(Some words/sentences are italicized/bolded to express emphasis. Although, most italicized words/sentences serves as Serah's thoughts (It's Serah's thoughts at the moment because this is her chapter this time). The bolded and at the same time italicized gives a definite emphasis of strong definition or emotion.)
Serah: The Labyrinth
What happened? Is the world tearing apart? The younger Farron's baby blue eyes aren't blinking as the rain pour down on everything. Lightning. Why is she crying? The brave soldier's face came across Serah's confused mind. She loves me? She loves me more than…a sister? She looked at the direction where her older sister ran into. I never saw her cry like that. I never even saw her cry like that over our parents when they've died! The dark horizon continues to rampage in the heavens. I never saw her eyes grew bloodshot from crying like that. The pain. The agonizing pain is painted at those bloody ice blue eyes. The girl's eyes shifted into a worrying expression. And she said she have died a thousand times when she's alone with me. A thunder roars as it streaks in the sky. Those tears. Those words. She shuts down because of me. It's my fault.
Serah stood there frozen under the rain. Still shocked upon Lightning's actions. It's my fault. I didn't even follow her. I didn't even stop her from running. She gripped her own fist from her own anger. I'm the one who inflicted her! I destroyed my own shield! Her own tears started falling from her eyes. I loved Snow. But I loved Claire first! I don't want her to know about my feelings since we're both sisters! She began sobbing against her breath. I was afraid for her to be disgusted and leave me alone. She felt every heavy raindrop touch her skin. I'm so disposable. She wished those raindrops are bullets, so she can hurt herself, despising every inch of her from what she has done. I never thought that she felt the same way! She knelt on the muddy ground. I thought when I answered Snow's proposal, everything will be alright. I was wrong. She gritted her teeth while Lightning's still in her mind. I destroyed everything.
Serah's mind and heart began racing. She can feel her heartbeat pumping so strong and loud against her ribcage. I must do something! She finally moved her legs and focused on the direction where Lightning dashed into. Wait. If I'll tell Lightning right now, what about Snow? Oh by Etro, I'm so screwed! I'm so much in a mess! She inhaled for a second. But what will happen to Claire if won't tell her right now? So many thoughts ran inside her mind like a jammed traffic. All the possibilities went inside her head. But we must admit that almost all possibilities are negative. I must do something!
Oh, Claire. Oh Claire, My Lightning. What have I done? She loved her sister more than anything. She also didn't mean to hurt Lightning because her love for her is immoral. That's why she left her feelings above the surface, but doesn't mean she really abandoned her immoral love for Lightning. Sleepless nights I've gone through just from thinking of Lightning. Lost hours just waiting for her to come home. Yes, I'm really in love with you, Lightning. More tears streamed down her face, mixing with the rain. I love you more than Snow! Because you're the only thing that I have. I love you the most and only, Claire.
She looked around, checked if someone's there or Lightning has returned. No one's here. She felt the rain ceased as she thinks and plans. What should I do? Should I follow her? Should I tell Snow about this first? Should I not attend my wedding myself? Serah paced back and forth as she ponders hard about the things that has to be done. No, that will be silly. She rejected one plan and then thinks of another. Snow would be pissed about this! Well, Lightning's pissed about now! She can feel the pressure throughout her everything. While being choked by these plans, she can't stop worrying about her sister too. Oh, I hope Lightning's alright. Where could she be? If I'll follow her, I might get lost into these woods. And I would be late for the wedding. It'll be too late to do of any of my indecisive plans. I'll be late for everything. She looked at the sky. It's slowly clearing up. Twilight sky kissed the west, tinting some clouds with the colors orange and pink. The wonderful aftermath of a storm, it's either a beautiful twilight sky or a rainbow. She stared at the twilight sky in adoration, remembering the times when she and Lightning where watching the twilight skies. Then, something struck her. The aftermath after the storm. Serah's baby blue eyes shone like a star. That's it! I got it!
~Author's turn~ (Destroying the fourth wall)
Dear reader, did ever felt that you are dumbstruck? That's Serah. She never thought that Lightning felt the same way. She thought it'll be best if she hid her feelings, but she did it to get even more morbid. Feelings are very powerful. They change who you are. And they control who you are. You can hide your feelings, but this you cannot ignore.
Now, dear reader, you can say that Serah's messed up. But when you have a mess, even how fucked up it is, you can still clean it up if you will make a move.
~I don't own the characters of Final Fantasy 13...they all belong to Square Enix and the story is completely fictional.~
