Ruthie sighed content with just staying in his arms for the rest of her life but she knew that he would have to go soon back to his other life with the mother of his child and his child. She hates when he has to leave because she fears that he might not ever come back. Somehow they seemed to make it through all the drama that has been going on, with Martin's life being turned upside down with Sandy announcing she was pregnant and that baby was his and not Simon's and then Simon and Rose calling off their wedding. Everyone thought that Simon and Sandy would be together when she came to talk to him after the almost wedding but no such luck, she just came to wish the couple well.

Ruthie also knew that Sandy was harboring some form of feelings for Martin and that scared her. She didn't want to lose Martin after everything they've been through. She was too much in love with him to lose him now. She shook her head freeing her mind of her thoughts.

"Ruthie what's wrong?" She looked up and smiled, she always smiled when she was with him. He just had that something about him that she couldn't help but feel like she was cloud nine.

"Nothing just thinking."

"Care to share?"

"Just stuff that's all."

"Ruthie." She winced at his serious tone. She didn't want to make him think that she was doubting them but how could she not when she knew that he would be returning back to be with her and spend all his time with her. "What's going on?" He asked pulling away from her and looking at her with no emotion anywhere on his face.

"I'm scared." She blurted out turning away from him.

"Scared of what?" He asked gently touching her cheek forcing her to look at him. He hated it when she wouldn't look at him, it made it seem like she was hiding something from him.

"Losing you."

"Ruthie."

"No Martin, don't Ruthie me. I know the way she looks at you she wants you Martin. She wants to be the perfect little family together and I think deep down you want that too." Martin looked at her like she had just slapped him across the face. Ruthie sighed and pulled herself out of her Martin's arms as the tears started to fall down her face. She hadn't told anyone that she thought Martin was going to break up with her the minute he found out Sandy wanted to be with him. It was just too much to keep in anymore, she had to tell him.

"Ruthie, do you really think that?" He gently asked his eyes locked with the ground not daring to look at her.

"Yes I do think that, every time I talk to you you're with Sandy and the baby because Sandy needed your help or something. It's getting to the point where you're spending the night over there. Do you know how much it hurts to hear Simon say that he saw you on Sandy's couch? Do you know how much it pisses me off that she gets to see you more than I do? I'm surprised you haven't caught on to her little games, Martin. She told Lucy that she had feelings for you and wished that you would feel the same." She finished turning her head away from him so he wouldn't see the tears that were starting to fall. She hated crying it always made her feel vulnerable and like a little kid. Martin sighed and rubbed his temples trying to figure out what to do. No one knew about them so it was natural for Sandy to think he was available and telling her that he was in love with Ruthie was out of the question so that left him to just fend her off.

"Ruthie." He whispered trying to get her to look at him. "Ruthie please look at me." He pleaded almost on the verge of tears himself. He didn't want to lose her over something so trivial as Sandy having feelings for him. Ruthie slowly turned her head towards him trying with all her might to hold in the tears that threatened to fall. "I'm not going to run with Sandy because she has feelings for me. She had her opportunity months ago to be with me but she was still hung up on Simon. You shouldn't worry about me spending the night over there because I wouldn't let anything happen. I promise you that I love you and only you. I'm not going to screw up what we have just so Sandy can get her wish of the perfect family, okay? I need you to promise me you're not going to throw us away over her."

"I won't." She whispered looking at the ground beneath her. Martin sighed to himself and pulled her close to him.

It was starting to get hard to keep their relationship a secret.