"Please I want to come, I want to help. Jasper is as much my family now as ever. Please!" I beg looking into my husband's eyes.
"No, Bella! You need to stay here with Renesmee, while we figure this out. Please don't. We need to go and get Alice and we will come right back. It shouldn't take long. I don't want Renesmee seeing Alice like… well how she is right now."
"Have you spoken to her?"
"Carlisle has, she's not good. He's worried she's going to do something stupid."
"Do you know what happened?"
"Not exactly and from everyone's mind, all we seem to know is that Jasper is gone. I don't think anyone knows any more than that. I guess Alice hasn't been in a position to let us know yet."
His gorgeous face is speaking a thousand words to me at this moment. I can't believe the pain that I can see coming through his eyes. The last time I saw him this bad was when he rescued me from James. I hoped to have never seen this look again. Looks like I wasn't so fortunate.
All I can think about right now is Alice. My poor Alice. What is she going through all alone? Where is she? Is she ok? I want her to ring, or tell us that she is alright in some way. I dread to think about anything bad happening to any one of the Cullen's, but Alice has always looked out for me and has always been my best friend as well as a sister. I just want to see her and be there for her like she has been so many times for me in the past.
"Edward we must leave, now. Any longer and there's no saying what she might do" Carlisle says approaching us in the corner of the room.
"I'll be right out, get the engine started." Edward returns.
The remainder of the Cullen's flood to the car waiting outside the front of the house.
"Bella, please when Renesmee wakes, will you tell her that her father wont be long and he'll be back to hold her in his arms as soon as he can." He grabs my hands, one in each of his, and looks deep into my eyes.
"Of course I will. Can you make me that promise too, to hold me in your arms when you come back?" This was no joke. Whenever Edward left, it was like a part of me was going with him. The part of me that made me smile and laugh and made me feel complete. It was going… again. With no wonder when it would return.
He leaned in, and pressed his warm, soft lips against mine. Holding it there for a lifetime. I didn't want to break it. I almost wanted to go and get some chains and tie him to me so he could never leave me again but I knew it was hopeless. Besides this was for Alice. All I long for his her safe return.
I wrapped my arms around his waist and pressed myself against his chest.
"I love you" I winced. Sometimes I wish I could cry, just to suppress the emotion. It just builds up and never gets a release.
"Oh, love, and I love you so much." His voice sounding so smooth and honest. "I will be back as soon as I can. I hate leaving you, but you know I have to."
"I know. Just look after Alice, I couldn't stand it if anything happened to her."
"I will" He gave me one last kiss and our hands broke. There it was. The connection lost. All I can do now is count down the days until I see him again.
The nights seem longer without Edward here. Its times like this when I wish I could sleep. Make the days and nights pass quicker. But all I can do is watch the sunrise and sun set until he is back with me.
I lay parched on the edge of my… our huge double bed just thinking about how things have changed over the last couple of years. How amazing my life has turned out. I turn quickly as the noise of my door opening wakes me.
"Mommy?" Renesmee's cute little nose peeks around the edge of the door. "I had a bad dream."
"Oh sweetie, come here." I extend my arms out as she runs into them. I feel her ultra warm body jumping into my lap.
"Do you want to sleep in here tonight?" I ask her while pulling a strand of her gorgeous hair and swooping it behind her ear.
She nods at me with a hint of a smile.
I set out the bed, so she can jump under the covers. She sleeps on my side, while I shuffle over to Edward's usual side. She closes her eyes and before I know it she's drifting off into her own little world.
