part is important to my story.

Thanks for reading but please don't give me an ultimatum that you'll read my story if I follow what you want, although I know you meant well it's just that I can't accommodate you since I got a lot on my plate.

NOTE:

Shinobu is studying in NYU, New York.

WARNING:

For the first few chapters, there would be NowakiXShinobu lovey-dovey scenes.

Lots of Flashback

And characters are OC as well. Since I want to emphasis on the difference between having Miyagi as a lover and having Nowaki as a lover, beside this is crucial o the story.

~oOo~

RECAP:

2 hours later…

Takatsuki Shinobu stood beside the bed fully dress watching his soon-to-be-ex-lover sleeping on the bed, he wanted to reach out to the man on the bed but was afraid that if he do then he might lose his resolved that had taken him a long time to build. He wanted to kiss Miyagi and just hold him in his arms pretending that everything about their relationship is okay, but sadly he can't for he decided that being in a one-sided relationship would be bad for both him and Miyagi in the long run. And that is why he was doing this, leaving Miyagi for good.

"I love you Miyagi, but I just don't think I want to try loving you, Shinobu is enough for me anymore." Shinobu whispered close to Miyagi's ear and with just a flying kiss towards the laying man. Shinobu left Miyagi's apartment with all his belonging leaving behind nothing that would have indicated that he had live their once for 2 years. All he had left behind is his heart and a piece of letter asking for Miyagi not to contact him or even find him.

'As if he would try to contact me or even find me.' Shinobu thought looking back at the house he had live, it would never be home because home is supposed to be where the love is.

~oOo~

Chapter 2: 6 Years Later

6 years later, New York.

"Shinobu, have you finish packing already?" Kusama Nowaki asked as he entered their shared bedroom.

"Just some more clothes then I'm finish." Shinobu said looking up from folding his clothes and putting it in inside his suitcase. "How about you?" Shinobu asked looking at his lover who took one of Shinobu's unfolded shirt and started folding it before putting it inside Shinobu's suitcase.

"I finish this morning, and I already pack our books and other stuff for when the shipment company come and pick them up." Nowaki answered not stopping from what his doing.

"Thanks for doing my share." Shinobu said leaning forward to give a quick kiss on Nowaki's lips.

The peck Shinobu gave Nowaki turned into a full blown make out session when Nowaki decided to pull Shinobu towards him making Shinobu sit on his lap with both arms wrap around Nowaki's neck, while Nowaki's arms are wrap around Shinobu's waist.

Nowaki broke their kiss and started to nip and lick Shinobu's neck, making Shinobu moaned with pleasure.

"God, I can't get enough of you." Nowaki said as he kiss Shinobu slipping his tongue inside of Shinobu's mouth while gently laying Shinobu down their bed.

Nowaki slowly undress Shinobu while kissing the flesh that was being expose, all Shinobu could do is moan in pure pleasure. As Shinobu moaned again as he feel the pleasure being given to him by Nowaki, he couldn't help but think how Nowaki was different from his former lover Miyagi, where Nowaki's love making is gentle, full of love and pleasure for both party, Miyagi is more on the rough side and pleasure to himself.

'Shinobu stop thinking of that old man again, his someone who deserve all your thinking time.' Shinobu's told himself and as Nowaki entered him all thought concerning said old man vanish leaving behind a wanton Shinobu pleading Nowaki for more, harder and deeper thrust, which said lover delivered still with the gentleness that said Nowaki.

Shinobu didn't know how or when Nowaki had gotten rid of his clothes or prepared him but as he and Nowaki made love for the 3rd time that day, Shinobu couldn't help but think back on how he and Nowaki had met 6 years ago.

~oOo~

(FLASHBACK 1)

2 MONTHS UPON ARRIVING IN NYU…

Shinobu sat on one of the campus bench head bent crying as he remember Miyagi, and how part of him is regretting leaving the man. When he left Miyagi he was so sure that he couldn't live in a life full of one-sided love and wishful thinking, but now that he was finally free from all those, part of him had started regretting. But then again, maybe the reason why he was crying is because he heard from his sister Risako last night that his ex-lover Miyagi was seen dating a woman, that only shows that Miyagi isn't even affected with his sudden departure, Shinobu knew that he shouldn't be crying or hurt because he had already expected that, but expecting and it truly happening are two different things and no matter how hard he prepare himself for that, let's just say there's no preparation that could stop what his feeling right now. And as Shinobu sat on the bench, he did the only thing he knew that could help him get rid of his feelings, he cried while wrapping his arms around him, not very concerned about his surrounding since school starts 2 weeks and the campus is basically deserted except from a handful of student that went to the dorms early like him.

