AN: I don't own d Gray man. Editing chapters because of typos and lying authors notes. This one said lemon and there was none because I had changed my mind.
P.S Kanda is sort of o.c. towards Allen.
The room was lit only by the moonlight streaming in gently from the open window as Kanda looked over at Allen who lay on his side facing Kanda with one leg bent a little exposing his leg and some thigh and the upper part of his robe fell open exposing some of his chest. Damn, the Moyashi looked so...exotic like that. Kanda had to look away from the sleeping Moyashi only to look at him again when he heard Allen roll onto his back. Sighing internally Kanda moved to lean over Allen studying his sleeping face. His eyes roamed from Allen's face down his chest and even lower. Kanda reached out gently pulled Allen's robe open more exposing the large scar. Gently Kanda traced the scar pausing when his two fingers were close to Allen's nipple before he continued down to the end of the scar.
"Kanda?" A soft confused voice called out when Kanda's fingers stopped on Allen's hip. Kanda looked up at Allen's face to barely open silver eyes looking at him confused.
"Sorry. The scar. I was curious about it." Kanda said still leaning over Allen his long ponytail hanging over his shoulder the tips of his hair brushing against Allen's bare chest. Red tinted Allen's cheek more as Allen felt Kanda's hair on his skin.
"Oh... you could have just asked..." Allen replied softly as he stared up at Kanda completely innocent and honest.
"And you would answer?" Kanda asked as he trailed his fingers from Allen's hip back up to his shoulder not taking his eyes away from Allen's. Allen nodded a little in response. He wasn't one for lying, he believed in honesty building trust.
"I was in a really bad car accident with my dad when I was ten... He didn't make it. I barely did. I spent a month in the hospital to recover and was in physical therapy for almost a year to be able to move my right arm properly again." Allen explained his expression passive as of he wasn't talking about how he had almost died when he was ten. Kanda stared down at Allen as he realized that Allen had almost died once, that Kanda had almost never met him. To say Allen was surprised when he felt Kanda's lips pressed against his own would be an understatement. Kanda's lips were soft and warm like Allen had imagined.
Yes he had thought of Kanda's lips on several occasions. A soft moan escaped Allen's mouth as Kanda slipped his tongue into Allen's mouth exploring the warm wet cavern that had a lingering taste of the sake Allen had drank earlier. Their tongues danced together in a wet sloppy but slow and gentle kiss. When Kanda finally broke the kiss Allen opened his eyes a little as he panted softly his cheeks flushed with excitement. Kanda laced his fingers in Allen's silky soft hair as he was leaning down to claim Allen's lips he was met half way by Allen who gladly accepted the more heated passionate kiss from the man he had admired for two years.
"Ah... K-Kanda..."Allen panted softly as Kanda kissed along Allen's jaw to his ear moaning softly when Kanda licked the shell of his ear before nibbling on it. Turning his head to the side away from Kanda giving him more access to his ear gave away that he enjoyed the attention. Another moan filled the room when Allen felt Kanda's tongue trail from his ear down his neck before he started sucking on Allen's soft neck gently nipping at it.
"W-wait... Kanda..." Allen put his hands on Kanda's shoulders as he tilted his head back and to the side more to expose more of his neck. Kanda continued to lick, nip and suck on Allen's neck despite Allen's protests but the next thing Allen managed to breath out made Kanda stop. "V-virgin..." Kanda leaned over Allen again who's eyes were shut his head turned to the side blushing ashamed.
"You're a virgin?" Kanda asked gently. He was t really all that surprised for some reason and to be honest he was actually quite happy to hear that but he didn't show it. A short nod from Allen was all he got in response. "Moyashi... do you want t me to stop? Something like that... it's meant to be with someone important... It's okay that you are a virgin. I don't mind, I think it's a good thing. It just means you value yourself and take pride in your virtue. I won't force you to give that up." Kanda to speak softly. The Moyashi, he was the only one who could make Kanda feel...gentle. Slowly Allen opened his eyes to look up at Kanda.
"It's okay if it's Kanda... I like you... I respect you... I know you would never make me do anything I didn't want to..." Allen replied in a whisper as he reached up with both hands undoing the hair tie that bound Kanda's hair allowing it to cascade down around them. Kanda stared into Allen's eyes, he saw only trust, no doubt, so he knew Allen didn't feel pressured into anything. Leaning down Kanda gently kissed Allen on the lips for a moment before speaking again.
"Then go out with me." Well that definitely surprised Allen. He hadn't thought Kanda liked him like that. He had thought maybe Kanda was only... no he should have known better. Kanda was too full of pride and discipline to simply sleep with someone for pleasure if he didn't care for them.
"Y-You would go out with me?" The question earned him a flick to the forehead. "Ow..." Allen whined as he gently rubbed his forehead.
"Would I have asked if I wouldn't baka?" Kanda asked with a hint of a smile.
