Chapter 2 - Not so Pure

Carlisle

I had been married for one century to one women. A women whom I've loved and cherished, you would think that after that long of being together nothing could come between us. Or at least that was what I had thought until my dear son brought home a young human girl.

Just her presence had lightened up my entire existence by about ten thousand times. She had opened my blind eyes to so much more than what Esme had. Which was what had pained me greatly. It wasn't until I met this small fragile human girl that I had finally understood true love.

But what had also pained me was the fact that this human girl was my sons love and not mine. I could tell when they were together that there was no coming between them. With their brief glances in each others eyes I could tell that they were head over heels in love with one another. How could I possibly think of coming between them? So I had naturally decided to stay in the shadows, keep my thoughts to myself, and look after her from a distance.

But this decision almost immediately became so much more harder when my dear Bella became a vampire. Even though my heart sank with the fact that she would now be forced to live this burdensome immortal life of blood, I had also some greedy thoughts. Like how now she would be with me... I mean us for eternity.

It had suited her, death. Her eyes that were already beaming with confidence and fearlessness before was now also bold and striking, her hair was a beautiful dark caramel brown, and her skin even when sparkling in the sun was creamy and white as snow.

She was a modern day Snow White. She just would not be my Snow White. I had and still have to accept the fact that she was with Edward and a had a beautiful child with him. I can't think of coming between that, them. And even if I did there is no way that she would like me in the way I want. The only thing I would end up ruining would be my own already happy marriage.

Glancing at my dear Esme who was sitting across from me on the couch, I could tell that I could live just as easily with her as I could have with Bella. She was kind and caring and compassionate, just like myself. But she was no Bella who was daring, fearless, and blind to danger. Maybe that was why I was so drawn to her. In every single way that I could think of she was the complete opposite of myself. Where as Esme was almost exactly like me.

"Dear," I breifly heard Esme call, "You alright? You've been on the same page of that book for several minutes." She said glancing towards the tattered book that was in my hands. It was one of my favorites,The Orchardist, it reminded me of my earlier years as a vampire while I was perfecting my thirst habits and trying to remind myself of who I really was.

"Yes sweetheart," I said while getting up to sit next to her. I smoothly put my arm around her and pulled her close to me giving her a peck on her head, "How are you honey?" I said with one of my goofy smiles. The only problem was that I failed with the smile that she had claimed to love oh so much.

"Don't give me that, I know when you are lying," She said with a quite unimpressed face. So I sucked up all my acting skills and yet again lied, "Oh it is just a couple of rather large surgeries that are coming up, I have to work on a little girl who is on the verge of brain damage." I said knowing that it was rather large and horrible thing to lie about. But what was I going to tell her? That I was in love with my sons wife along with her.

After studying my face for a couple of seconds she finally eased and broke her eye contact with me and looked off into the forest through the large windows that had acted as walls in the house. I could tell she was getting thirsty by her strong gaze towards somewhere I wasn't even able to see. "Honey," I said brushing some hair out of her face, "Go and feed, I'm sure you will feel a lot better than what you have been lately." I had noticed she hadn't eaten for the past couple of weeks, it was as if she was starving herself for some reason. Which concerned me even more as she shook her head and lightly replied, "We are going to meet Renesmee and Bella in the meadow soon. If there is anything good there I'll feed."

I had forgotten that we were supposed to meet them, which was surprising since a couple hours ago I was excited to spend more time with my granddaughter. Ever since Edward and Bella had decided to move into a house across town I wasn't able to see them nearly as much as I had wanted to. Only now I couldn't tell if it was because of my feeling as a grandfather or if it was because I was no longer able to watch over Bella in the shadows as much as I used to.

But that would be something I would be able to figure out when I laid eyes on my dear sweet, sweet Bella. As I check my watch I yet again give Es a small kiss to her forehead and gently whisper, "We should get going darling." She nodded and shrugged me off as she grabbed a coat and walked towards the front door. I was concerned on why exactly she had been avoiding me for a while now. Maybe she found out my true feelings? No, thats impossible. Especially since I went through such trouble to hide it from Edward. Which was the hardest thing to do since he could read my thoughts at whatever time he had felt like it. Whenever I even felt as though he was near me I would immediately direct my thoughts to when I did something terrible.