Nowaki walked out of the medical building and towards the dormitory, as he pass by he heard someone sobbing, and somehow he could tell that the person sobbing was in great pain, so instead of heading towards the dormitory he decided to follow the sobbing sound and found a young man crying his eyes out while trying to comfort oneself. Nowaki stood there for a second before he decided that whoever this person is needed someone to cry on, so he walk in front of the sobbing man and handed him his clean handkerchief making the crying man look up at him.

"Why don't you use this to dry your tears." Nowaki said and when said man didn't reponsed, Nowakii gently unwrap the man's arms that he was using to bring comfort to himself and gently put his handkerchief on the crying man's hand.

"Thanks." Shinobu said when his brain had finally worked again while he slowly dried his tears with the handkerchief. When his face was dry Shinobu was about to thank the stranger but he choke on his words and tears started to fall again and he seems like he couldn't stop crying.

"It's okay, whatever it is, it's going to be okay, I know we don't know each other but I'm willing to lend you a listening ear if you needed." Nowaki said wrapping his arms around the crying man without even thinking what people would think about the both of them if they got seen by other people.

"I don't know why I'm crying, I shouldn't be crying since I've expected that it would happen but I just can't stop the pain, I love him so much and to learn that he really wasn't able to love me for all the 2 years we'd been together hurts so much. Was it hard to asked him to love me back, I gave everything to him, love him so much, but still in the end, it was still not enough for him to love me back." Shinobu said, he didn't know why he was saying it to a total stranger but he felt warm, safe and love when the stranger hug him 3 things that he wanted to feel when Miyagi hug him but sadly wasn't there.

Nowaki didn't know what to say, he wondered if it was okay to tell the crying man that he made a mistake of loving whoever it is that he loves so much that he left nothing to himself. Instead he cradled the crying man until said man calm down and finally both where able to talk properly with each other.

"Thank you for listening to me and comforting me even though we're both a stranger to each other, I'm Takatsuki Shinobu from Japan." Shinobu introduce himself while holding his hand out for a handshake.

"Kusama Nowaki, I'm a student here, I study medicine to become a doctor and I'm also from japan." Nowaki introduce himself in return while shaking the hand that was offered to him.

"It's nice meeting you Nowaki." Shinobu said breaking the hand shake.

"You too Shinobu, and if you want I would like to be your friend."

"I like that very much."

~oOo~

(FLASHBACK 2)

3 YEARS LATER UPON ARRIVING IN NYU…

Shinobu woke up in his bed with a ranging hangover. He blink his eyes open for a coupke of times trying to get the sleep out of his eyes, when he finally get the sleep off, he realize that he wasn't in his bed or in his dormitory, he also realized that he was naked and that someone's arms are wrap around his waist. Just what the fuck happened last night, all he can remember is Nowaki asking him to go to one of his friends party and drinking a lot of juice which he now realize must be lace with alcohol.

Shinobu tried to moved away from the arms that was wrap around his waist so that he could turn around and see who was the person spooning him from behind, although he had a sinking suspicion he already knew the person due to said person's distinctive cologne. As Shinobu moves he can't help but cried out from pain, his lower back especially around his butt area are burning in pain. His outburst had woken the person behind him.

"Shinobu, are you okay?" Nowaki said as he woke up and realized their situation.

"Yeah, I… we… uhm…" Shinobu said looking for the right words to explain to Nowaki what had happen just in case he didn't know.

"Don't worry Shinobu, I know what had happened." Nowaki said trying to calm Shinobu who he can see is starting to panic.

Shinobu suddenly got off the bed without even giving another thought about his burning back all he can think of is the memory of him and Miyagi having sex which started to flash in his mind. He began panicking pacing back and forth trying to rid the images, not wanting to remember any of it, at the same time forgetting about his naked state.

Nowaki watch Shinobu of a couple of minutes before he decided he needed to calm Shinobu and find out why he was panicking. While at the same time thinking Shinobu might be panicking because the two of them just had sex.

