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Chapter 2

The next morning I woke up in my own bed. I yarned and stretched before placing my feet to the floor. My mind felt odd and foggy and something

told me not to think to much about it. I wasn't hungry but I ate anyway feeling a little better afterwards. No one talked to me, not Billy, not Dad,

and surprisingly not Mom. I figured they thought I might want some space, and they thought right. I made my way to my room again - even

though it was Monday I was aloud to stay home. But only just this once and I was grateful. My mind was all over the place that I don't think I

would be able to concentrate - not that I always did - but now I had an excuse.

I sat on my bed and tried reading a book to keep my mind from wondering in the wrong direction. I settled for reading Interview with a vampire

even though I've read it over a thousand times. I didn't care though I need anything to keep my mind from thinking too much.

At around three my plans failed terribly. Becky was here. She knocked on my door and I let her in thinking it was my mom. The first thing she did

was huge me. I hugged her back.

" Raven did he leave?" She asked it lightly almost as if she wouldn't care if I didn't hear her, but I did. Thinking of him brought tears to my eyes.

She noticed and hugged me even tighter. The tears came faster now and I didn't care. "Don't worry. He'll come back. I just know he will." I

disagree. He looked serious and determined to leave town and all I could think about was that I was the cause of it. I know he's gone. But the

thought off it only made the hole in my heart bigger and the pain in my chest unbearable. Becky kept reassuring me but when she saw the

expression on my face, she didn't know what to think anymore. But she still kept on insisting it.

"That's why you were at the hospital." It wasn't a question. I couldn't tell her about hearing his voice, she'd think I was crazy or making it up, so

not knowing what to say I just nodded. I was desperate to change the subject so I asked about Matt.

"He came down with the cold and didn't come to school today, but I called him to see if he's okay. He said he'll feel better for the Halloween dance

this Friday." she was smiling now at the thought. I couldn't help but think how cute her and Matt looked together. I was happy for her. But I

quickly made my thoughts think about something else. I wasn't in such great shape to think about romance.

Becky left an hour later and I tried to go back to reading. My thoughts would wonder now and then but I couldn't think about him and I wasn't

going to let myself anyway. The pain was just to much, but I was the stupid one that thought that anyone could love me. I'm weird, that's what

everyone in this town thinks of me how could I let myself think that someone had a different thought of me. Everyone in this whole town only see

nothing but a freak in me.

I began to cry again, my hands shook and my vision blurred with tears. Out of just pure sadness and anger I throw the book across the room.

How could I be so stupid! No wonder why Alexander didn't want me anymore! I laid my head on the pillow and cried myself to sleep.

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The next morning I woke to Billy boy banging on my door.

"Your gonna be late for school." I groaned and got out of bed. My head was pounding in pain I felt the room spin. I wanted to curse out the world,

today's going to suck.

Becky picked me up at the usual time and the whole ride through I listened to her talk about what she was planning on wearing for the Halloween

dance. I didn't really talk much but I didn't mind her talking either.

It was obvious that I wasn't going but she asked anyway.

"I don't think so." When I spoke, it came as a whisper. She didn't like that answer so I told her I'd let her know for sure Thursday. We walked to

me locker first but than Becky left me shortly after afraid of being late.

"Monster girl is that you?" I heard Trevor's voice from behind me. I ignored him and shut my locker. He blocked me from going anywhere. "I heard

you were at the hospital and wanted to make sure you didn't put the doctor in a coma when they saw your face." The comment hurt but I put on

the best poker face I could mange and tried to go around him. He stepped into my path, so I turned around only to find Trevor blocking me again.

"It's okay it isn't your fault your ugly. I'll blame genetics if it makes you feel better." I felt my eyes water, I really didn't want to cry in front of

Trevor so I tried to go past him again but he wouldn't budge. "What's the matter, finally realized I was right?" When I heard him say the comment

I didn't know what to make of it? Did he know what happened between Alexander and me? No he couldn't, but the question Trevor asked

sounded like he knew. Thinking of Alexander made my watery eyes turn to tears. Trevor saw, I know he did because I saw his hand reach out to

me as if to hold me but I backed up and made my way to class, wiping my tears away. This day couldn't get any worse.

I know that might be short but if you review the next capter will be longer I promise. :)