Disclaimer: I am only writing this once so listen up. I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT. I AM NOT STEPHENIE MEYERS.

Sorry for not updating for a while. I've been super busy with school. R&R please!


I braced myself as the new girl walked towards me and took the seat next to mine. I still wasn't accustomed to all the venom in my mouth whenever a human approached me. I had heard people whisper about this girl all day, she was from Arizona, she's Chief Swan's daughter, her name is Isabella and she had fallen on Eric earlier this day. I shook silently with laughter at the last one.

I saw her eyeing me from the corner of my eyes. Typical, hormonal human teenager. She looked pale like the usual people of Forks which is odd considering she's spent most of her life in Arizona, the city of warmth, sunshine and tans.

"Hi," She suddenly said. "I'm Bella."

I nodded. "Jasper."

Mrs. Kamda had started the lesson, but my attention was still focused on the new girl. Her mechanical posture, lips drawn out in a thin line and the anxiety I could feel, radiating off of her in waves. Slowly, I began to rearrange the molecular structure of the chemicals being released in her brain, until at last, I had caused her body to start the release of endorphins.

"What choice would you make Mr. Cullen?" Mrs. Kamda asked.

"The last one." I answered.

The class past slowly as it did everyday for me and I got to thinking 'What's here for me in this classroom, learning about how to care for a child or how to cook?'. And I knew the answer. Nothing. Not a single thing was of use to me, but what could I do about it? Other than this tedious life I'm living, what else is there? There was the life I used to lead. The life of a killer, but that was no longer a possibility for me. I could not disappoint Carlisle. Not after all he had done for me, defended me against the others and brought me my salvation. Yet salvation no longer held the hope I'd once had for it. There was nothing for me in this world, yet I'm still doomed to walk upon it.

Distracted momentarily, I heard Bella sigh beside me and I caught her doodling in her notebook. It was a heart broken in two with the words 'don't fall in love' written around it.

Silly human. Did she not know that love was purely chemicals on her head, causing her to feel a certain way? Sometimes, I wondered about what was truly real and what was merely artificial. Was everything that we'd done purely out of chemical reactions? Us thinking we're an individual with free will, when in reality, it's our bodies controlling us. Molding us slowly without our acknoledgement, because it owns it. No, it is us.

So what are we? A mere puppet to science. Everything we think or feel is a lie of some sort. But we can never catch the liar, catch ourselves lying to ourselves because we truly believe in the lie and in the liar.

The bell rang, signaling the end of the day. I got out of my seat and hurried out of the classroom. I needed to get away from my thoughts. Having unlimited amounts of time on your hands can make a person go crazy. When I arrived by the car, all my previous thoughts flew out of my head for the moment. Everyone was already there but something was wrong. I could feel the tension and confusion in the air. Literally. There was some fear and sadness mixed in there two, but tension was the most prominent emotion at play.

"What's the matter?" I asked once we were all in the car, driving at 150km/h but we weren't on our usual way home. It looked like we were heading to the hospital.

No one answered me. They just kept looking straight ahead, ignoring me. I knew Rosalie didn't know what was happening, but Alice and Edward. There was something between them that only they knew.

"What's wrong?" I said in a more demanding voice.

I saw Alice flinch. "Edward is just having some troubling controlling his bloodlust." She spit out, and Edward shot her a glare.

I raised my eyebrows questioning the meaning of her words. Edward had never lost control; next to Carlisle, he had the most control. It was surprising me to think that this had happened. Edward stopped the car near the hospital.

"Sorry, but you're going to have to run home today." He said; you could hear the tension in his voice.

Even Rosalie didn't complain aloud, but I could feel her agitation.

"Just come back soon Edward." Alice said. "We'll miss you."

He nodded and was soon out of sight.


Sorry that nothing drastic happened in this chapter but I don't want things to happen too fast because then it doesn't seem plausible. Anyways, I'm not gonna write Edward's POV for when he meets cuz I think everyone already knows what he's thinking. I mean, do you really want me spending time to write a chapter that you've read tons of times before or do you want me working on another chapter specifically for this story?