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Love at First Sight Josh Verdes

Harry's POV

I woke with a start, sweating madly. I don't remember the dream, but I knew it was a bad one. Lately, I've been having dreams when I come out, and everyone hates me, or I lose my job, or One Direction breaks up : and it's all my fault. Once I calmed down, I looked up. Louis was still asleep, and we were still on the floor. His soft breathing tickled my ear. I touched his lip ring, fascinated. I tugged on it, and he moaned silently in his sleep. I smirked. That would be useful. I quietly got up, examining the room. There was a One Direction poster for each album we've made, plus a few more. There was a few posters from bands like Pierce the Veil, Bring Me the Horizon, and Sleeping with Sirens : all signed. I've never heard of any of these bands, but from the looks of it, they make pretty heavy music. The walls were covered with a black wallpaper that had dark gray stripes covered in pink and red roses. There was a black canopy bed in the middle of the room, the top trimmed with fake pale pink roses. It was sort of like a gothic flower field theme.

Louis stirred in his sleep, his eyebrows furrowed in fear. "No ... Please stop ... I don't want to ..." he murmured, quick tears falling down his face. He curled into a ball, clawing at his wrists. I shook him lightly, worried. "Louis ... Louis, wake up." I said softly. He just cried harder, thrashing in my arms. "Louis! Wake up!" I yelled. He shot straight up, almost hitting my forehead with his. He fell back onto the blanket on the floor, sobbing lightly. I just held him close to me, whispering sweet nothings into his ear. "Shhh ... It's alright ... I'm here now ..." I cooed. After a while, he stopped crying, he was just shaking. After he stopped shaking, I sat up, pulling him with me. I sat on the bed, he followed. "Care to talk about it?" I asked softly. He shook his head no, then nodded yes. "Back in Donny, Doncaster, I was teased, more like bullied. People didn't exactly like that I was ... different. I was always ... like this," he said, gesturing to his lip ring and black attire. "People also thought it was funny to tease me because I was depressed, they'd tell me things like 'Go finish the job' and 'Go cut yourself emo'. It ... it just hurt, a lot. And if that wasn't enough, Doncaster's a very homophobic town (A/N: Not true in real life). People would hurt me for being, um, who I am. They'd tease me relentlessly. The first time I had a boyfriend, it was actually a bet. When I moved to London, it all stopped because here, everyone's accepting. Heck, there's people more 'weird' than I am. But I never really got over it. There's still the scars, you know? The emotional ones. And they never really healed." he explained, looking down.

"That's a lot to go through." I said. "I just wish ... I wish that I wasn't this way. I don't want this to be part of me, but it is. I just wish that I could be different." he whispered. "Well, you know what they say : 'Should've been, never was, and never will be.'(A/N: BMTH quote :] lol)" I encouraged. He sniffled, smiling weakly. "I guess." he said, unconvinced. "Look, you just told me yesterday that I shouldn't be ashamed of being who I am, so you shouldn't be either." I told him. "Thanks for the pep talk." he said. "You're welcome." I said. We sit there like that for a moment, me hugging him and him sitting in my arms. He shifted so that his face was in my neck, and my body lit on fire. "We should probably go eat," he said softly, his warm breath burning into my neck. I sat up and we moved into the kitchen, where Eleanor was waiting. "Ah, the lovebirds finally woke up." she teased. Louis went beet red, glaring at Eleanor. He goes over to the stove, turning it on, but Eleanor turned it off before he even put a pan on the fire. "Louis, are you sure? We both know that you burn down the house making a bowl of cereal, let alone use the stove." she chided. He scoffed, but let her stop him. "How does she function without seeing?" I whispered to Louis. "I have braille labels on everything, plus I've lived here for three years, so I have everything memorized." she replied. "Oh, and I also have superior hearing." she added. I blushed. "Should we go out instead?" he suggested. I nodded. "Nando's?" he asked. "But that's not a breakfast place." I argued. "It's food, and it's edible." he said. "You're starting to sound like Niall." I grumbled, but I was smiling. "I'll take that as a compliment." he retorted, closing the argument.

I got into the car, and Eleanor climbed into the back. Louis slid into the driver's seat, and Eleanor groans. "Are you driving, Lou?"she asked. "Yup, why?" he responded, turning the key in the ignition. "You're worse at driving than I am– and I'm blind." she complained. "Can you stop criticizing me? It's not easy to drive in the bustling streets of London." he countered. "Lou, there's nobody here. We don't even live in London." she pointed out. "Whatever." he said. Eleanor smirked, hearing the smile in his voice. Louis passed the Nando's, driving on to the mall instead. "Where are we going?" Eleanor asked, looking confused. "We're going to the mall first. Maybe we'll go to Starbucks for breakfast instead." he said. "Why?" Eleanor whined. "I need to get a new lip ring." he stated. She pouted, folding her arms over her chest. "Fine." she grumbled. After she took her sunglasses from the compartment, we headed out. "What entrance is this?" she asked. "Macy's." Louis answered. "'K, I'll meet you here and call you." she said, walking off. "Stay safe!" Louis called after her. "I'm fine, I'm 22 years old." she said, walking further away. He shook his head, smiling to himself. "What store do you want to go to?" I asked. "Hot Topic, it's my absolute favorite." he said, dragging me off into the mall. When we reached the store, Louis eyes lit up. "Hey, Mindy." he called out to the cashier. She nodded in his direction, not opening her eyes. When she did, I could see that they were a piercing blue. She had black hair with red tips, and piercings running up her ear. And a nose piercing. And she was wearing fishnet stockings, making her more intimidating.

I quickly caught up to Louis, who was looking at the body piercing rack. "What about this one?" he asked, holding up a thin braided silver band. "Try it on." I suggested. He stood on his toes to try to look in the mirror, but he couldn't reach it. I laughed at him. "This isn't funny." he scowled. "No, you're just short." I teased. He lightly punched my arm, handing the ring to me. "Then you put it in for me." he challenged. "I don't know how." I said. He gave me a look. "It's like putting in a regular earring, just put it in the hole." he scoffed, rolling his eyes. I carefully pulled his lip, putting it in. Then I took down the mirror from the shelf, handing it to him. "I like it." he said. We paid and left the store, heading for Starbucks. "Can I have the egg and bacon sandwich?" I asked. "I'll take a muffin, and a caramel latte, please." he stated, reaching for his wallet to pay for it. "I'll pay." I offered. "No, it's fine, I will." he countered. "I said, I'll pay." I said, firmer this time. He stuck out his tongue before he gave the cashier his card. She rolled her eyes before taking it, and then gave us our food a few minutes later. We walked towards the tables, then spotted Eleanor. "Hey." Louis said, giving her a hug. "I heard you guys over there, arguing like an old couple." she teased, nudging Louis. He blushed, looking down; I laughed with Eleanor. He gave me a scowl, but his eyes were smiling. "Hey, I've got nothing against it, but I'm just mad that Louis didn't tell me that he was dating one of the most pop stars of all time." she smirked, shoving fries into Louis' mouth before he could protest. Now it was my turn to blush. Louis laughed, the fries scattering onto his tray. "I wish." he scoffed. My heart fluttered. I looked at Louis, at his smile, his eyes, his lips, his hair. He was beautiful. Wait, what?!

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