What had that nuzzle meant? To both men it meant love, but different kinds of love.
Kensei was positive that he cared for Shuuhei like a lover cared for his lover.
Shuuhei had cared for Kensei more then he should have, but he knew that Kensei would never look at him that way. So he merely pretended he cared for Kensei like a son cares for his father. But deep inside Shuuhei knew the truth. He loved Kensei.
Kensei also deep inside knew the truth in his soul, but he didn't hid it from his self. He always was touching Shuuhei in such ways that it almost seemed like he was longing to do much more. When Shuuhei took his shirt off in the kitchen once, he had stared at Shuuhei in such a way, that Hisagi thought the older man was going to eat him.
Shuuhei couldn't stand it. So he did what he had to do. He didn't sleep in the same room with Kensei anymore. He locked his bedroom door and he didn't let the older man kiss his forehead or lips. The last time he had let the older man kiss his forehead...Kensei had somehow kissed his lips instead.
The kiss had felt...heavenly for Shuuhei. Kensei's mouth had been tender, coaxing Shuuhei's to respond. The submission, unexpectedly sweet made Kensei act reckless. His hand went behind Shuuhei head and gently cupped it, pulling Shuuhei's lips upward, even closer, so that the pressure of the kiss in creased and grew demanding, ardent. Kensei's arms seemed to sallow Shuuhei up, but so tenderly for all their strength that Shuuhei forgot his misgivings. Shyly Shuuhei's hands tangled in the think, grey hair at Kensei's nape, savoring the softness and coolness of it under his fingertips. The younger man felt Kensei's hand at his throat then, sliding hungrily up and down it and then he was turned around so that Kensei's mouth forced his head back against his broad shoulder. The kiss went on and on and Shuuhei couldn't help whimpering when Kensei pulled away. Shuuhei's eyes open, misty and startled. He was still clinging to Kensei, his heart beating madly in his chest. Kensei looked totally impervious to any emotion. A faint smile touched his face though. "Will you fall if I let you go Kid?"
Shuuhei tensed, but his virgin lips yielded to the slow stroking of Kensei's mouth and with a shaky sigh he let Kensei have his mouth without restraint.
Sighing Shuuhei handed Kensei his dinner and he took it, his hand brushing against his deliberately as Kensei took it. Shuuhei jerked his hand away and dived for a fork to give to him. Kensei did the same thing, making an excuse of it to caress Shuuhei's fingers with his.
Shuuhei pulled away and Kensei's eyes narrowed the smile fading from his lips. They both sat down, the air between them heated.
"How's your friend Kira?"
Shuuhei didn't glance up and just took a small bite of his food. "He's fine...he said I could come over sometime."
"Why do you always want to go visit him!?" Kensei growled softly, pushing his plate to the side.
Shuuhei pulled his head up to look at Kensei, ready to defend himself and his friend, but stopped dead at the look on the other man's face.
It wasn't mockery or sarcasm or a need to hurt. It was pure, helpless desire on the older man's face.
"Come here."
Shuuhei hesitated, but Kensei's hand shot out, grasping her wrist and pulled the younger man into his lap.
"Kensei!" Shuuhei protested loudly as Kensei leaned closer, his chest pressed against the other's.
"Shut up.." Even as he spoke, Kensei's head lowered and his mouth eased down on Shuuhei's startled lips.
Shuuhei reacted helplessly to the taste and feel of the older man, even though he tired feebly to at first resist him. But Kensei's mouth was warm and coaxing and he did enjoy it when Kensei kissed him...
"Open your mouth..." Kensei whispered against the other's lips and when he did, Kensei deepened the kiss with deliberate passion. He felt Shuuhei's breathing change under him, felt his lips trembled as he yield to HIM.
A soft sound came from Shuuhei which went to Kensei's head. He groaned and his hands found Shuuhei's head, cupping it, thumbs explored Shuuhei's cheeks, the corners of Shuuhei's mouth, while the hungry kiss continued for several minutes.