"S-sorry... right. Dumb question. But yes I would love to go out with you." Allen nodded a little as he answered Kanda's original question.
"Okay then." Kanda stated. Allen let out an oof sound as Kanda laid down practically on top of Allen before he rolled so Allen laid on him. Resting his head on Kanda's chest Allen listened to Kanda's steady heart beat closing his eyes. Silence developed around them for a bit as Kanda ran his fingers through Allen's soft white hair.
"I thought you had a boyfriend...?" Kanda said thoughtfully as he recalled their talk at Allen's house.
"Hmm? Oh I did. Narian, in India, I was fifteen at the time. We had known each other for a few months and dated for almost half a year. But he committed suicide the night of his sister's funeral. They were really close so when he lost her he... He didn't know what to do... I tried to comfort him but he insisted I didn't know how it felt to lose someone so close. And then there is my most previous ex. He cheated on me with some girl because I wasn't ready to have sex. I had only known him for a few months and he had been pressuring me to have sex since day one. So of course that made me all the more scared to do it." Allen explained when he finally understood why Kanda had brought up his ex. He was curious how Allen was still a virgin when he had had a boyfriend before.
"So have you never felt pleasure?" The question made Allen blush.
"Well my ex used to try and get me in the mood but for some reason whenever he touched me I felt disgusted not not turned on. But... When you would, even if you'd touch my arm to get my attention I would feel... warm... happy. Not pleasure I know but it felt good you know?" Allen shifted a little so he could look up at Kanda.
"Yes. I know. How far would your ex go?" Kanda wanted to know everything possible about all Allen had experienced.
"He would try to kiss me like you did but I would turn away, he'd grope me till I'd slap his hand enough times. I really don't know why but it really didn't feel right whenever he would touch me. But yeah groping is pretty much as far as he got." Allen shrugged a little.
"And when I was touching you earlier?" That made Allen blush again. He was so damn cute when he blushed.
"It felt really good. I didn't want you to stop... but you had to know..."
"Yes. It's good you told me. Your first time is supposed to be special. And in truth you're too drunk so you should sleep on actually agreeing to do such things with me." Kanda gently ran his hand up and down Allen's arm in a soothing motion with no intent behind it.
"Mm...yeah I'm a little drunk... " Allen laughed softly. "Thank you Kanda. For not taking advantage. It's not something you'd seem like the kind of person to do but looks can be deceiving no?" Allen sighed resting his head on Kanda's strong chest again his hand resting over Kanda's heart.
"That's true Moyashi. And you're welcome. How close were you and your father you lost?"
"We were pretty close. He met me when I was four. I wasn't in the best orphanage. He saw me one day in the yard of the orphanage playing with a ball all by myself so he came over and talked to me for a while and played with the ball with me. After that he kept visiting me every day. One day he brought another man with him. He was kind of stand off ish and seemed...wary of me but he warmed up to me. The next day I was going home with them." Allen said thoughtfully as he stared at the wall as if he could see the memories playing out right before his eyes.
"That other man was Mr. Cross right?"
"Right. Mana's lover. He's caring once you get to know him but he started shielding himself from getting close to people when he lost Mana and almost lost me all in one night. Mana was really kind and caring too. Very polite. He was a doctor, he loved helping people. It was his passion." It was evident with how Allen spoke of Mana he respected and adored him.
"What about your other father?" The question earned a soft giggle.
"Ah dad, he is a lover of all things luxurious. A lover of fine wine that one. He's a good man. He'll stick up for his beliefs and rain hell down on anyone who hurts his family. He's really protective especially after the accident. I was really close to Mana but I think for some reason I was always closer to Marian." Allen shrugged a little before he remembered something that made him roll off Kanda sitting up before leaning over reaching for his bag. Pulling out his phone Allen sent a quick message.
"Hey sorry was hanging out with some friends. I'm heading to bed soon. Good night. I love you. Talk to you later"
"Was starting to worry. Good night I'll call you in the morning. Love you too kiddo."
Once he the almost instant reply Allen put his phone back pushing his bag away laying back down with Kanda.
"What was that about?" Kanda asked wrapping his arms around Allen's waist holding him close when Allen returned to laying his head on Kanda's chest again.
"My dad. If he doesn't hear from me he tends to freak out. So I was telling telling him good night. Even though it's like lunch time for him."
"Lunch time? Where is he?" Kanda asked a little confused.
"London. At the head quarters of his corporations." Allen closed his eyes getting ready to fall asleep. Noting how tired Allen was Kanda stopped questioning him and let him try to sleep. Of course a sudden noise told the two they wouldn't be getting any sleep that night. The noise had been Lavi moaning Tyki's name.
"Thank you for not agreeing to sleeping with me... " Allen whispered as if he was afraid of someone other than Kanda hearing him.
"Yeah... not exactly thick walls..." Kanda sighed as he held Allen close.
