CHAPTER TWO
Adam's POV
Wow, just seeing her in the halls…it made me feel like I got kicked in the stomach. I still like her so much even after she hurt me. But that smirk I did definitely got to her. I could practically see her blush. I know she still likes me; it's just her parents that are the problem. They got to her with their brainwash therapy. She's not confused, she's perfect.
I can hear the whispers from students in class talking about my new look. From what I think I'm hearing it has all been good things. I even heard some girls saying I look hot.
I wonder what Becky thinks of my new look?
I would find out soon enough cause I have chemistry next and that means I would be sitting right across from Becky.
I don't know if I am excited or nervous to see Becky. Just seeing her in the halls gave me this gut-wrenching feeling remembering our breakup. But then again, when being flirty with her, like that smirk I gave her in the halls, maybe I can get her to realize I'm a guy by getting her to fall for me again. I need to take this flirting thing up a notch.
When I get to my chemistry class, I take my assigned seat directly across from Becky. As I get out my binder and notebook, I can feel her staring at me up and down.
"You look different." are the only words Becky manages to get out
"Yeah, what do you think?" I ask
"You look very nice." Becky says uncomfortably
"Ha-ha, I wouldn't exactly call this look "nice" but you can call it whatever you want." I say
I stare directly into Becky's pure blue eyes, but I feel like I am staring right into her soul. "You're looking pretty nice yourself." I say being flirty
"Don't do that Adam." Becky whispers
"Do what?" I ask even though I know what she's trying to tell me
Becky blushes "You know what. You're flirting with me even though you know I broke up with you last week. First with that smirk in the hallway and now commenting on how I look. We can't be together. You're confused and I'm confused."
"You didn't seem that confused when you were flirting with me and then asked me to be your boyfriend. Becky, you know we should be together." I whisper as I grab her hand
"This is wrong Adam, you and me…we can't be together."
"If this is wrong then why does it feel so right? You know you feel it too. If this is so wrong to you, then why are you still holding my hand?" I ask
Becky quickly realizes my hand is still holding onto hers and pulls her hand away from my light grip.
"Just let it go Adam, I can't be with you." Becky whispers
"Is that what you really want?" I ask her
"It doesn't matter what I..."
I immediately interrupt her
"Stop doing what your parents want, do what you want. Becky, it's your life and you need to be happy. God would want you to be happy. If you can honestly tell me that I didn't make you happy and you don't want to be with me, then I promise, I'll leave you alone." I say
"Of course you make me happy Adam, and yes I want to be with you, but it's not that simple. You're a girl in the eyes of god" She says
"Becky, I can tell just by your tone that you don't actually believe that. It's not like you can just switch your feelings on and off for me Becky. Listen, I don't want to have any regrets and I know that if I didn't at least fight for you, that I would regret that for the rest of my life. So stop making excuses and be with me." I say as I grab her hand again
I can see her fighting herself on what to do. Whether to be happy and be with me or make her parents happy and do brainwash therapy.
"I need time to think" is all that she manages to say as she releases her grip from my hand
The rest of class I can feel her stares on me, having an internal struggle with herself. I know she wants to be with me, but I don't know if that's enough.