Shuuhei said something against his mouth and he lifted it just a fraction, his breath jerky against Shuuhei's.
"What?" Kensei whimpered, half-dazed by the sweetness of having Shuuhei in his arms after weeks of being haunted by the memory of Shuuhei's lips.
Shuuhei panted softly. "K-Kira is picking me up..."
Kensei growled softly and let go of the younger man, letting Shuuhei quickly pull away.
"It pisses me off that you always want to hang out with him."
"I can't always hang out with you! If I did you would always be trying to kiss me!" Shuuhei snapped, glaring at the older man.
"So you don't like it when I kiss you?"
"K-Kensei...t-that's not what I meant.." Shuuhei blushed and raced out of the room, slamming the front door behind him.
Kensei sighed softly and put his head in his hands. What had he done?
He had brought Shuuhei back to his place.
He had nuzzled Shuuhei, who didn't seem to mind. So Shuuhei most like him too. Right?
He had kissed Shuuhei...two times.
And Shuuhei had run off.
The real world sucked.
Nah it didn't suck, it was hell.
Shuuhei stood at the foot of the red-haired man's bed, contemplated his pale face and labored breathing. Renji was dying. And there was nothing he could do. Renji was going to die, that much was certain. But when and how, Shuuhei didn't know. How the fuck was he supposed to cope after his friend's death?! Could he go crazy? No he couldn't. Society would hate him even more if he did go insane. "S-Shuuhei..." "I-I'm scared..." Shuuhei sighed softly, but inside he felt like he was breaking. His friend wasn't acting anything like his cheerful, bright self. "There's nothing to be scared of." "Yes there is...stay away from Kira's lover...Gin."
"Hai!" Shuuhei raced over to his friend's side and gently grasped the other's hand.
The snake eyed man that acted like a fox. Shuuhei had seen the older man a few times, he often picked Kira up from college. He treated Kira kindly and they were dating...for several years in fact. So why should he be scared of the man Kira trusted?
"Gin's a good man...he just likes to talk about the weirdest things..." "Like how he's just as gloomy as you?" Shuuhei chuckled softly and leaned against the wall, watching as Kira sat at his desk, reading some piece of shit that Shuuhei hated. "S-Shut up baka! I know he never seems to look people in the eye, but that doesn't mean there is anything bad about him!"
"Nothing? You sure about that? I heard that he dated Aizen and that he-" Kira slammed his hands down on the desk. "Will you shut up!?" Shuuhei sighed softly and stepped closer to his friend. "Are. You. Sure?" "Positive."
Shuuhei fidgeted with his small bag while the older man, Gin lounged idly against the front door.
Shuuhei glanced around what seemed like a deserted place. "Um...Do you know where Kira is? He sent me a text saying I could come over."
"He did?" The man smirked and slowly walked over to the younger man, slowly taking his bet off. "He didn't I tell ya...I sent ya the text...Kira left his phone at my place.."
"What?" Shuuhei gasped before Gin ripped the front of his cotton shirt down from the nape of his neck, baring his chest.
"So many scares...I'd love to see that skin of yours covered in red..." Gin slowly opened his eyes, reviling his crystal clear, blue eyes. Before Shuuhei could pull away in shock, Gin brought the leather belt down on Hisagi's skin with killing force.
"Stay out of trouble Shuuhei...""Kensei.." Shuuhei whispered softly before he fell down onto the cold, wood floor, Gin watching his every move. He whispered the older man's name again before he black out, a small pool of blood collating on the floor.
"Shuuhei..." "Hmm?"
"You know I'd do anything for you...right?"
"Yeah." Kensei smiled gently and he pulled the child onto his lap. "I'll always keep you safe as long as I live..." Shuuhei glanced up at the older man, as the older man stroking his hair. "Do you...promise?" "I promise."
Writer's note: I know it seems pretty gloomy, BUT it will have a happy ending! I promise!
