OMG you guys are all awesome! Thank you for your reviews glad your liking my story so far! Please keep reviewing! Sorry it's a little back and forth between Owen and Cristina's story cause they are apart soooo I'll try not to be too jumpy with it! Lol I am going to mark it as Owen and Cristina just to clarify a little more.

Owen paced back and forth in the trailer with so many things running through his mind. What was he going to do now? How was he supposed to get over her? Was he going to talk to her about where they were at? He was so hurt by her he wasn't sure what to do. Obviously she was going to come and ask for her job back if she was back for good. He didn't know what to do. He sat down on the edge of his bed and put his head in his hands and let out a few tears. He loved her more than anything but was that enough anymore? He sat on the bed for a while just letting out his emotions, something he often held in all the time. He was the together guy who worked non-stop he never showed this side of him to anyone but her and that made him hurt even more.

A few hours later Owen laid back on the bed he was exhausted but he couldn't sleep. He tried to close his eyes hoping the thoughts of her would go away but they didn't.

Cristina

Back at the dream house Cristina was pretty out of it. Her and Mer chatted for a little bit but then Cristina fell asleep on the couch. She had a horrible few days in Minnesota and was utterly exhausted. Mer was happy she was back but she was actually thinking about how Owen would feel now that Cristina was back. The next morning she heard Zola crying, it was early but she figured she would give Mer a break and go get her. She walked into Zola's room.

"Hey Zozo, what's the matter? Auntie Cristina is here. Come on let's go for a walk."

She picked up the little girl and then headed out to the living room, she was still crying so she decided to take her out on the front porch. It was actually a nice fall day out. Cristina walked around with Zola trying to make her laugh and eventually it worked. Cristina sat down on the porch steps and looked around. Then she noticed something, she looked over at the trailer but saw a familiar truck sitting outside of it.

Owen's truck was sitting out front of the trailer. Her heart started racing a little bit she knew she was going to have to see him but she had no idea that he was living in the trailer. The last time she talked to him she said goodbye, they were still married but living very separate lives and now she was back so what was going to happen now? She still loved him so much and saying goodbye to him was one of the hardest things she had to do, but now that she was back maybe just maybe they could work something out.

Cristina walked back into the house quickly with Zola and opened Mer's door.

"Meredith! Wake up! Is…..is that Owen's truck at the trailer?"

Mer woke up abruptly and sat straight up

"What…..oh…..uhhh yeah he asked Derek if he could live there for a while…..He said the firehouse reminded him too much of you."

Meredith was being totally honest with her she wasn't about to meddle in their marriage again, she knew she did that before and she was done with that. Obviously they loved each other.

"Oh…what should I do? Should I go over there?"

"That's your call Cristina, he's your husband."

Husband, that's my husband out here alone in the trailer

"Here take Zola….I…..I need to talk to him."

She put Zola on the bed and grabbed a sweater from Mer's clothes and headed out. Her heart was racing all the way there he was obviously still there because his truck was there. She walked up to the trailer and knocked…..

Owen

It was really early in the morning around 5 AM and Owen decided to give up on trying to sleep and go for a very long run instead to try and clear his head. He ran and ran thinking about everything that had happened to them in the past year. It all started with the abortion and him holding her hand through it supporting her but it was killing him inside. He loved her so much that he was going to support her but he just wished that she would have considered just the thought of having the baby and considering his opinion about it. He had watched her with Zola many times and she was so amazing with her, he couldn't help but imagine her with their own child.

He pushed that thought away because it was done and over with and there was nothing that could change it. He continued running thinking more about all their problems him cheating, then the plane crash, then him taking care of her and getting her through her PTSD when she literally lost her mind, then she left and said goodbye. But through all the hurt and all the pain the love he had for her was overwhelming. He thought back to their good times, to coming home to her at night and just sitting in the firehouse together talking about their day. Things were good for so long and then everything went to hell.

Owen started heading back for the trailer the run didn't seem to help so he figured going into work early and just throwing himself in a good trauma would help. He ran around the corner and saw her standing there at his door knocking.

She jumped a bit as she saw him

"Oh god! You scared me…."

Owen was totally out of breath

"Oh sorry…so your…..your back?"

"Uhhh yeah….I just….I wanted to…..your living in the trailer?"

Owen walked closer to her he was all sweaty and out of breath and seeing her there he didn't know what to say to her without being awkward.

"Yeah I….I needed to get away from the firehouse."

He said awkwardly

"Oh…."

She wasn't sure what to say, she wanted to just hug him and never let him go but there was a lot of damage between them, she was a little surprised that he wasn't more welcoming to her but then again why would he be.

"So are you coming back to work? Is that what you wanted to talk about?"

Owen was a bit cold with her

"Well yeah I do want to come back, but I thought maybe….I don't know we should talk or something."

"Talk about what?"

"Owen….."

Was all she could say she loved him so much she was just so sad it had got to this point; she hurt him especially with saying goodbye to him over the phone. Owen looked down at his watch.

"Oh I have to get to work, I have rounds I'm doing today so come and see me and we'll get you all set up your papers signed to. Welcome back."

He walked into the trailer and let out a huge sigh and rubbed his eyes. He was so cold but he was hurting and seeing her again all these feelings came flooding back to him.

Cristina was taken aback by his reaction. She knew he was hurting and so was she, she needed to talk to him and not about work but she had no idea where to start. She started walking back to the house and letting out a few tears along the way. She wanted to fix them because she loved him but she wasn't sure where to start.

She walked in the house and looked at Mer sitting on the couch with Zola.

"How did it go?"

Cristina took a deep breath trying to hold back the tears but she couldn't hold it in any longer. Her knees buckled and she leaned against the door shrinking down into a ball on the floor and sobbed. Mer walked over to her and put her arm around her friend.

"Shhhh it's okay…..it's okay."

She held her friend close and just let her cry she didn't say anything because obviously Cristina still loved Owen so much.

Owen

Owen felt pretty horrible about what had just happened he wasn't sure what to say to her or where to start. He started the shower and hopped in letting the hot water take over his body, it felt good but his emotions were over taking him and he let out some tears in the shower. What was going to happen with them he didn't know, but he knew he still loved her more than anything in the world and maybe just maybe they could get past this but right now the pain was too fresh he just needed time to think things through.