Today happened to be a rather sunny day, which was quite annoying because now we would have to be on our toes for any hikers who strayed off the trails. Sparkling people, I would imagine, would alarm anyone no matter what state they were in. Although I guess it wouldn't be so bad, no one would exactly believe anyone who came out with 'I saw sparkling people in the forest.' Everyone would just assume they had some mental problem. But never the less we were careful, especially with the fact that Renesmee would be there with us.

We had all decided to keep her hidden from all the judgement the world would give her, which would also mean Charlie. It was sweet that he had not asked questions when he first spent time with her. But after seven years and seeing her full grown, we couldn't risk putting him or Renesmee in trouble. So we decided just to tell him that Renesmee had gone to live with another family due to her poor health. Which granted was not the best lie, considering I was a doctor, but for now it would have to do.

"Look who it is," I heard a smug voice from behind us and I just chuckled, "its the bloodsuckers." Jacob joked as he walked up to us and we exchanged a rather firm handshake.

"Jacob your looking quite well," I said and then giving a small wink to Renesmee which made her giggle. Then I noticed something, Bella wasn't with them, "Where is Bella?" I asked trying not to sound as concerned as I actually was.

"She is still at the house," he replied taking his dear sweet time to tell me, which only made me even more impatient and ready to throw him into a tree and interrogate him. But thats where I had to replace my concerns with self control as I took in a deep breath and slowly waited for him to finish. "She didn't look too well, so I assumed she would go out and feed then come here." He said with a shrug.

I shook my head and looked at him dumbfounded, "Jacob she doesn't need to feed, she fed just two days ago," I would know since I had practically been stalking her.

"Oh." He said not as concerned as I felt he should be. But nonetheless I had to keep my temper in a bottle due to the current company that was around, "Don't worry about it," I mumbled, "I'll go check on her."

I gave a look towards Esme and she just shook her head and gave me a look that said 'go'. I nodded as I assumed that she figured I was making sure she was okay for Edward, although I was greedy and really doing it for myself.

I ran over to Edward and Bella's and walked in without even knocking like I usually would, I was just too consumed with worry. "Bella," I said as I walked into their living room and found her standing at a window next to the couch staring into space. Much like Esme was earlier.

She spun around and immediately after meeting my eyes once wouldn't look towards me again. She also seemed quite jumpy and was rubbing her right arm like crazy, which lead me to the conclusion that she injured it somehow. I walked towards her and my heart speed faster as the sunlight hit her just right and sent her sparkling, not that she wasn't already in my mind. "Bella," I mumbled again completely taken by her beauty as I cupped her face in my hands.

We stayed like that for a couple minutes and would have been like that longer until she whispered, "Carlisle?" I quickly snapped out of my trance and started to slowly ask questions, "Are you okay? Are you hurt? Is it your arm?" I said already inspecting it with a gentle touch. But as soon as my ice cold fingers touched a patch of skin she shivered and brushed me away.

"I- I'm fine," She said following biting her lip and backing away a couple of steps. "I just... just wanted to think some things out." She mumbled and took her shaking hand through her hair and spun around roughly, as though she wanted to run away right there and then.

Did her and Edward get into a fight before he left? No, that can't be it. It was torn between whether he should leave her or not, so maybe it was something Jacob had said. He didn't exactly have a soft spot for vampires or quite frankly Bella anymore.

I approached her slowly and went to put a steady hand on her back but I immediately pulled away, remember what had happened when I touched her earlier. I had to refrain myself. "Did you and Jacob get into a fight?" I asked gently and coming up next to her so I could at the very least see her face. But she just shook her head and walked away yet again from me.

"Really it is nothing Carlisle," She said at least turning around and staring at my feet. "We should get going, Renesmee must be worried I'm not there." She said already walking out the door and by the time I had gotten there was gone.

What was going through her head?


A/N: So I feel this would be a good place to stop and pick up at Bella's point of view. I overall think this was an okay chapter, I sadly just couldn't wait to release this chapter. I know it might be a little to quick releasing it on the same day as chapter one. But I had gotten this one done a couple days ago along with chapter one. So I hope you enjoyed and please make sure to review!