"Shinobu, stop, talk to me, I'm listening." Nowaki said as he stood in front of Shinobu in his birthday suit.

"I just, I… I don't want this." Shinobu said looking up at Nowaki.

"Us having sex?" Nowaki asked a little hurt since for the past years he had started to develop feelings towards Shinobu.

"No, I mean, this me, I don't like it, this me that is currently remembering everything between me and that person." Shinobu said as he look Nowaki in the eyes and Nowaki could see the pain and grief dancing on Shinobu's eyes. "I want to forget everything about him." Shinobu said as tears started to form, but before it could fall, Shinobu was shock when he felt arms wrap around his waist and his lips being sealed with a kiss by Nowaki himself. "Nowaki?" Shinobu murmured looking at Nowaki with questioning eyes instead of the tear filled one just moment ago.

"I love you Shinobu, and I want to go out with you at the same time help you forget that person. I just need to you give me a chance to do it. Just say yes and I promise that I'll take care of you and love you." Nowaki said not breaking eye contact.

Shinobu look back at Nowaki's eyes trying to see any sign of a lie but he saw nothing but truthfulness. A part of him was stopping him from agreeing since the situation is a lot like his situation before with that person. However a part of him is insisting that this was the right thing to do, to accept Nowaki and to open his heart to love again, and in the end he had listen to the later part of his rationality and said, "I want to forget him and I know that he had said the same thing when he had stop me in the airport back then but I know that I'm different from him and I know that I'll be able to learn to love you because, honestly, you're not that hard to love in the first place." And with that Shinobu kiss Nowaki while wrapping his arms around Nowaki's neck. Nowaki tightened his hold around Shinobu's waist and both kiss passionately.

~oOo~

(FLASHBACK 3)

3 YEARS LATER AFTER FLASHBACK 2…

It was Shinobu and Nowaki's anniversary and both of them just came home from their dinner date and was now standing on their shared bedroom (They decided to moved together a week before).

"Nowaki, I love you." Shinobu whispered freezing Nowaki stiff.

"Did I heard you right?" Nowaki asked after a few minutes of silence wishing that he had heard right, that Shinobu had said he love him. Shinobu never tell him he love him, he never reply when Nowaki say he loves Shinobu, according to Shinobu the time he say the word means the day that he had truly move on and is finally in love with Nowaki.

"I'm sorry that it took me so long to say it but I love you Nowaki, so, so much." Shinobu said as he kissed Nowaki who seems like was frozen in happiness. "Make love to me Nowaki." Shinobu whispered as he resumed kissing Nowaki and wrapping his arms around Nowaki's neck.

Nowaki who had snap from his frozen state kiss back, he lifted Shinobu off the floor and laid him on top of their bed. This would be the first time they had sex, after their drunken sex all those years ago, both never did it again, Nowaki said that he would only make love to Shinobu when said person returns his feelings.

For Shinobu everything seems like a blur, one minute they were kissing and touching each other, the next he was naked and Nowaki was on top of him in the same state. He moaned as he felt Nowaki pump his erection and he cried out once he felt Nowaki tongue had lick his erection from bottom to top and started sucking on his mushroom head while at the same time playing with his slit.

"Nowaki!" Shinobu cried out as he burrow his right hand on Nowaki's hair while his left grip the sheets so hard that his knuckles turn pale.

Nowaki continued his suction waiting for Shinobu to be near the edge of his orgasm before stopping and waiting for Shinobu to calm down and doing it again. He did it for a couple of times, driving Shinobu crazy and begging for Nowaki to stop his teasing and make love to him in which Nowaki complied. Nowaki didn't stop pumping Shinobu but instead of licking Shinobu, Nowaki raise Shinobu's lower body so that Shinobu's buttocks is align with Nowaki's face and from their Nowaki unceremoniously spread Shinobu's buttocks with one hand and thrust his tongue in Shinobu's hole as far as it could go.

"Kyaaa!!!!" Shinobu moaned out as his orgasm hit him. "Sorry." Shinobu whispered as he tried to get some air to his lungs.

"It's okay, tonight is for you love. However I must ask do you want to continue?" Nowaki said watching a breathless Shinobu at the same time well aware of the fact that his hard shaft twitches from excitement.

"I want you Nowaki, now, so no more teasing." Shinobu said as he wrap his arms around Nowaki's neck bringing Nowaki towards him and kissing him on the lips.

