A/N: Chapter 2 already? I am on a rolllllll! x) This is another 15 minute segment. I think this may end up having 5 chapters. Enjoy! :)
Chad's POV
Sonny spent most of the evening chatting with Mel and some of my castmates. I hadn't seen spoken with her all night. I wasn't sure I could face her in person.
When I heard Blondie dedicate Two Worlds Collide to Sonny, I could tell she was speechless. Just from observations, it was obvious that the song described their relationship well.
"Alright, anyone else up for a dedication?" said Grady.
"I have a dedication. Well two actually, if that's okay." I said, appearing from my hiding place in the back of the room.
"Yeah, sure. The stage is yours, dude." Cloudy said. Well I think it was Cloudy. Whatever, it's not important.
I strode up onto the platform and said into the microphone, "This first song is for a very special girl. I need to say this now, before I lose the chance. I'll change up the lyrics a bit, but I think this pretty much says it all."
I shouldn't love you but I want to.
I just can't turn away.
I shouldn't see you but I can't move.
I can't look away.
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not,
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop.
Just so you know,
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it.
I won't sit around, I can't let you leave now.
Thought you should know,
I've tried my best to let go of you,
But I don't want to.
I just gotta say it all
Before you go.
Just so you know.
It's getting hard to be around you.
There's so much I can't say.
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way?
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not,
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop.
Just so you know,
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it.
I won't sit around, I can't let you leave now.
Thought you should know,
I've tried my best to let go of you,
But I don't want to.
I just gotta say it all
Before you go.
Just so you know.
This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long.
Looking back I realize,
It was always there just never repaired.
I'm waiting here... been waiting here.
Just so you know,
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it.
I won't sit around, I can't let you leave now.
Thought you should know,
I've tried my best to let go of you,
But I don't want to.
I just gotta say it all
Before you go.
Just so you know…
For the majority of the song, I watched Sonny, waiting for her reaction. About halfway through, we locked eyes for a few seconds before she looked away.
I was hoping for… I don't know. I just thought she'd react differently. It took everything I had to not breakdown and cry.
"This next song is also for her. She made me a better person and all I did was hurt her. I'm so sorry…"
Can't blame you for thinking
That you never really knew me at all.
I tried to deny you,
But nothing ever made me feel so wrong.
I thought I was protecting you
From everything that I go through,
But I know that we got lost along the way.
Here I am with all my heart,
I hope you understand.
I know I let you down,
But I'm never gonna make
That mistake again.
You brought me closer
To I really am.
Come take my hand,
I want the world to see
What you mean to me.
What you mean to me.
Just know that I'm sorry,
I never wanted to make you feel so small.
Our story is just beginning,
We'll let the Truth break down these walls.
And every time I think of you,
I think of how you pushed me through
And showed me
How much better I could be.
Here I am with all my heart,
I hope you understand.
I know I let you down,
But I'm never gonna make
That mistake again.
You brought me closer
To I really am.
Come take my hand,
I want the world to see
What you mean to me.
You make me feel like I'm myself
Instead of being someone else.
I wanna live that every day.
You say what no one else will say,
You know exactly how
To get to me,
You know it's what I need.
It's what I need.
Yeah.
Here I am with all my heart,
I hope you understand.
I know I let you down,
But I'm never gonna make
That mistake again.
You brought me closer
To I really am.
So come take my hand,
I want the world to see
What you mean to me.
Sonny silently hugged me when I reached her table. I gave her a look that said, 'We need to talk' and she nodded.
"Anyone else?" Rainy asked.
"I've got a song." a voice called out.
I recognized the voice immediately. It belonged to none other than James Conroy.
A/N: LE GASP. Review pleaseeee? :)