Nowaki kiss Shinobu back while he blindly reach out to the night stand next to their bed and search for the hand lotion he knew Shinobu kept there for dryness of skin during winter. Once he felt the familiar tube, he opened the cap and squeezes an ample amount in his fingers, once his fingers were coated, Nowaki slid one of his finger inside Shinobu making Shinobu moaned and as Nowaki moves his finger in and out of Shinobu making Shinobu get used to that feel he started adding another finger then another until 3 of his finger is moving smoothly in and out of Shinobu while Shinobu was moaning for more. Once Nowaki was sure that Shinobu was well prepared, he squeeze some more lotion in his hand and began coating his erection with it, after his erection is well coated, he took his fingers out of Shinobu and slowly entered Shinobu who on the other hand had tightened his hold around Nowaki's neck while at the same time moaning from the feeling of being stretch and being full.

"Moved." Shinobu murmured when Nowaki had stop and let him adjust to his size.

"I love you Shinobu." Nowaki said as he unwrap Shinobu's hand around his neck and interlace both their hand above Shinobu's head and slowly started to thrust in and out of Shinobu's tight hole.

"More." Shinobu moaned out which Nowaki did, thrust deeper and harder inside Shinobu but still keeping the slow pace. With each thrust, Nowaki hit Shinobu's prostate straight on. Making Shinobu moaned while his hole tightens around Nowaki's shaft with each hit. Before both knew it Shinobu came with a load cry while bringing Nowaki with him.

"I love you Nowaki." Shinobu panted out as he looks at the man on top of him.

"Love you to love." Nowaki said kissing Shinobu before pulling out and lying beside Shinobu.

"Love?" Shinobu asked lying on the side facing Nowaki.

"Yup, I decided that, that's what I'm going to call you." Nowaki said as he gathered Shinobu against him.

"I like that, love." Shinobu replied planting a quick kiss on Nowaki's lips before lying his head on Nowaki's chest and drifted off to sleep. Nowaki smiled at those word before giving Shinobu a quick kiss on the forehead and drifted off to sleep as well.

~oOo~

PRESENT DAY…

Nowaki and Shinobu lay on their bed exhausted after the bout of sex. Both decided to continue on packing later once they had their dinner. As they laid there in the bed in each other arms Nowaki broke the silence with his question.

"Are you excited to go home love?" Nowaki asked waiting for his lovers answer with didn't take so long.

"Of course I'm excited; it's been 6 years since I last saw them." Shinobu said and Nowaki could hear the excitement on his voice. For the last 6 years that Shinobu went to America, not once did he visit his parents in Japan and due to their busy schedule, his parents wasn't able to visit him in the states either, their only means of communication was the occasional e-mails and phone calls. "Also, I'm excited since, I'm now going to help my dad run the school, which he always wanted and for the fact that you are going to be working as a fully fledge pediatrician in Japan's top hospital. Which by the way, I'm very proud of you for being invited to join their staff there. And last but not the least I'm excited to finally introduce you to them personally, they saw your picture when I send it to them and I did talk about you to them but you and my parents meeting personally are different." Shinobu added as he remember his phone call 4 years ago when he had told his whole family that he was gay, they were shock by his revelation but it didn't last long, his family had accepted who he was and he was thankful for that, Not only did they accepted his orientation but his parents was worried for him, afraid the he might not be able to find a man who would love him, that matter was settled when he told his parents that Nowaki and how they were dating. His parents had asked him questions about Nowaki and in the end of their phone conversation, one thing was clear his parents is happy for him and is very eager to meet Nowaki, who his mother said would be her future son-in-law.

"I'm excited to meet your parents as well love." Nowaki said as he tightened his hold on Shinobu, "I wanted them to know how much I love you." Nowaki said kissing Shinobu's forehead.

"I love you too." Shinobu said giving a quick kiss on Nowaki's bare chest.

"Good, now close your eyes and rest for an hour, then I'll take you out for dinner before we resume packing. The day after tomorrow would be a big day." Nowaki said and both went to sleep for an hour.

~oOo~

Wow. It had taken me a long time to update. I'm sorry about that, it's just that with the entire interview I'm going through to find a job, I was lucky to be able to write story still. Anyway I'll try updating soon but not promising. Hopefully you guys would still be there. As always thanks for the review on the first chapter and please review again in this chapter and tell me what you guys think.